Broken Bonds

I was standing in the middle of the room, with warm tears streaming down my face, and it didn't matter how much I tried I couldn't stop them.

I couldn't believe what had just happened.

My mind started focusing on what I could feel and see, to check if it was really happening. The wood scent of the packhouse, the dim light, the white musky odor of my mate, the metallic taste in my mouth for biting my cheeks.

Romer was there in front of me, his eyes felt unfamiliar, distant. They were full of anger and disappointment, and he never looked me like that. His dark blue looked like black and for the first time I was scared. He turned his head, like only my sight disgusted him, and I started feeling my legs losing their power.

"You betrayed me, Lya!" His voice was powerful and just like a thunder it made me fall on my knees. "You knew how much I trusted you, you knew I would do anything for you and of all people you were the one that stabbed me in back"

My heart ached in pain for him. I knew exactly what he meant, but still how couldn't he believe me when I told him that it was all a misunderstanding. Five minutes before we were in the dance hall laughing and making plans for the future, and now this. He had to believe me.

“Romer, no, please believe me, this is all a misunderstanding” I tried to talk but the voice was stuck in my throat, and barely a whisper came out. “I would never hurt you, I love you…” and I tried to stretch my arm to touch his. I needed his touch, his warmth.

He retracted his arm, and looked at me in full disgust. His jaw clenched, and his eyes became even darker. He was close to losing control and if his wolf took over it would become a disaster.

“Don't you even dare say that. You call this love? Do you even know what that word means? Because if you knew it, you wouldn't be here betraying me with him. You just gave me the proof that you never cared about me and that you cannot be trusted.”

My chest tightened even more. I felt like I couldn't breathe anymore in that room and my head started feeling dizzy. This couldn't be happening, he is my mate, we are destined to each other by fate. We should feel safe together, but he was giving up on us and was throwing away all we had together like it was nothing.

Sobbing and with my hands trembling I said "You can’t leave me, Romer, we’re mates. We’re destined to be together. Fate brought you back to me after all…"

“Stop it” His shoulders stiffened and for a moment I thought I got through his defense, but then his voice turned cold and just, just like his whole body, and said "Fate made a mistake in this case. I reject you Lya, we're done, have all the fun you want with him"

A terrible excruciating pain spread through all my chest, and I felt like something was ripping oof all my bones. It was my wolf Nyx, that by hearing the last words was in pain and all of her power was fading out, as she didn't want to live a life without her mate. I felt hitting the ground with my head and with the last bit of energy I tried to call him, but just saw his back while he was going out of the door.

I open my eyes and saw that I was in my room. It was a nightmare, again.

My body was full in sweat, my hands trembling and the sheets were all twisted. The pain of the rejection still was strong and I hadn't heard Nyra anymore since that night. It's been six months and still I felt like I could never breathe properly. I still couldn't sleep without reviving that night in my dreams, and without thinking about what could I had done differently during the day.

My mom's soft hand touched my shoulder. She turned in my personal nurse during all this time, if it wasn't for all her love and cures probably I wouldn't be here now, but I don't know if to be grateful to her or feel trapped in a life I was not sure I wanted to live without him.