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Not What He Wanted

Author: BlueHaze
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**TRISTAN**

*'...I can't stop talking to Natalie.'*

My fist clenched on the bar counter as I stared into the golden liquid in my tumbler. That little pain in the ass. How could one fucking person grate so hard on my nerves?

What would I have done differently if it were someone else, not those puppy-brown eyes looking at me from across the table? I downed the glass in one frustrated gulp. Maybe, for starters, I wouldn't have had him at my *fucking* table.

The bartender refilled my glass before I could call out, his sea blues lingering right on my zipper—a blatant open invitation.

Normally, I’d take it. God knows I needed the distraction tonight—anything to silence the voice in my head or the heat crawling under my skin. But for some reason, I wasn’t interested.

Grabbing my glass, I left the counter for an empty sofa tucked in the corner of the room. The club buzzed with life—flashing neon lights, bass-heavy music pounding against my skull—but it all blurred into white noise.

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BlueHaze

This scene made me scream at my draft. Haha. How's your day going? ❤️

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