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2021-06-07 04:22:06*Violet's POV*
After our impromptu date, I can’t help but feel a bit strange. I don’t think I ever fully registered just how abnormal our whole relationship, or whatever this is, is until now.
All awkwardness seems to disappear the second we make it to his room, however.
We spend the weekend wrapped up in each other and I actually begin to feel a bit bad because I’ve hardly seen Stella at all this week. On Monday, I head back to the dorms to change out my clothes and do some laundry and Stella and I decide to head out to dinner.
We only go to the cafeteria but it’s nice spending some time with her. Apparently the guy she had been semi-seeing turned out to be a complete “douche canoe” as she described him so they’re no longer a thing.
When we finish our food, we head back to the dorms to put on a few episodes of Sex and the City. I told Kane I would be staying in my room tonight because I r
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