Cressida I could particularly feel my pulse in my ears as I stared at Savaş who came to the nightstand and picked a few things out of it but I couldn't see what they were yet but when I did… I was speechless. He stood in front of me, holding a blindfold in one hand and the other had a ball gag. Now I actually realise what utterly and truly fucked means.He already took my ability to touch anything when he tied me up and now he wanted to take away my abilities to see and talk and even though the idea should scare the hell out of me… it doesn't. In fact I found my body heating even more in anticipation because I never tried anything like that before because most of the boyfriends that I had in the past didn't go far than kissing with me because they always feared my Dad and who I was but the thing about Savaş…He didn't fear anyone or anything. He knew no limits when it came to what he wanted and I was what he wanted so he didn't exactly care about who my family was and what they cou
Cressida I've been awake for maybe three hours. While the three horsemen had been on my side the whole time, almost as if they're guarding me, bringing all the food and water to the room but the one person I wanted to see was nowhere to be seen. I needed to see him for two reasons. One, he owed me six sentences now after wrenching six orgasms out of me yesterday. Two, because I… wanted to see him. I never imagined that I'll miss seeing him and I'm afraid that he changed his point of view about me because I fainted but that thought left as soon as it came because I knew Savaş wouldn't think about me like that… or at least I hoped."So… when are you going to let me leave the room or am I a double prisoner now?" I asked Jesper who's eyes widened before he sighed and looked at me with concern and worry which did make me happy because I saw that by now I can rely on the horsemen to be by my side but I didn't want to be babysitted too."Well technically… you were supposed to be down the
Cressida It was lunch time now and Savaş kept disappearing and coming back with food trays here and there until he finally settled in front of me on the table, both of us were eating in silence until… I decided to ask a question."What was that place we were in? A private beach?" I knew that he didn't exactly have to answer this question but I still hoped as I went back to eating. "An Island that belonged to my mother, no one would suspect it." His mother. I never asked him about her, the only thing I knew was that my mother and his passed out around the same time which I wouldn't consider as coincidence anymore."Tell me about your mother." I paused when he froze and tensed for a second so I quickly tried to make the situation right."If you want to tell me about her of course, you don't have to just because I asked you to–" I was rambling anything that came to my mind by now but cut myself off and looked down at my plate as I started eating again, hoping that he would forget that
Cressida "Get up and strip." He ordered, not doubting for a second that I would actually get up and do as he asked. He knew me more than I knew myself. I got up from the bed on shaky legs and pulled off my jacket and bra and after a few attempts with trembling fingers, I unbuttoned my shorts and let them slide down my body then stepped out of them.I was about to get rid of my panties when Savaş ripped them a part, earning a sherik out of me but I was still understanding what happened when Savaş reached behind me and I heard the click of his belt before he took both my wrists in one hand and placed them behind my back.Savaş then wrapped his belt around my wrists and made sure that the grip was good enough before he let them go and placed his hand on my shoulder, pushing me down until I was sitting on the white sheets of the bed again.Even though my hands were tied behind my back by Savaş's belt, I would never understand the excitement I always felt when I got tied up, as if no lon
Cressida Two fucking weeks.He left me without any kind of sexual satisfaction for two weeks.Savaş kept on saying that I had to be one hundred percent sure that I wanted to do it and no matter how many times I said he just kept on stalling but looking at the positive side, we spent more normal time together, we got to know each other a lot.While I was still in contact with Talia and Jack, it was the three horsemen who I became closer with as they visited us on the yacht from time to time just like they were here now.Which was the only reason why my mind was taken off my attempts on making Savaş have sex with me but he was making it so hard for me with the white shirt he was wearing, the way it showed his muscles was just… beautiful and I was lucky that he was talking with Ace and Oliver right now otherwise he would've caught me staring. "Oh don't tell me you two didn't fuck yet." My eyes widened as I looked behind me to find Jesper giving me one of his grins and I was sure that m
Cressida I regained consciousness at the feeling of something happening to me down south but what actually jolted me awake was something entering my pussy, buried deep inside but slowly I realised that it was his tongue, that's when I knew that I should've expected that from him. I moaned as loud as I could while my hands fisted the sheets underneath me when my eyes finally were wide open to be met with green ones, these damned green eyes."Morning, Güzel." He said in a morning throaty voice that had me become even wetter while small gasps left my mouth as he thrusted his fingers in and out of me while his tongue was sending jolts to my clit and it felt so fucking good."Feels good?" He asked while looking me dead in the eye but his movements could only make me let out sounds of pleasure to the point where I couldn't answer him which came at a price when he used his other hand and harshly pinched my nipple. Hard.I screamed out as pain and pleasure mixed together while letting out a
Cressida I couldn't feel anything anymore. Nothing mattered anymore, numbness was my ally now, helping me cope with the demons inside my head.My feet were moving me on their own accord inside our mansion but it felt… empty.No it didn't feel, it was empty, life no longer existed in it and no sound was there, just the sound of our footsteps through the empty entrance, darkness surrounding it.Aunt Natalie was about to turn on the lights when I raised my hand in the air, telling her to stop which she did after looking at my father.I started going upstairs, not waiting for anyone to follow me and I knew I was supposed to go inside my room but my feet carried me somewhere else, somewhere that would bring me pain but my heart didn't seem to care.His room was dark but I knew my way very well. I walked inside it before I collapsed down on the bed as I let myself take in his smell, his scent being everywhere around me as if he was trying to wrap me in a comforting hug.But I couldn't let
Cressida The five stages of grief:Denial: But to deny the truth doesn't make the truth go away. Sooner or later the hard realities of the truth will bite. I spent what felt like an eternity in his room, hoping everyday that he would open the door and walk inside the room, annoy the hell out of me. I wouldn't even mind if he made me watch those terrible movies he loved with him but I just have to keep waiting until he comes back because he had to come back.He had to come back to me… he's my other half, the one who understood me without needing for either of us to say a word, our eyes always talked for the both of us so I'll just keep on waiting for him to come back here so we could go back to loving and protecting each other."Ida, please… you need to come out of this room." Dad said softly yet with frustration… Why was he frustrated? Didn't he miss Jack as well, he should be happy that I'm still waiting for him to come back."It's not 'This' room. It's Jack's room and I'm fine st