A Morning of Regrets

Kiana - 

As the first rays of dawn crept through the curtains, I awoke, my mind still heavy with the events of the previous night. The absence of Dion from the bed next to me sent a jolt of realisation through my body, and I sat up. Last night wasn't supposed to happen; he had called Alessia's name. My heart sank as I replayed the scene in my mind, feeling a deep sense of regret and betrayal. How could I have let myself get caught up in a moment that wasn't meant for me? 

I got out of bed and dressed up quickly. I had duties to attend to, and I couldn't let my personal feelings interfere with my responsibilities.

I was in the library reading stories to the preschool kids. The children hung on to every syllable, their eyes wide with wonder and their smiles stretching from ear to ear. As I watched their innocent faces light up with joy, I couldn't help but feel a glimmer of happiness amidst my inner turmoil.

A burst of breeze brought a familiar scent of pine and musk. He was here.

I couldn't help but glance towards the entrance, hoping to glimpse Dion. He was standing near the window, leaning against its frame. His arms were folded, and he was just staring at me.

His piercing gaze was unreadable, as usual. I continued reading the story.

"Alpha, do you need something? Shall I call Kiana?" A teacher asked him.

"No, it's fine. Tell Kiana to meet me in my office." I said that and walked away. 

I turned and saw Dion walk away. I wonder why he was here. Was he just passing by, or did he have a specific reason for being at the school?

"Kiana, Alpha Dion is looking for you." Raven said to me as I left the library, and she took over the kids.

"Ok." I mumbled; I didn't want to see him. I had been avoiding Dion. I couldn't bear to face him and deal with the tension between us. But as the evening descended, I couldn't hold off anymore. There had been several summonses from him.

When I entered his office, Dion was on the phone, talking to someone. He was still dressed in a bathrobe; his hair was wet, and rivulets of water were dripping down his shirt, creating damp spots. He must have just gotten out of the shower then. I cleared my throat to get his attention, and he quickly ended the call. Dion's expression softened as he saw me standing there, and he motioned for me to take a seat. The tension between us was palpable, but I knew it was finally time to confront it.

"It's good to see you, my Alpha." I greeted pleasantly at him.

He only stared at me disinterestedly.

I took it as a chance to keep talking: "Sorry I couldn't visit earlier; I was very busy."

Dion hummed thoughtfully.

His voice was low and cautious. "Kiana, we need to talk."

I turned to face him, my heart pounding in my chest.

 "About what?" I asked, trying to keep my voice steady.

I could see the pain in Dion's eyes as he sighed. "About what took place tonight. We were both drunk, and I hope you can forget about that night.

His words hit me hard, like a weight, and hurt because they reminded me of the mistake we both made. But there was no reason to think about it anymore; he was thinking about Alessia.

With a sad heart, I agreed by nodding. "I understand."

"You do?" His eyebrows quirked.

"Yeah," I mumbled. "We both lost our minds because of the alcohol. It means nothing. "

Dion seemed relieved that I wasn't angry or confrontational, and he shifted the conversation to another topic. "There's a pack party coming up, and we'll need to work hard in the next few days to prepare."

The party was a welcome distraction, and I welcomed the change in conversation. "Yes, I'm aware. It's an important event for the pack."

I summoned a smile, the gratitude in his words touching my heart. "It's my pleasure, Dion. I've always been committed to the pack's well-being."

"You can get the details from Gary, and if you need any help, just ask me." That's it; I knew I was dismissed, and he had nothing more to say.

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In the days before the much-anticipated pack party, the estate was a hub of busy activity. It was a three-day celebration of the blue moon. It was also a chance to forge new alliances and showcase our strength as a pack. Every little thing had to be just right, and as Luna, it was my job to make sure that everything was perfect.

It seemed like the hours went on forever, and I spent all my free time planning the party. Even though I was fully committed, I was getting tired, which showed. 

I couldn't help but notice that Dion was paying more attention than normal, despite everything going on. During the day, he would check on me, make sure I was getting enough rest, and sometimes bring me food. 

But one afternoon, the worry and the constant speed of getting ready pushed me to my limits. I was taking care of the last few things when, suddenly; I felt tired. I felt like I was about to fall apart as the world spun around me.

When I woke up, I saw the glaring light of the clinic.

"Good morning, sleeping, princess." Dr. Noah greeted me cheerily.

Noah was the son of the pack healer, and he had just returned from college after completing his medical degree. He was also my best friend since childhood.

I sat up, clutching my head.

"I feel weird," I mumbled, trying to shake off the grogginess. 

Noah chuckled and handed me a glass of water. "It's normal to feel disoriented after being unconscious for a while."

"Can I get a painkiller, please?" I asked.

"I am sorry, I can't give you that," Noah replied apologetically. 

"Why not? My head is splitting."

Noah hesitated before responding; his eyes sparkled with a mixture of joy and excitement. "It's not good for the baby, Kiana. You're pregnant."

"What?" I exclaimed, my eyes widening in disbelief. The news hit me like a tonne of bricks, instantly making my head spin even more. 

"How... I mean. Are you sure?" I asked.

Noah nodded. "I'm sure, Kiana. I am a doctor. I just found out during your check-up today," Noah explained. "We need to take extra precautions now that we know, and I will also inform Dion."

I placed my hand on my belly. A baby? A wave of emotions washed over me as I tried to process the reality of becoming a mother. Dion's baby! I smiled. Would this change things between Dion and me?

"We need to take extra precautions now that we know, and I will also inform Dion." Noah blabbered on.

"NO!" I hastily interrupted him. "Don't tell Dion, or anyone."

His smile faded. "Why Kiana?"

I took a deep breath, trying to steady my racing thoughts. "It's just that I need time to process this news myself before involving anyone else. Please keep this news a secret for now. After the party, I'll tell Dion, but until then, I want to focus on work."

Noah nodded understandingly. "Alright, Kiana. I'll respect your wishes and keep this to myself for now. But what do I tell Dion? He carried you here, and he was worried."

I paused for a moment. "Dion brought me here." I asked in disbelief.

Noah nodded again. "Yes, he caught you when you suddenly fainted in the hall. He was really concerned about you, Kiana." 

"Tell him I just needed some rest, and I'll fill him in on everything after the party."

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At last, the night of the pack party had come, and the estate was buzzing with life. People from all over the world, including pack members and guests, came together to enjoy this important event. It was a happy and exciting time, and everyone could see how important the event was.

Dion, dressed impeccably in a sharp tuxedo, stood by my side, a vision of regal charm. His blue eyes glistened as we greeted the guests. As Alpha, he was the embodiment of power and authority.

Though he was always around, we barely talked after that night. He seemed satisfied with Dr. Noah's explanation. I was contemplating how to tell him about my pregnancy.

"Tell him." My wolf urged me. I ignored her and checked on the guests.

What I hadn't expected was a ghost from the past.

Alessia suddenly walked in, still as sexy and beautiful as ever. Her presence immediately caused a stir among the guests.

While I stood in shock, she approached with a smile, her voice a soft caress as she said to Dion, "Long time, no see."

Dion stood there with a look of bewilderment in his eyes. I watched the exchange, my heart sinking as I witnessed Dion's response. The tenderness in his gaze, something I had never seen him extend to me, was directed at Alessia.

The painful realisation struck me like a dagger through the heart. I turned inward to my wolf, my voice trembling as I asked, "No matter how hard we try, are we doomed to lose?"