Chapter 4

Nagising ako ng alas syete ng gabi. Bumaba ako saglit habang tulog pa si Seig at nagluto ng gabihan namin. Maya maya lang ay narinig ko na ang mga yapak niya papasok sa kusina kaya agad kong tinapos ang paghahain at hinubad na ang suot na apron.

"Don't wear undies when you're here." napatigil ako sa pag-upo dahil sa sinabi niya.

"A-ano? Gusto mo akong..."

"Yeah, I don't want you to wear undies." bigla akong pinamulahan sa sinabi niya.

"Seryoso ka?!"

"I am not good at joking," nakangising sabi niya bago nagsimulang kumain. Hindi nga siya nagbibiro, ayaw niya magsuot ng kahit ano bukod sa shirt at short. Gaano ba kahilig ang lalaking 'to?

"Have you already found a job?" umiling ako.

"Mahirap pala rito makahanap, walang tumatanggap ng hindi pa graduate."

"I can hire you," nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya.

"H-huh? Anong trabaho naman?"

"My assistant, wala na ang dati kong assistant, kaya sa ngayon, vacant pa 'yong posisyon. Ikaw ang gusto kong pumalit."

"Pero wala naman akong alam gawin tungkol sa pagiging assistant."

"I know you can do it. I can teach you. Fast learner ka naman." hindi ko alam kung ngingiti ako sa sinabi niya o mahihiya. Iba ang dating sa 'kin ng sinabi niyang fast learner.

Tinapos namin ang pagkain at nauna siyang umakyat, naghugas muna ako ng mga pinggan bago sumunod, ngunit hindi ko siya naabutan. Baka nasa veranda at nagpapahangin kaya pinili kong magshower muna.

Wala akong ibang dala kundi bathrobe at towel bago pumasok. I just put it on the nightstand and stepped inside the shower. Mabilis kong hinubad ang mga suot ko bago pumailim sa nagbabagsakang tubig. It's warm, and I love it. Binabad ko ang sarili sa ilalim no'n, with my close eyes at nakatingala. Ninanamnam ang sarap sa pakiramdam ng tubig.

This is so refreshing. The water cascades down all over my body. A slight warmth tickles my n*pples and they respond with hardened tips. I know he is here. He doesn't have to say a word. I can feel his eyes watching me as I shower. My eyes remained closed as I rinsed off.

"Seig, are you there?" I asked.

"Who else would be watching you take a shower?" He responds solemnly. Hindi pa man ako nagmumulat, ay biglaan nalamang akong napaungol ng maramdamang may humihimas sa pagitan ng mga hita ko dahilan para bahagya ko 'yong maibuka.

"S-seig, nags-shower pa ako." hindi ko mapigilang kagatin ang sariling labi para pigilan ang paglabas ng mahinang halinghing.

I felt his warm, soft lips touch my skin behind me. Napasandal ako sa matipuno niyang katawan when his finger started to tease my entrance.

I can feel his hardness on my back, and I know it's hard now, just like it used to be when we did it. Sa ilang beses na naming ginawa ay hanggang ngayon hindi ko maisip na gano'n siya kalaki. It was like 10 inches long. I'm curious how it feels inside my mouth. That's why when he was inside me, I felt so full.

A sudden thrust of his one finger shakes out my reverie.

"What the hell are you thinking, hon? I wish it was me hmm?" Marahan niyang kinagat ang tenga ko as his teeth graze down on my neck and shoulder. Ang isang kamay niya'y sinapo ang dibdib ko, massaging it as his fingers thrust slowly.

Mabilis akong umikot para harapin siya at mabilis siyang hinalikan sa labi. A kiss that started as an innocent peck, turns into an instant hunger. His arms grip around my body tighter, as he presses me even harder against the tiles. My arms wrap around his neck as our lips melt into one and my tongue searches out his.

I sucked on his bottom lip and a moan escaped from deep in his throat. I can feel his hardness in between my open and parted legs. I want to taste him with the cool water hitting my back. I want him to just lose control, relax, and release himself onto me, and then let the water clean us both off.

I pulled away and stared at his proud length. When I looked at his eyes, namumungay iyon and he was even biting his lips, hindi ko maintindihan kung ano ang gusto niya pero alam ko kung ano ang gusto kong gawin.

Without any hesitation, I wrapped my hand around his length. It has grown hard in my hand, like it really wants me.

"I want to s*ck you. Can I?" I bit my lip as I stared at him again. With parted lips, he nodded to me. I kneeled down in front of him as I grabbed the base of it and guided the rest of it into my mouth. A moan escapes his lips. He braces himself against the wall and leans his head back, eyes closed. I took my tongue and traced from the base of his length to the tip slowly. I used my tongue to draw circles around the head... over and over again.

I don't know how I will do it for the first time. Maybe in the novels I've often read before.

He can barely contain himself with all types of moans and half-spoken profanity coming out of his mouth. He grabs my hair as my lips form a tight grip around his long head, and I slowly suck—moving my head back and forth—and taking him deeper and deeper with each head nod. He starts controlling my head... causing me to take him even deeper and faster. I used my hand to control my movement. He's so thick and long.

Mas binilisan ko pa ang paggalaw hanggang sa maramdaman ko ang paninigas ng kaniyang katawan.

"O-oh shit! Faster."  Obliged I did it. Hanggang sa maramdaman kong may likidong naipon sa bibig ko mula sa kaniya. Hinihingal siyang napabitaw sa buhok ko bago ako pinangko at isinandal sa padir.

"Spit it out," Ginawa ko ang sinabi niya, I spit his load as he claimed my lips hungrily.

"Y-you're such a tease," He groaned as his tongue ran over my skin down on my bosom, sucking and nibbling as his tongue expertly swirled on it.

"I want you now," I hoarsely said, grasping at his hair.

"As you wish, Honey." Nang sabihin niya 'yon ay unti-unti ko nang naramdaman ang pagbaon niya sa loob ko.

"A-ahhh! Good God." he started to thrust inside me that drive me freaking crazy.

"S-seigraine—"

"Yeah right, honey, moan for me!"

"S-seig!" para akong nababaliw sa ginagawa niya sa akin. He was so great, a fucking s-x God who could make a girl beg for more.

"I like to see your face when we are doing this, hon. You love it." wala na akong maintindihan sa sinasabi niya. All I can understand is the feeling when he's inside of me.

He thrust into me faster and harder, I could feel him deep inside me, sending a pleasurable and tickling sensation. Mariin akong napakapit sa balikat niya, trying to meet his thrust, bago pa man kami labasan ay mabilis na niya akong binaba at pinatalikod sa kaniya bending my back a little, he even lift up one of my legs and filled me na mas mahaba kong kinaungol. Marahan siyang naglabas masok na tila inaasar ako habang ako naman ay mariin na napatukod ang kamay sa tiles.

"Seig, bilisan mo na..."

"Later," marahan niyang binaon ang kaniya na sabay naming kinaungol.

"Ahhh fuck!" one thrust again.

"S-seig stop teasing!" I started to move my hips but he stopped me.

"D-don't..."

"Tangina Seig ano ba?!" sinubukan ko ulit na gumalaw ngunit agad niya ulit akong pinigilan at naramdaman ko ang paninigas ng katawan niya habang nasa loob ko, I can feel something cold and warm inside me. Napatulala ako sa tiles as silence filled us.

"You already came?"

"I told you, don't move."

He brought it in and out a few more times before removing it and turning me to face him. He kisses my lips before lifting me up, the last thing I know is that we are already on the bed and he is starting to thrust while on top of me again.

"Ahhh!" I feel my stomach twisting, but he's still thrusting. Nanghihina akong napabalik sa pagkakahiga, I was just waiting for him to cum until I felt his body tense. Until he came inside.

"A-ahh tangina," he cursed firmly when he finally released his. Hinihingal siyang napaupo sa harapan ko.

He walked inside his bathroom naked, and a minute later, he walked out holding two towels, pansin kong basa ang isa at ang isa naman ay tuyo. He wiped my lips, with the wet towel still down on my fold bago ako pinunasan ng dry towel. I was still gasping when I laid down after I put on the clothes he took for me.

"Rest now," were the only words I heard before falling asleep, along with his kiss on my forehead.

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"Ngayon na ba ako magsisimula?" tanong ko kay Seig na abala sa pagsusuot ng coat niya. Naka-robe lang ako at katatapos pa lang maligo, mas inuna ko kasing igawa siya ng almusal.

"Yeah, sumabay ka na."

Mabilis akong magbihis at nangingiti pa sa hindi malamang dahilan. Sabay rin kaming nag-almusal at sabay na umalis. This is my first time riding in his own car. Except noong lasing ako kasi hindi ko na-feel 'yong pagsakay ko sa kotse niya.

"Hindi ba ako k-kwestyunin ng mga empleyado mo?"

"They won't."

"Bakit hindi mo na lang ako ipakilala as girlfriend? Tutal nagpapanggap naman ako 'di ba?"

"Ayoko, hindi ako sanay—pinagpapanggap lang naman kita at gagawin mo lang 'yon sa harap ni dad."

So that's it? Ayaw niyang ipaalam sa lahat dahil alam naman ng lahat na hindi siya nag-gigirlfriend. Tahimik ako hanggang sa makarating kami ng kompanya niya. I was just like a robot that follows the path he's walking on.

"Good morning, sir, and ma'am..." Hindi sila sure sa pagbati sa 'kin, na tila ba kinikilala at pinagaaralan pa nila ako.

"She's my temporary assistant." Walang buhay na sabi ni Seig, not even looking at his employees. Muling bumaling sa 'kin 'yong ilang empleyado niya kanina bago ngumiti sa akin at bahagyang nag-bow bago tuluyang umalis.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla akong nawalan ng gana sa nangyari. Nang makapasok sa elevator ay nagulat ako ng sunod-sunod rin ang pagpasok ng ilan pang employees at bumati kay Seigraine pati na rin sa akin.

Seig, unexpectedly wrapped his arm around my waist. Hindi gano'n kahigpit pero sapat para maramdaman ko ang init ng kamay niya. Bahagya akong napadikit sa katawan niya as my head rested on his chest. Hindi ko maintindihan ang biglaang pagkalabog ng dibdib ko sa ginawa niya.

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng makarating kami sa opisina niya, nagulat akong naroroon lamang din ang table para sa kaniyang sekretarya.

"You mean, I am working inside your office?"

"Yeah, problem with that?" tanong niya ng hindi man lang ako tinatapunan ng tingin.

"N-nothing, of course." Hindi pa man ako nakakaupo ay may pumasok ng babae na derederetsong lumapit sa kaniya at biglaan siyang hinalikan na kinalaki ng mata ko sa gulat. Halos malaglag pa ang panga ko nang makita kung paanong palalimin ng babae ang halik niya kay Seig na halatang nagulat. Nang makabawi ay agad siyang itinulak ni Seigraine habang salubong na salubong ang kilay. Bago pa man ito makapagsalita ay biglaan nanamang bumukas ang pinto at may isa namang lalaki ang pumasok na nagulat din sa naabutan, kaya aksidente itong napatingin sa akin. Upon seeing his whole face. My eyes widened.

"Ean?" napalingon ako sa direksyon ni Seig unconsciously, at nakita ko nang nakatingin siya sa akin, gano'n din 'yong babae.

"Ean! We met again!" Muli kong nilingon ang lalaki at naglakad na ito palapit sa akin na tila nakalimutan na ang pakay niya. "L-luke!"

"So, rito ka na mag w-work?"

"Y-yeah, bakit ka pala nandito?"

"Well, I heard that Bastard was here now, so I paid him a visit, and it was like a blessing in disguise when I found out you're here! God I miss you already." Mabilis niya akong niyakap na kinagulat ko ulit, nanigas na lang ako sa kinatatayuan ko, dahil sa ginawa niya.

"Get your hands off my assistant, Sylvester." Marahang napalayo si Luke sa akin at muli nanaman akong nagulat ng nasa tabi ko na si Seig, at madilim ang mukhang nakatingin na ngayon kay Luke na bakas ang gulat sa narinig.

Agad na lumipat ang tingin sa akin ni Luke, namumungay ang mga mata at tila biglang nawalan ng pag-asa sa isang bagay na hindi ko maipaliwanag. I felt something inside my heart shatter too.

"S-siya ba? 'Yong sinabi mo sa 'kin?" Bakit? Bakit ka nasasaktan Luke? Please don't make me see those eyes of yours. Napayuko na lang ako at tumango, nang maramdaman ang kamay ni Seig na pumulupot sa bewang ko.

"What is it?" Halatang curious na tanong ni Seig.

"Nasabi kasi sa 'kin ni Eras na kasama niya boyfriend niya rito, nagulat lang ako—of course it's not you man, I know you."

"Well, that's true, Luke. She's my girl. Now what are you doing here?"

"Well... I just want to say hello to you, dude. Ah, may meeting pa ako. Gotta go. Y-you're here now again, inom tayo minsan."

"Yeah, sounds great, thanks." Naramdaman ko pa ang pagsulyap sa akin ni Luke at nang tumalikod na siya ay saka ako nag-angat ng tingin at bahagyang lumayo kay Seig.

"Seigraine, what a show." his girl.

"Leave Aressa."

"What?! After the show you made?!"

"Get the fuck out!" Halos mapatalon ako sa sigaw ni Seig ngunit hindi ko siya pinansin at naupo na. Narinig ko ang yapak ng babae palabas, Seig locked the door as I could feel his eyes drifted on me.Naiilang man ay hindi ko siya pinagangatan ng tingin, because I know what kind of stare he's giving me.

"So, he's that Luke, huh?" mabilis niyang hinawakan ang mukha ko para magtama ang paningin naming dalawa. His eyes were sharp and dark. He looks furious over something I can't understand.

"Answer me, Ean." Mariin na utos niya.

"Yes, siya nga." Matapang na sagot ko sa mababang tono. I can see how he gritted his teeth.

"You like him, right?" Napatitig ako sa mga mata niyang nagtatanong at nagngangalit.

"Yes," mabilis niyang nabitawan ang mukha ko na tila napapasong napabitaw. He ruffles his hair before turning his back on me, mararahas ang naging paghinga niya na tila gusto niyang magwala but he's controlling it. Mayamaya lang ay muli niya akong nilingon ng wala ng kahit anong emosyon.

Marahan siyang muli na lumapit. He held up my chin as he bent down and planted small kisses on my lips. It was gentle, soft, and wanted kisses. Tila nakukuryente napapikit ako sa pakiramdam ng ginagawa niya. He seems to be teasing my lips. I tried to kiss him back, but he was stopping me. Pinakiramdaman ko kung gaano kasarap sa pakiramdam ang maramdaman ang mga labi niya. I even moan when he sucks on my lower lip and pushes his tongue inside, like exploring it, and I was just like a robot who doesn't need to do anything.

Nang mas lumalim ang halik niya ay doon na ako gumalaw at mas diniin ang paglapat ng mga labi namin, I even wrapped my arms on his nape as I gripped on his hair.

I sucked on his lips and fought his tongue inside. I can hear our kisses. Napasinghap ako ng bigla niya akong buhatin at ipasok sa isang kwarto na natitiyak kong kaniya. I can't believe he has this inside his office. He locked the door as he threw me onto the bed. Hindi pa ako nakakakilos nang mabilis niyang hubarin ang panty ko kasabay ng pagbukas niyanng mga butones ng sleeves ko.

"S-seig wait!" I tried to stop him, ngunit napatingin ang madilim niyang mga mata sa akin.

"I'm sorry."

"For what?" Takang tanong niya. Saan nga ba Ean? Kahit sa sarili ko hindi ko alam kung para saan, siguro dahil... may nararamdaman pa rin ako para kay Luke hanggang ngayon?

Pero bakit naman? It's nothing for Seigraine. We aren't in a relationship. I was just pretending to be his girlfriend when, in fact, I was just his bedmate, his fuckbuddy, and his bed warmer.

For him, I am just for lust. I am not for love. I know that Seigraine wasn't the type of man who would settle for a relationship.