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2021-05-18 23:40:18*Violet's POV*
The rest of orientation week passed by rather quickly. I went to see my therapist on Wednesday. She seemed nice enough and mostly just asked me general questions about my file and my history.
I told her about Stella and about Kane and my mother and the trip this weekend. She seemed to think it would be good for me to see her but I’m not so sure. I also left out the kiss between Kane and me. I keep trying to convince myself that if I don’t say it out loud, maybe it never happened in the first place.
I spoke with Jace Wednesday after my therapy session and told him about this weekend. He had to cut the conversation short again because of football practice but told me that if I needed anything over the weekend to call him.
By the time Friday morning rolls around, I am sitting in bed scrolling through social media, trying to stop myself from letting my anxiety take over and failing miserably.
“Geez Vi, you’re gonn
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