Ada
I've spent years preparing for this moment, but standing in the grand foyer of the family who destroyed mine, I wonder if I'm truly ready to play the role of the dutiful maid.
"This way, Miss Johnson," the housekeeper, Mrs. Danes, says to me as we continue through the house. Well, it's more of a palace, but whatever.
"Your work will be done on this lower part of the house," she informs me as she looks over her shoulder at me through her thin, round glasses. "You'll need a valid reason if you're found upstairs. You're expected to follow your schedule strictly, as any deviation will lead to you being asked to leave. Do you understand?"
"Yes, Mrs. Danes," I reply shyly, but even that is an act. I'm going to have to find a way to make it upstairs because I'll have to look into the face of Reynold Loxley, the man who killed my father and brother many years ago, ruining my life forever.
She continues showing me around, telling me to do this and that, and explaining how they want things to be cleaned. It's a rigorous process, and it makes me immediately think that they want their home spotless like this to cover the blood on their hands. They're so filthy from the inside that they need the exterior to tell a different story.
"We'll also expect you to help serve breakfast, lunch, and dinner," she goes on. "You've been accepted to work for the family, but this first week will be a kind of trial. If you succeed, then your position here will be more fixed. I take it service has never been a problem for you before?"
"No," I lie. I've certainly never done this professionally before, but how hard can it be to pour some water or wine into a glass and pile some mashed potatoes onto a plate?
Well, I should have taken this question more seriously because right now, the whole table is in shock as I step back with a half-empty pitcher of water in my hand.
And it's half-empty because I've just spilled part of it on my new employer's lap.
Not Reynold Loxley himself, but his son. I know this because I've thoroughly researched his family before I came here in an almost obsessive way. I know as much as there is to know about them, and his son, Maximilian Loxley, is known to have a bad temper because of how he treated a reporter once.
And now, that anger is directed at me.
I should have been calmer. When his eyes meet mine, his gaze seems to pierce through my soul, as if he can see through all my plans. My hands involuntarily tremble. The man stands up with an outraged cry, the chair nearly toppling behind him. The crotch of his dress pants is wet, making him look like he peed himself, and the rage in his eyes is enough to make even my skin crawl.
“What’s this?” he asks, angry. “Look at what you’ve done!”
Mrs. Danes appears from out of nowhere, a cloth in hand. “Mr. Loxley, will you allow me to help you get dry?” “Get this incompetent person out of my sight!” he hisses. He’s not even looking at me. “Never in all my life has anyone spilled water on me like this! Do you know how much this suit costs?” “I’m so sorry,” I say, stepping back and giving him and Mrs. Danes space. Dammit. What have I done? What the hell is wrong with me? How could I mess up something I’ve worked so hard to accomplish? The endless interviews? The fake CV and ID? He finally looks at me then, his eyes narrowing like he’s assessing whether I even deserve to be in the same room as him. His eyes are a crystal blue, and I have to admit that they’re terrifying and extremely intimidating. “Are you always this careless, or is it a special skill of yours?” The words slice through me, and I feel my chest tighten. “I didn’t mean to—” “Oh, you didn’t mean to.” He lets out a sharp, humorless laugh, running a hand through his dark hair. “Well, that makes it so much better. I’ll just inform the dry cleaner that this was all a misunderstanding.” I bite my lip, fighting the urge to cry, but he’s not done. “You’re a maid. Cleaning up is your entire job. How hard is it to not create more messes?” He takes a step closer, his imposing figure towering over me. “If this is the standard of work I’m paying for, maybe I need to reconsider who’s on staff. Mrs. Danes, I don’t want this creature working here anymore. We don’t need people who make our lives more difficult, yes?” Mrs. Danes glances at me, disappointment and exhaustion written all over her face. I’m rooted to the spot, unable to believe that I’ve just been fired on my first day after the months I spent investing on this plan. It can’t be. The man’s eyes meet mine again, and this time, he appears almost startled. “Don’t tell me what it’s deaf, too?”"I apologize, Mr. Loxley," Mrs. Danes says as she makes her way to my side. Her hand on my shoulder grounds me and makes me realize that this is really happening. I'm so shocked that I could vomit right here, in front of everyone seated at the table. "This will not happen again."
She nudges me forward, and my feet move before my mind can catch up. I'm surprised the pitcher hasn't fallen from my hands entirely. When we reach the kitchen, she takes it from my hands gently. "I'm sorry, Miss Johnson. I'll have to ask you to leave. Please exit the building through the back door that leads to the garden."
"But...it was an accident and..."
"We can't afford to let those happen," she replies firmly, yet sympathetically. "I understand that maybe you were nervous because it's your first day, but that won't matter. Leave your uniform in the changing room. Good day."
I find myself standing in the middle of the kitchen, my hopes and dreams shattered. Tears blur my vision, and the silence all around me suggests that it's because of me. When I look up, I realize I'm right. The kitchen staff is looking at me, their eyes wide and inquisitive. They probably heard his yells. My ears are still ringing from how loudly he yelled at me.
I head toward the changing room. My mind is a spinning mess, and violent thoughts have taken them over entirely. As the uniform slips down my body, I ask myself how easy it would be to grab a kitchen knife and race upstairs to where Reynold Loxley is sleeping. He's sick, if the news is to be believed. A cancer diagnosis. But he isn't dead, not yet, and his financial position will get him the best treatments and doctors, and he'll find a way to live longer. I'm sure of it.
Why should he live, while my father and brother, Theo, lie in eternal rest? How will I avenge them once I've been fired on my very first day here? Am I just supposed to give up?
"No," I say to myself in the empty room. "I won't give up."
I've never been a quitter. Not once.
Since I didn't have time to find evidence against him now, I'll find a way upstairs instead, even if it'll kill me. And I'll make sure that man pays for the sins he committed against my family.
I walk out of the changing room and head to the kitchen. I see a small steak knife among other cutlery above a stack of plates, and reach for it without being seen. I head outside, knowing that there's a separate entrance that will lead to the inside of the house, particularly to the sitting room. From there, I'll take the stairs up to the killer's room, and afterward, who knows? Tears fill my eyes once more, but I can't stop now.
My initial plan was to find evidence against him and bring justice to the family he took from me, but it'll have to change. I won't have time for that now.
I step out into the garden, grabbing the handle of the knife until my knuckles turn white, and that's when I hear it.
"SOMEONE, HELP!"
Ada An elderly woman races past me, screaming that she needs help. Saying she can't swim. I turn my head to look at her, and hear her saying hysterically:"HE'S IN THE POOL! SAMMY'S IN THE POOL! I CAN'T SWIM! SOMEONE, HELP!"The pool isn't that far away from where I'm standing. I approach the edge of it, confused, and that's when I see it. A small figure lying at the very bottom of the pool, arms and legs flailing. I don't think twice. I dive into the pool, shoes and all, and swim to the very bottom to grab the drowning child. I'm still blowing air into the little boy's mouth when a crowd comes running toward me. He coughs, water spurting from his mouth, and I turn him on his side while patting his back. I'm trembling from head to toe, adrenaline surging through me. The older lady who was screaming for help gets on her knees next to me, crying, and shortly afterward, I hear the sound of heels clattering toward us before a blood-curdling scream fills the air. "Sammy!"The woman in
MaximilianI have to admit that I feel like shit for having fired that woman when she's the only reason why I'm breathing properly today.If Sammy had drowned in that pool, I'd rain hell down on all those fucking incompetent people. There wouldn't be a single person left standing to tell the story. I dismissed her like she was nothing, only for her to end up saving my nephew minutes later, a boy who means the world to me. I can't take the image of her soaking wet with water pooling at her feet from my mind. Her gaze was steady, and to make matters worse, she hadn't looked at me with resentment. I only saw exhaustion in them, and that made me feel small. Smaller than I ever have in my entire life. Edmund has his arms around my sister, and he's whispering comforting words to her. She's a mess. Then again, I don't blame her. I had a few meetings today, but I've since had them rescheduled. Sammy almost drowning took a toll on us, and things haven't been easy since my father's cancer dia
Ada "To start, I'd like to thank you once again for your bravery," Mr. Manney begins dramatically. "You saved my son's life, and for that, I'm indebted to you for life, Miss Johnson. Please, if there's anything I can do for you, let me know right away."After he says this, I don't quite know what to say to him. A visit from them is the last thing I ever thought would happen. I'm glad I didn't give them a fake address when I applied for the job the same way I gave them a fake name, otherwise, I would've been in some trouble now, I think, and would've ended up losing all credibility. It would be easier to focus on Mr. Manney if his brother-in-law weren't looking at me like I'm a piece of shit standing in his way. His eyes are studying me deeply. Whenever I glance at him, I find him staring at me with an expression that's somewhat dehumanizing. He's so arrogant. So conceited. "I'd...if I could get my job back, I'd be much obliged," I tell him as humbly as I can."Why, of course," he c
MaximilianAs I watch my sister rise from the table and head tired the maid who saved Sammy’s life, I have to admit that I feel anger stirring in my gut. If someone were to ask me, I wouldn’t be able to explain why it is that I feel this way about her. Whenever I catch a glimpse of her face, I get annoyed. It’s not that I’m not grateful that my nephew’s life was spared; it’s something else entirely. Something that runs deeper than logic and simple explanations. Beside me, Edmund snickers, and as I turn my head to stare at him. He’s shaking his head as he watches me over the rim of his coffee cup and says, “Still bothered by the maid? Seriously, Max. What are you, twelve? You’re treating her like she’s your new rival at the school’s playground.”His words worsen my irritation, and I sneer at him. “I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about.”“Or is it that you’re annoyed that you find her so striking?” he muses. “There’s nothing striking about her,” I retort dryly while pickin
AdaThat man's on my case, and if I'm not careful, I'll land myself into trouble, the kind that I won't be able to claw myself out of so easily. The truth if that it's hard for me to hide the way I feel about these people. Of course, I'm aware that Reynold Loxley's children have nothing to do with their father's sins, but I can't help but feel resentful toward them all. They live a good life, totally oblivious to the fact that their father is a monster, and I had to live with that for the longest time. Every day, I live in the shadow of the life he created for me unknowingly. Every day, I think about how different my life would've been if my father had just lived. So, I hate them for it. I hate their ignorance and lavish lifestyle built on the blood and bones of innocent people. How many men did their father kill? How many people's lives were affected like mine were?I refuse to believe his crime was a one-time thing. I shake my head to clear my mind, and focus on the task at hand
AdaBy the time I get home, I'm beyond exhausted, both physically and mentally. It took everything for me to stay calm and not barge into that office to look for potential information. I don't expect it to be easy, but I'm counting on the fact that they won't hide things too well because they don't expect anyone to look?Also, I've been thinking a lot about the things that happened and my interactions with the family and the staff. Mr. Loxley, Reynold's son, is onto me. He eyes em suspiciously, and that's not good. I'll need time if I'm going to make a groundbreaking discovery, and I can't have people suspecting me on the second day. Mr. Manney is being weird, that's for sure. I didn't like the way he looked at me, or how he touched me before he walked away. As for Sheila, well, she's not a threat to me. She's just some psycho with way too many delusions in her head. Though, I'm honestly wondering what gave her the courage to walk up to me and say such a thing. Is she really that s
Maximilian"Rebecca," I say to my sister just before she enters the bedroom with Edmund, "could we have a word?"She and Ed exchange a look, and I convince myself that I'm not offended by it. She and I have always been on the same page about many things. A perfect example is when we all agreed to come live with our father here after his diagnosis. I just went into his room to see him, but he was out like a flame. "Sure," Rebecca replies as she makes her way to my side, interrupting my train of thought. "Where would you want to talk?"I gesture at my room. There's a balcony and I think we'd have privacy there. I ignore the way Ed's looking at me, and open the door for her to enter my room. It's immaculate, courtesy of the maids who work hard to keep the place spotless. Then again, I've never been a messy person. I like things around me neat and organized. It helps me feel sane and in control. "What's the matter?" Rebecca asks as soon as I close my bedroom door. "I was hoping to tal
AdaI’ve never really had an enemy before, so this whole experience with Sheila is very new to me. Of course, there’s Reynold Loxley, but he’s never been an active enemy, if that makes sense. I’ve never looked the man in the eyes in my life. I’ve hated him from a distance, so it’s different to what I’m experiencing now with this delusional woman who somehow thinks I’m going to steal her opportunity to be Maximilian Loxley’s wife. At least, that’s the impression I have of her. She’s a bit on the crazy side, and although I find it concerning, life has taught me that it’s the people you’re less concerned about that are the problem. I can’t see how she would jeopardize my future here. Plus, what were my options, exactly? Playing along with her? Promising her that I’d do as she says?Nope. Not an option. So, I keep my head low and try not to be too excited about the fact that I’ll be cleaning the office today. I could find some valuable information that could help me uncover the truth.
Ada When Grayson and I arrived here a few minutes ago, I didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know where he was bringing me. I couldn’t even guess it. I saw the hotel with all the cars parked in the lot, and I wondered what kind of party he was bringing me to. It was only when I saw the names on the poster outside that I realized what his plan was. Now, we’re inside the venue and there are so many people here that I can’t even breathe. I’m suffocating on everything—the whole damn thing. Grayson’s grip on my arm is like a vice. I can’t even fight him off. “Stop it,” I tell him. “Stop! I don’t want to be here and I don’t understand why you’ve brought me to this place!”To Max’s engagement to that blonde woman? What if I come across him? God, I don’t think that I will be able to handle such a thing. What happened between us was too bad for me to just act like it wouldn’t be a problem. I wasn’t invited here. I don’t belong here. “Just relax,” Grayson says to me in a low voice as h
Maximilian As I fix my tie and stare at my reflection, a thought, unwanted and intrusive, occurs to me. What the fuck am I doing?I shut it down as soon as it springs to mind, but the fact remains that I've asked myself this question more often than I've convinced myself that I'm doing the right thing. And sure, that's a problem. It's not supposed to be, but it is. I can't even say that I haven't been warned. My father is showing up to the engagement party just because of the family image we need to portray. He’s made it very clear that he isn’t happy with my decision. Although I hate to disappoint him, I’m doing this to preserve my sanity. I didn’t think that getting over Ada would be this hard. She has become Ada now, completely. Utterly. I’ve forgotten all about Naomi Johnson. I pinch the bridge of my nose before taking a few moments to inhale. The more I think about it, the less I like it. But what can be done? A knock at the door interrupts my train of thought. The door o
Ada The day I have to meet with Grayson Piovani arrives, and I’m not ready. I stare at my reflection in the mirror, take a deep breath, and then put the last earring on. He mentioned he wanted me well-dressed? Well, this is it. I smooth my dress down with my hands, making sure to get all the wrinkles out. There aren’t any, I just don’t know what to do with my hands. I’ve opted for one of the only dresses I have that is presentable and I can take to an event that’s formal. It’s an emerald green with a sequined top. It belonged to my mother, but she said it no longer fit her after her gave birth to me, so I’ve had it ever since. It was meant to be worn for a special occasion, but the time never came and now, it’s useful to me. I’m nervous. I don’t know what to expect, and have no idea where he’ll be taking me. I just want to know what this big secret of his is. Why would he go through the trouble of contacting me if it wasn’t something serious that would benefit me? At this point,
AdaDamson steps away from me, finally releasing me. “He did, didn’t he?”I fold my arms. “Don’t blame him, Damson. He was just trying to help me understand why you were ignoring me the whole time.”He chuckles darkly, anger flashing in his eyes. “I see.”“It really hurt me, you know?” I mention after a stretch of silence. “I wish you’d talk to me. I don’t understand why you didn’t just tell me outright. I’d never judge you. Not ever.”His gaze meets mine and I realize that his eyes are red. He looks like he wants to cry. That, or he just looks plain furious. For some reason, I can’t tell the difference. “Right,” he then says. “Because that would be super ideal to you, wouldn’t it?”“What are you talking about?”“Nothing,” he says viciously before brushing past me to grab his coat. “Damson,” I say softly. “Damson, come on. Damson!”He ignores me outright and heads toward the door. Before he reaches it, it opens and my mother and Harry walk in, carrying takeout bags. I guess she did
Ada“Where were you?” is the first thing Damson asks me when I get back. I close the door slowly while trying to think about what I’ll say to him. I then settle with, “I just went to meet a friend.”His eyebrows raise. “A friend? Ada, you don’t have any friends.”“You don’t know that.”“I do,” he insists. “Is everything alright?”“Just fine,” I claim as I head toward the kitchen. I need to make myself some chamomile tea. It’ll help calm me and clear my mind. Damson follows me. I know how stubborn he can be, so I know he’ll continue questioning me until he’s satisfied with the answer. The tricky part is that I can’t tell him what happened with Grayson Piovani. I know what he’ll say, and I don’t want to hear it. Until I figure out what I’m going to do, I’m keeping this to myself.“I’m supposed to believe that?” he asks angrily. “Really?”I sigh. “I don’t know what you want me to say, Damson.”“Tell me the truth. Jesus, when did you start hiding things from me?”His question makes me w
Maximilian “Oh, Max!” Kelly moans as I thrust into her. Her fingernails are digging into my back and her heels are digging into the back of my legs. “Faster. Oh, yeah. That’s so good. Faster. Yes!”I’m close, and whenever this happens, I shut my eyes and all I can think about is Ada. Just her. It’s her face I see as I spill inside Kelly, my heart thundering in my chest. Fuck. I roll onto my back, lying next to her. Those few minutes right before I climax are the fucking best, and when it’s over, it all comes crashing down. I’m filled with this self-loathing that spoils my mood. “That was amazing,” Kelly says as she grabs by arm before making closer to me. We’re both breathing heavily and our bodies are covered in sweat. I hold her close, feeling terrible for thinking about someone who isn’t her while I’m inside her. Is it always going to be this way? Am I always going to be haunted by Ada Fucking Turner? Will she ever leave my thoughts alone?I must be a masochist because it does
AdaGrayson Piovani makes eye contact with me as soon as I step into the café. It’s pretty crowded, especially for this time of night, and that helps me feel safe. I approach his table and sit down, my eyes intently on his face. I might still regret doing this—it seems I’m the queen of making bad decisions—but for now, I’m curious to know what he wants. “Thank you for coming,” he says as soon as I sit down. “What’s the matter about?” I ask, getting straight to the point. “Coffee?”“No thanks.”His mouth quirks. “You don’t have to be so defensive. I didn’t ask you to come here to threaten you.”“I wouldn’t blame if you wanted to, especially because of the bomb thing.”“What made you say my name?”I inhale deeply and shrug. “I don’t know. It was a stupid thing to do.”“But you knew there would be a bomb?”“No, I didn’t.”He seems confused but quickly changes the subject. “The reason why I asked to meet with you is because I have some information that I think will help extremely valu
Ada It takes me a couple more days until I can feel somewhat normal. I don't know what it was about what Harry said to me, but I feel way better. I know that the situation was out of my control. I keep telling myself that maybe if I'd told him about it before Wes got involved, maybe he would've understood. Maybe, he would've forgiven me. But now I know that's not true. I don't think that would've happened because Max would've never understood my motives. Never. It's just something that wasn't meant to be. It was beautiful. By God, it was. I'll never forget the time I spent in his arms. But it's over now, and there's nothing I can do about it. I go shopping. I actually get ready to go and don't just step out in PJs. A heartbreak can really destroy you, I know that now. I need to be more careful of who I hand my heart to from here on out. It still hurts. I avoid the news. I have unsubscribed from all the gossip sites. I have no reason to even hear Max's name anymore. Maybe Harry
AdaI drive sound the city for many hours before I realize that I didn’t even bring my phone with me and that someone might be calling. I mean my mother, because nobody else does apart from her and Damson. It’s nearly five. I figure she’s probably home already which means I won’t be alone with a potential stalker there. I’ll have to tell her about this. Someone is following me around and leaving me these cryptic notes, and I have to find out who it is. I thought it was Wes. If not him, then who? Who could be following me around and leaving these poetic words?I park my car right behind my mother’s, and step out. I look around—and yes, I’m aware that u look paranoid—before I head toward the door. However, I stop in my tracks when I see Harry seated right outside the door, smoking a cigarette. He eyes me somewhat coldly as he sucks on the other end of it, and his eyes are searching as they land on my face. “Your mother was worried. You didn’t even call.”“I left my phone,”“I figur