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Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) A second chance!
Amber's POV...At the middle of the night, my body suddenly got awaken and I started sweating hard. My body was feeling hot suddenly and I needed water, but there was no one, not even nurses around. My eyes were flickered open and I tried to move, but I couldn't. My lower region was paining badly and honestly I was afraid to check out where it was hurt. Honestly, when Ethan told me about the baby thing, the ground slipped from my feets. My heart was still paining with the loss. This could have been the most beautiful moment of my life but God didn't let me feel it. Being a mother is a dream of every girl and that too with the person you love the most in the world, but I been unlucky. I lost my parents and lost my baby too. My brother don't trust me anymore. So, I am abandoned. I tried to move my body but whince as a sharp pain felt on my spine, making my eyes filled with tears. I don't know what was much. The physical pain or the mental agony. My body might recover in some times but
Last Updated : 2024-02-15Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) Nothing is excusable
Ethan's POV..."What is going on?" I said in my husky raucous voice. I was standing in the door where I can see Noah kneeling down beside Amber’s bed. I suddenly came here as I heard some voices coming from her room. I came to check, if she needed something or else she is in danger but here I didn’t expect her to talk with Noah, while he says 'thank you' to her. My body suddenly got alert and my brows were knitted in confusion as I don’t know what was really happening, but I expect Noah's presence the least. I saw Noah's body getting tensed hearing my voice and I already know there was something wrong with them. I watched Amber not meeting my glare. I know Amber loves him alot and can get easily influenced but I can't. I am a father, who lost his child and almost lost its mother too. "N-Nothing, Amber wanted water so I helped her," Noah uttered not matching my eyes. So I decided to make an entry inside. I walked in my slow strides and joined them, I may look like a third person be
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Amber's POV... I stared at Ethan leaving me alone with Noah and I sighed in defeat. My heart was wrenching hearing his words, his words feel so cold and painful. He has lost his trust in everyone including me. I don’t want him to turn into stone, I want him to hold emotions and be happy like he was before. Seeing him sad pain me as well, losing my child pain me as well, after all I am the mother. It was my child, a part of my body. Ethan wasn't ready to listen to me, I understood that. "Sister; you shouldn't worry, he won't leave you, I know him," Noah said and I looked at my brother, and send a bitter smile to him. Only if he know that Ethan has already left. "I wish, but it is so late brother," I told to him and he smile to me. He stood on my feet, I didn’t observed but he was kneeling for a long time now, he was asking for forgiveness. I know Ethan was right, forgiveness is difficult and honestly, I haven't forgiven him fully but I can't let my brother go in darkness it will ru
Last Updated : 2024-02-17Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) No progress
Amber's POV...I wake up lazily in dishevelled state. I don’t know how long I have slept but I think quite a long, as sun has already set in the middle of the sky. It was bright outside. I sat up on the bed supported by headboard. I stared at sofa but it was empty, my lips thinned in a line finding it vacant. He went already, I thought to myself. The dimensions in our relationship has changed quite strong, that I know he will there whenever I need him but won't be available to talk. I want to bring old Ethan, who is loving, caring and talkative, only if he came chance. If he want time, that is fine too. "Ma'am, you wake up already," a middle aged lady said to me. She was wearing a long shirt and a blouse. My eyes narrowed in curiosity as I haven't seen her before, it was my first time seeing her in his house. "Who are you?" I asked her in confusion, as I was trying to think but couldn't get any answer. "Ma'am, I am Martha, sir told me to inform you, I am your maid," she said and I
Last Updated : 2024-02-18Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) Eyes on him!
Amber’s POV..."I am sorry, we didn’t want to worry you," I said and she didn't let me be alone. She kept on talking with me lighting my mood as she talk about her experiences. Martha made coffee for us while we were chattering. "Mom," Ethan screamed in surprise seeing his mother. Dua has raised Ethan beautifully. Both mother and son was equally good looking and charmer. They both got dimples. Dua has turned slight old but she don't seem to be old. She was very pretty for her age. He entered inside hastily and hugged his mother. I smiled seeing the duo, after so many days, I have seen him happy. He was smile and I can tell it was his genuine smile. I was starving to see him smile. If Dua's arrival make him happy. I was happy as well along with them. "When did you arrived?" He said out of excitement, while holding his mother. I stared at both of them. "I came when my daughter was sleeping, I didn’t expect this from you, Ethan, you should have told me all, which you didn't," she sa
Last Updated : 2024-02-19Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) Will you sleep with me?
Amber's POV..."He will take time, you continue," she said and I nodded my head in approval, I don’t want to disrespect her. She is a mother figure. We continued eating. Martha poured me soup and veggies and I smiled at her," It is delicious," I said to Dua and she smiled having her own. "That's because I made it with love," She said and giggled. I nodded my head enjoying my food, when Ethan joined us. He sat beside me, while taking his food."Why you aren't having chicken?" he said and I stared at my plate, which only have veggies and soup. "I was about it," I said and he shake his head, while serving me grilled chicken. It was after a while, since the accident, that I was feeling hungry and I wanted to eat. Dua shared some Ethan's childhood memories and his secrets, making him ashamed. "Did you really tell that," he said and I couldn't stop laughing seeing both mother and son fighting. "Yes, because you were a naughty child," she said and he has to roll his eyes on her words.
Last Updated : 2024-02-20Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) Uncomfortable changes!
Amber's POV... "Why didn't you tell me about the pain?" He questioned me softly enough to melt my heart. "Uhmm...I don't want to worry you, and I will be well after sometime," I said to him and he was looking me curious. "Really?" He questioned me lifting his eyebrows. "Yes, really," I said giving him surety. I was happy that he was being gentle. I was active naive that I thought, he might judge me but I shouldn't forget that he is my best friend too before my love. He understands me without any judgement or opinion. "Will you sleep with me?" I asked him and he was looking confusing. He stared at me for a quality time and shook his head. "Sleeping with you, might hurt you," he uttered and I took a deep breath. "No, sleeping with me won't hurt me but sleeping without me will definitely do," I said and he took a deep breath, looking perplexed to me. I was sitting naked before him, every part of my body was exposed even my heart. "If sleeping with you won't hurt you, I can sleep
Last Updated : 2024-02-21Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) "Your consent, kitten?"
Ethan's POV..."Let me be there with you, if that could help," I said to her and tried to stood up from sofa but she gestured me not to. "You have no information about the deal let me deal it," she said and tried to exit already checking her watch. "But when are you coming home tonight?" I asked her while she was striding out. "Don't know, bye," she yelled and her voice came out from far. She was already gone by now. I don't know but she was changing and I didn't like the change. She just went away. I was tired as well, not physically but mentally as well. Everything seems to be breaking, our bonds, our love and even our friendship. She just don't talk, and when I tried to ask something, she simply change the topic. Why Amber was turning cold I don't know, I just want her warmth to be back like her old self. I ate my dinner alone, not even liking to eat much as I have no appettite. After having my dinner, I took a warm bath and tried to relax my body. I was thinking that did we
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This chapter contains mature content...Amber's POV...The phones had officially been switched off and our two weeks of seclusion from the outside world had started as Ethan and I were boarding the boat.After working ten to twelve hour days for weeks, I couldn't believe we would finally be able to leave it all behind. Ethan's college friend would step in and help while we were away, so I was thrilled when we arrived to our room, which would serve as our home for the next two weeks.I was mentally hoping that we could convince him to stay. I, for one, was prepared to make it worthwhile for him to stay if he performed well while we were away; if it got him to move here."No thinking about work," He encircled me with his arms from behind."How do you know I'm thinking about work?" I questioned him."Because you worry too much, now," He said this while he released my dress's straps and allowed it to drop to the floor."Already?" He nodded when I asked.He questioned me, "Are you complain
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This chapter contains mature content...Finally the wedding night folks...Enjoy! Amber's POV...I stared at him as the door to our hotel room closed and my mouth fell open."Be gentle with me tonight," I implored. On my wedding night, I was emotionally vulnerable—more exposed than I think I've ever been—and I wanted everything to be delicate. I feel so exposed and emotionally spent from the music and the feelings that my body isn't the only thing that's naked tonight.In a way that I couldn't quite put into words, my soul would be exposed to him in a way that I had never experienced before."Of course Angel," When I reached out to him, he extended his hand and took a step away from me, leading me closer to the chamber. When we entered, he stopped, took my hand, and softly drew me to him."I love you," Even though I already knew he did, I informed him that I needed him to know."I love you too," I shuddered as his hot breath fanned across my neck and his lips, like a whisper against
Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) Imperfect wedding party!
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Here comes the wedding...Finally! Amber's POV...After the music began to play, Ela and Bella began their walk down the aisle, Theo followed, and my ladies came to the lads at the end. Everyone was seated, the wedding party was lined up, and I stayed out of sight. One of the few friends Ethan kept from college, James was his roommate in college and he arrived just in time last night."Ready?" Looking over my shoulder, I noticed Noah standing there; he looked amazing in a tuxedo."No," He grinned as I laughed."Yes you are," he said. "You look beautiful Amber and I'm so happy for you and I'm so proud of you," He gently stroked my cheek before leaning in to kiss my forehead."Thanks," He grabbed for my flowers and flicked on the candlelight."You deserve to be happy," He took hold of my hand and interlaced his fingers with mine, refusing to let me take his arm to descend."Don't let go," Since he was all I had, it felt appropriate for him to be the one to give me away. When I told him,
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Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) Bachelorette party!
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Beyond the Guilty Pleasure(18+) 2 weeks!
I am gonna skip Daya's wedding guys...The novel is extending too much. Amber's POV...Over the past few weeks, I've been very busy at work, spending time with Noah and Lily, Daya and Kein, and Ethan's mother. I've been feeling terrible about excluding her, so I'm making every effort to include her now. She claims to be understanding, and being such a kind person, she really does.It took me some time to realize how self-centered I was being; this isn't just my wedding; it's her son's as well, and I know she doesn't have a daughter. Rather of pushing her away, I should have used this opportunity to strengthen my relationship with her; I don't care whether she understands; I feel terrible about it.Though I wish I could sleep all weekend, I made time to go dress shopping with her in order to select a suitable dress for an early spring wedding. Although we weren't outside in the hottest of conditions, it was still a warm place inside.Ethan and I had lunch at the office and worked toget
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Amber's POV...Even though I wasn't the one with the newborn, I felt like I didn't get any sleep.Noah took a leave of absence from work to spend time with Lily, so Ethan and I had to work every day and attempt to complete Noah's tasks, which confused me since I should have been able to read his handwriting after knowing him for my entire life.Then there came the wedding. Daya had believed she was going into labor, but it turned out to be a false alarm—thank goodness, since Kein was a complete mess. Hopefully that didn't happen again because he panicked entirely when she thought she was going into labor, despite the fact that he was usually the one who was cool under pressure.When Michael was just three weeks old, I awoke blearily to a call from Daya at two in the morning."It's time!" I recoiled as I withdrew the phone from my ear as she shouted."Are you sure this time?" Since they had only told her four days prior that she wouldn't be going into labor, I yawned without giving it
