CHAPTER 5: INTOXICATED

“WHAT AM I even doing here?” she murmured and laughed nervously.

Her, standing in front of Russel’s door felt like a déjà vu. Hindi niya maiwasang hindi maalala ang nangyari noong eighteen siya.

Hindi siya nahirapang hanapin ang bahay ni Russel dahil alam niya ang address nito at ang house number noon pa mang hindi pa siya umaalis ng bansa.

If her stare could bore, it would’ve put a hole in the door. Kanina pa siya nakatitig doon at hindi makahanap ng lakas ng loob upang kumatok.

Ipinikit niya ang mga mata at inalala ang mga sinabi ni Joanna sa kanya. Tila ba nagkaroon siya ng lakas ng loob dahil doon kaya itinaas niya ang kamay at pinindot ang doorbell.

Hindi siya mapakali habang hinihintay na bumukas ang pinto. Malakas ang kutob niyang naroon si Russel dahil nasa garahe ang sasakyan nito. The garage could only fit one car, she was assuming that he only had that car.

Lihim niyang napigil ang hininga ng panandalian lamang nang bumungad sa bumukas na pinto ang mukha ni Russel. Nakasuot ito ng simpleng t-shirt at shorts. His clothes were nothing special, but he still looked dashing in her eyes. He could wear rags and still look amazing in them.

“Hello,” she greeted with a smile.

Nakakunot ang noo ni Russel habang nakatingin sa kanya. Hindi marahil nito inaasahan na makita siya roon. “Anong ginagawa mo rito?”

“You’re hurting my feelings,” aniya ngunit hindi nawala ang pagkakangiti sa mga labi. “Hindi mo man lang ba akong papapasukin?”

Parang gusto niyang tumakbo paalis nang titigan siya ni Russel. She could barely meet his eyes. Sa ilang taon na nagdaan ay mas naging define ang features nito. He looked sharper, and more mature than he was seven years ago.

“Come on, I just got home after how many years. I want to thank you for yesterday, I’m sorry I was tired with my flight hindi ko man lang kayo napasalamatan ni Joanna. And, I want to congratulate you for your wedding.” Sabay abot niya sa hawak na wine kay Russel.

Walang salitang tinanggap nito ang ibinigay niya at binuksan ang pinto. Inilibot niya ang mga mata sa loob ng bahay. The interior design was minimalist, almost bland in her taste. He owned a bungalow. She could see the kitchen and dining room from the living room. May dalawang silid at laundry area. It was a perfect home for a bachelor, but he was getting married and going to start a family, so maybe he would vacate the house.

“Suit yourself,” he said. “Would you like a drink?”

 “Yes, please.”

Umupo siya sa mahabang sofa habang nakasunod ang mga mata kay Russel na kumuha ng wine glass sa kusina. He would be ashamed if he knew how she was gawking at his body.

His back was broader and his arms were bigger that she wondered if he had the time to work out. What would he look like when naked?

Nag-init ang kanyang mga pisngi kaya inalis niya ang mga mata kay Russel kasabay nang pagbalik nito sa sala. Natuon ang kanyang paningin sa mga papel na nasa ibabaw ng center table. He was the same workaholic Russel she knew. Kahit sa bahay ay dala-dala ang trabaho nito.

“I don’t have anything aside from beer and water, and this wine you brought,” anito habang inaabot sa kanya ang wine glass na may laman. Ginamit nito ang wine na dala niya.

“This is fine,” aniya. “How are you?”

Tiningnan niya si Russel na nagbabasa na ngayon ng mga dokumento habang hawak ang wine glass nito.

“Busy ka pa rin kahit malapit na ang kasal mo.”

“I have things I need to finish before the wedding,” he replied. “I heard you are a model.”

“You did?” She was genuinely surprised. Alam niyang hindi ito mahilig sa fashion, siguro ay nasabi ng kanyang mga magulang o ni Joanna rito. “I have nothing else to do, so yeah,” she said with a shrug.

Did you see my pictures? Did you like them? She was acting nonchalant but she had a lot of questions for him. She wanted to ask him if he could see her now as a woman. A grown and matured woman, not some teenager he considered as his younger sister.

“You’re a VP now, huh. Whether it’s career or love life, you’re both successful,” she said, trying to hide the bitterness in her voice. He accomplished a lot of things in the span of seven years. He climbed the top management in her father’s company. Hindi niya nagawa ang bagay na iyon, ni hindi niya alam kung paano pamahalaan ang negoso ng kanyang ama. She was the eldest of Malcolm Klinton’s children, she was supposed to have a position in the company her father owned. But she left the country, and pursued a modeling career in the states. Ni hindi man lang siya nakatapos ng college dahil tumigil siya nang maging busy sa pagmomodelo. Hindi siya kasing talino at ka-hardworking kagaya ni Russel.

“You’re welcome to join the company as MK’s daughter,” he said. She couldn’t tell if he was sincere or not.

“Nah, I’m too dumb for that. Baka ako pa ang maging rason para bumagsak ang kompanya na pinaghirapan ni daddy. It’s enough that you are there and I heard Maverick started his training.” Maverick was her younger brother who just turned twenty-one.

Tumingin ito sa kanya habang nakakunot ang noo. Akmang may sasabihin ito nang umalingawngaw ang tunog ng cellphone.

“Excuse me.” Sabay tayo ni Russel at pumasok sa isa sa dalawang silid ng bahay. Nakaawang ang pinto niyon kaya maririnig sa may sala ang tunog. Sinagot ni Russel ang tawag at nanatili sa loob.

Humigpit ang hawak niya sa kanyang baso nang marinig ang pangalan ni Joanna. Muli niyang naalala ang mga inamin ng matalik na kaibigan. Could she still consider her now as her best friend, after everything she confessed to her?

Russel was talking to Joanna about something related to their wedding. And it pained her while listening to whatever Russel was saying.

Kinapa niya ang nasa loob ng kanyang bulsa nang maalala iyon. Inilabas niya ang pakete na may lamang drugs at tinitigan. Kapagkuwan ay mariin niyang ikinuyom ang kamay, napapikit ng ilang sandali at tahimik na bumuntung-hininga ng malalim.

Sinulyapan niya ang pinto kung nasaan si Russel bago dinampot ang baso nito na may lamang wine.

“J-Just a little bit,” she whispered as she poured the powder in his glass. Her emotions drove her to do that.

She also poured a little amount of powder in her own glass. If she’ll do that, she could not do it sober.

Mabilis niyang ibinalik ang baso ni Russel sa dati niyong posisyon at ipinasok sa bulsa ang pakete.

She didn’t know what she was trying to achieve. Gusto ba niyang gantihan si Joanna o gusto niya lang magkaroon ng isang gabing ala-ala ni Russel na hindi niya makakalimutan? Maybe she wanted to ruin his engagement and wedding?

She could not tell what she wanted. Her mind was in total chaos. Ngunit nandoon na siya, hindi na siya puwedeng umatras sa gustong gawin.

Ruby Rose could barely contain the trembling of her body when Russel came back from the call he had. Umupo itong muli sa pang-isahang sofa at muling dinampot ang mga papel at ang wine glass.

"Wait—” she blurted when he was in the act of sipping. He looked at her with a frown. “I-It was nothing.” Oh god, she felt like she was getting mad.

“Will you really marry her?” tanong niya habang pinapanood si Russel.

“Yes,” he answered.

“But she was my best friend,” she murmured. Pinigilan niya ang mga luha na pumatak. “Did you know I have feelings for you?”

“You were young, you mistook the brotherly feeling you have for me for something else,” he said without glancing at her.

Bahaw siyang natawa sa sinabi ni Russel. “You’re not my brother, Russel. You will never be my brother. Not after what you did to me seven years ago,” she uttered in sarcasm. “No brother would kiss his younger sister and squeeze their breasts as if you’re squeezing for milk.”

“Damn it! I only did what I did to make you stop!”

“Will you do it again now to make me stop?” hamon niya rito.

He blew a heavy sigh and ran his hair with his fingers before standing. “I think you should leave—” Hindi nito natuloy ang sasabihin nang mabuway ito sa pagkakatayo. Bumalik ito ng upo habang sapo-sapo ang ulo. “My head is killing me.”

“I have loved you since I was young, Russel. I never see you as an older brother. No sister would want to kiss her brother, hold her brother, or want to have sex with her brother.”

“Shut up!” he said while groaning. “Did you do something to me?”

Hindi siya sumagot at dinampot ang kanyang baso, mabilis niyang tinungga ang laman niyon bago nilapitan si Russel.

“Don’t hold me,” he snarled at her while trying to get up.

“Let me help you.”

“Just leave—” Hindi natuloy ni Russel ang sasabihin at puro ungol nalang ang lumalabas sa bibig na para bang nahihirapan ito. Isinandal nito ang ulo sa kanyang balikat at mahigpit ang pagkakahawak sa kanyang damit. Mainit ang katawan nito at may mga pawis na lumalabas sa noo at leeg kahit na nakabukas ang aircon. Hinayaan niya na ganoon ang kanilang puwesto ng ilang sandali habang nakatayo sa gitna ng sala bago niya inakay si Russel patungo sa isa sa mga silid. Maging siya ay nakakaramdam narin ng pagkahilo at pag-iinit ng katawan.

May kama sa loob ng silid na una niyang binuksan kaya ipinasok niya roon si Russel na hindi makatayo ng maayos.

“L-Leave, Ruby Rose,” mahina nitong sabi habang nakahiga sa kama at nakapikit, ang braso ay nakadantay sa noo.

Ruby Rose stared at his face while sitting on his bed. Her breath was getting heavy, she was sweating just like him and she felt tingly all over. His face was red, he was groaning and panting at the same time.

Pinasadahan niya ng tingin ang katawan nitong nakalatag sa kama. A groan escaped her lips, that she bit her lower lip immediately, when she saw his groin. “Y-You’re hard,” bulalas niya na tila may nakabara sa lalamunan. “I-Is it painful?”

He answered her with a loud and painful groan as if he was a wounded animal.

Napalunok siya bago itinaas ang nanginginig na kamay patungo sa zipper ng shorts nito. She unsnapped the button and open his fly. Ibababa niya sana ang pangloob ni Russel upang pakawalan ang ari nitong tila gustong kumawala, nang hawakan siya ng binata sa braso at ipininid ang kanyang katawan sa kama.

She shivered down her spine when she met is eyes. There was fire in his eyes and as if he was not himself. Like a beast ready to pounce his prey.

She found herself being kissed by him. It was a frantic kiss, there’s no gentleness in it. Na para bang nagmamadali ito at may hinahabol.

Tinamaan na rin siya at nawala sa matinong pag-iisip. Malalakas na ungol ang kumawala sa kanilang bibig nang maglapat ang kanilang ibabang katawan. She could feel how hard Russel was while he was humping his lower body against her.

Her back arched automatically when he cupped her breasts and squeeze them. From her lips, his lips travelled down to her neck and shoulder. “Ahh…” daing niya nang kagatin nito ang kanyang balikat.

She was not in her right mind and was lost in pleasure while their bodies were touching. Everything she saw was blurry. She could not even remember how her clothes were removed from her body and was now naked under him.

They were both intoxicated and could feel nothing but lust. They could not possibly stop their body for yearning the heat of each other.

“So wet,” he said in her ear.

Ruby Rose trembled uncontrollably when his fingers entered her body and his mouth sucked her breasts. She was overwhelmed with pleasure that she could barely even feel the pain.  

Not long after, his fingers were replaced by something bigger and longer. He drove inside her with no hesitation. Hard and fast.

“Ahh…” they both groaned when their bodies became one.

Her fingers were drawing blood on his shoulders and back while he was moving in and out of her.

“So good,” he uttered.

“Deeper, faster. F-fuck me harder,” aniya na mahigpit na nakahawak sa katawan niya. “A-ahh, p-please…”

 Napasinghap si Ruby Rose nang bigla nitong baliktarin ang kanyang katawan. Nakadapa na siya ngayon sa kama, mariin ang pagkakadiin ng kanyang katawan roon habang nakapatong sa kanyang likuran si Russel. He wrapped his arm around her neck and pushed his thick and hot penis inside her. He was rough and savage, completely dominating her, but Ruby Rose did not mind. She moaned in pleasure and gasped for air.

It was a very long night for the both of them. What Ruby Rose couldn’t anticipate was the consequences of her actions when they wake up the next day.