14: I'M PREGNANT?

ADRIANNA

The words she said must have been said wrong.

Pregnant? How?

"What!!!" I screamed in shock, my mind skyrocketing into different realms.

How can i be pregnant? I didn't even want to have that thought.

My hands became sweaty.

"Yes Adrianna, you have a healthy fetus growing inside of you" she said, as she patted me on my shoulder in an attempt to calm me down. But i was not even close to being calm.

How could i be?

"Doctor you have to be joking right?" i said as i began to laugh.

This had to be a joke.

"Okay okay this is a very funny joke, but it isn't funny anymore" i said as i stopped laughing and my face began to hold fear.

"I'm not joking Adrianna, you are two months pregnant" she said.

Two months?? Two whole months??

"No no no, this can't be possible" i said as tears began to stream down my eyes.

What was happening? How is this possible?

This isn't supposed to be happening. Why does my life keep spiraling out of control? What did i ever do wrong to deserve this?

"Doctor please please tell me this is a lie and you just want to prank me" i said as i held a piece of her cloth tightly, trying to stay as calm as i could be.

She looked over at me with an expression i would call pity. I didn't want to be pitied.

"Here" she said as she handed me a piece of paper, telling me to go through it.

I held the paper in my hand, my hands trembling as i read the content of the paper.

Tears began to pour from my eyes, my eyelid flooding with tears. I just couldn't hold it in.

The content in the paper had confirmed my doubts. I was two months pregnant.

What was i going to do now? Where was i going to go from here? How would i take care of this child all by myself?

Those were the questions that flooded my head.

I sat there on the hospital bed, frozen. My thoughts in different places.

"I have to go" i said as i ripped the needle that was connected to the drip from my hand, not even caring about the pain.

I just wanted to leave here. I felt suffocated. The doctor kept calling me as i walked out of the hospital room, but i paid no listening ear. All i could just do was cry.

As i exited the hospital through the front door, i could see my manager coming into the hospital with a bag that i think contained the food and water she went to get for me. I walked towards her stopping in my tracks, as she stopped me.

"What's wrong Adrianna" she said looking at me with concern.

"I....i i don't k..know" i said as i began to hiccup.

"I..i hic i have to go please" i said as i walked away from her, my voice already faint from all the tears.

I walked out of the hospital and began walking without any direction of where i was going to. I just needed to take a walk to think about everything and anything.

I felt like i couldn't breath, like there was a huge stone stuck in my throat. It felt like a burden, a very difficult one. This was just to much for me, just too much. First my wedding was ruined, i was never even able to enjoy my honeymoon, then i slept with someone else apart from my husband, and on my wedding night at that, and now i am pregnant. How worst can this get? I wonder if i still even have a husband.

I kept walking, directionless and lost in thoughts. The cool breeze attempting to cool my nerves and dry my tears.

When was i ever going to be happy?

I held my stomach lightly, feeling it. I gave it a gentle touch. I just couldn't believe it, i had a child growing inside of me, i was going to be a mother.

Do i even know who the father is?

My mind went back to the day i woke up with a stranger beside me.

He had to be the one.

My hands went straight to my face, as more tears began to come out.

"What am I going to do now?" My voice cracked as tears rushed down my cheeks.

The honking of a car broke me out of my thoughts, as i looked around and i realized i was in the middle of the road.

My eyes widened in fear, but it was too late.

A speeding car was heading straight for me. I stood there frozen in fear, my brain paralyzed on what to do next.

"This was it" i said as i slowly closed my eyes, waiting for the impact.

Maybe this was the best thing to do, just dying and leaving this world, so I don't have to go through the pain i keep on going through.