Cressida I couldn't feel anything anymore. Nothing mattered anymore, numbness was my ally now, helping me cope with the demons inside my head.My feet were moving me on their own accord inside our mansion but it felt… empty.No it didn't feel, it was empty, life no longer existed in it and no sound was there, just the sound of our footsteps through the empty entrance, darkness surrounding it.Aunt Natalie was about to turn on the lights when I raised my hand in the air, telling her to stop which she did after looking at my father.I started going upstairs, not waiting for anyone to follow me and I knew I was supposed to go inside my room but my feet carried me somewhere else, somewhere that would bring me pain but my heart didn't seem to care.His room was dark but I knew my way very well. I walked inside it before I collapsed down on the bed as I let myself take in his smell, his scent being everywhere around me as if he was trying to wrap me in a comforting hug.But I couldn't let
Cressida The five stages of grief:Denial: But to deny the truth doesn't make the truth go away. Sooner or later the hard realities of the truth will bite. I spent what felt like an eternity in his room, hoping everyday that he would open the door and walk inside the room, annoy the hell out of me. I wouldn't even mind if he made me watch those terrible movies he loved with him but I just have to keep waiting until he comes back because he had to come back.He had to come back to me… he's my other half, the one who understood me without needing for either of us to say a word, our eyes always talked for the both of us so I'll just keep on waiting for him to come back here so we could go back to loving and protecting each other."Ida, please… you need to come out of this room." Dad said softly yet with frustration… Why was he frustrated? Didn't he miss Jack as well, he should be happy that I'm still waiting for him to come back."It's not 'This' room. It's Jack's room and I'm fine st
Savaş"What the fuck does that mean? How come none of you talked to her?" I gritted out, my mind not wanting to believe that she was blocking herself out and away from everyone. Jesper and Talia included. "She's shutting herself out, alright? She had a breakdown at the funeral then just like that, she was back to square one." Talia explained, and we all saw how she was holding back her tears for Ida which made Ember go to her side and pull her in a hug and even though no one understood how these two became friends again, they just did somehow.But my mind was stuck on Ida, because that son of a bitch Dante didn't let me go to the funeral, I wasn't able to be there for her and even if I was… she wouldn't have acknowledged me which is a bad sign, a very bad one.I knew Ida, she would've tried having my head on a silver platter for her if she believed I had something to do with her brother's death but that made my case worse because I wanted her to come here, to hit me and scream at me.
Cressida Now I had to go back and pretend that I'm okay, that I'm not broken beyond repair yet.But that doesn't mean that I'm going back to the way I was because I'm simply waiting for this damned school year to end so I could go back to London and forget about everything and everyone… that I met in here. I walked through the school halls and I could sense how everyone was staring at me with pity, feeling bad for the dead boy's sister… well fuck them. I don't need their pity nor would I allow them to look at me like that.I raised my head, my eyes making contact with a few students and the moment they saw me looking at them, they turned their gazes away and tried to act as if they weren't so focused on me just a second ago. Pathetic.I continued walking until I reached my locker when I was suddenly surrounded by three people, one of them was Talia but when I actually took the time to see who it was, they were Talia, Ember and Daisy, each of them going to their own locker and surpri
Cressida "Why should I wear a wig?" I asked, frustration filling my voice because the damn wig just couldn't be placed on my head like I wanted."One, we can't let The Raven's Caw know that you know about them. Two, since your majesty doesn't want to run into Savaş then we have to disguise you." Talia answered while applying on her eyeliner.I didn't know who to ask about the whole Raven's Caw thingy but apparently she knew because her father was in the meeting too but I didn't notice him so she told me some stuff but not everything so we still have to go some sort of underground club that the Raven's Caw own, where fights happen so that we can spy around.But the problem was that the horsemen hung around there a lot and might as well be there tonight so I told her that the last thing I want is running into Savaş there and that is why I'm suffering with a blonde wig now.Once I finally had the wig on, we headed to the club where a bouncer was seated but he got up when he saw Talia be
CressidaI was about to leave the nightclub while Savaş was supposed to catch up with me but something didn't feel right, I knew it.While I was trying to shake off that feeling someone pulled me from behind by the waist and before I could scream a hand that was holding a piece of cloth was placed on my mouth and nose.Fear filled my veins as I tried to reach for my gun but someone else came up from the shadows and took it away and only now did I notice the smell of chemicals filling my nose, forcing me to drift out of consciousness until everything turned black.************************When I woke up again I found myself in a basement… that basement. The same one where I was locked with Jack in, the one I met Savaş in.Lifting myself off the ground I looked around me until my eyes stopped at the figure of someone… Savaş.I got up quickly, rushing to his side before I fell down on my knees beside him, my hands cradling his face while shaking him gently.I called out his name. "Savaş?
TW: SACressida I shrieked the moment I felt someone bury their fist in my hair and pull me up from the ground harshly. I rapidly started blinking to get rid of the sleeplessness but feeling someone tie my hands behind my back had me remembering where I was again which had me search for Savaş, even though someone besides the person grabbing me placed a tape over my mouth, taking away my ability to speak."For safety measures we had to take him out of here before you, no need to keep on being a little slut for him, Ida." Frozen. That's exactly how I felt.Noah. That voice belonged to Noah. He was my friend and now he… who was he? How could he talk to me that way? How dare he call me that as if I'm nothing. I groaned through the tape while squirming in an attempt to get away from him but he suddenly was in front of me and I barely registered what happened before I felt a sting on the side of my face that had my head turned to the side.He slapped me. That son of a bitch slapped me.
DanteThrough my entire life, I made lots of mistakes and formed way too many enemies but it never crossed my mind that it would affect my only child and wife but it did.My mistakes came back to haunt me the moment Deniz died while trying to protect Savaş -our son- knowing damn well that it would cost her life but she was always that way… it was what made me love her in the first place, her selfless and loving nature had me captured the moment I met her.She and I both knew I wasn't a decent man yet she still let me into her life until I managed to have her love me and there were moments in my life where I thought that I was way too cruel to have her by my side, too cruel for her pure heart but the moment Savaş was born and I saw her holding him and staring him down with unconditional love.The moment she looked away from him and her gaze settled on me, full of love, passion and trust… I just knew it would be impossible for me to let her go but life was never fair to me… ever.One bu