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Hands to Myself
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2021-05-20 08:41:41*Kane's POV*
I don’t dance, but seeing the way Mitch eyes Violet when Cara suggests going to the dance floor, I have no choice but to follow. We squeeze through to the middle and Lucas pulls Violet into him, and it’s clear she hasn’t danced like this before but he shows her to just move her hips and by the end of the first song, she’s got a good enough handle on it that I find myself jealous of a gay guy.
Cara and her friend Lauren or Leah or whatever it is are both dancing up on me but I keep my hands to myself and am obviously not paying attention to either of them. I can’t focus on anything other than the way Violet’s hips are swaying against Lucas.
After a couple songs, she goes on her tiptoes and says something in his ear. He nods and they start walking away. I push the two girls away and grab her arm and she comes close because I wouldn’t be able to hear her otherwise and says, “I’m just going to coat c
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