46BENEDICTI didn't know what to feel as I stand here in front of them after what I just said. All I wondered was why Thea was here at my place. I was just totally confused why Thea is here.I look at Bethany and she looked disappointed with what I said earlier. I know I shouldn't have said that but I wouldn't even say it if I knew Thea was around.Have they heard it?God damn it. I think they did. Just by looking at my sister's face, I know they heard it pretty clearly.I take another look at Thea and she doesn't look happy too. She stares at her feet or probably her hands that were clasping together. Maybe she was offended? Maybe it affected her? But why would it affect her when she doesn't even like me in return. It wouldn't mean anything if she doesn't really care about it."Thea!" Sebastian calls out as he walks towards her.He smiles and laced one arm around her shoulders but Thea would steal glances from me as I kept my eyes glued on her. I watch as Sebastian wraps his arms ar
47THEAI shivered at that voice and opened my eyes right away, only to find Benedict standing right next to me. His eyes were looking straight ahead, serious and focused. His hair was pushed back and he was still wearing that white colored sheer top that I loved from a while ago. He paired with his white sweater pants and he looked so manly even with such clothes. His long hands were inside the pockets of his sweater pants and as I examined him, he looked like he just woke up based from his adorable puffy eyes. But he's still so handsome, it's irritating.There was silence between us for a while and I guess both of us are still trying to gather our right thoughts and right words on whether what to say to each other. I didn't know why I was feeling this way with him around and it's becoming too unhealthy for me. He makes me feel things that I have been avoiding to feel again and he's the least man I thought of to make me feel this way again. I can't find any reasons why he affects me
48THEAIt has been almost a week since I had that talk with Benedict. I never saw him after that and I got myself busy with job hunting for my internship but I haven't been hired yet. None of those companies I applied for had called me back and I felt giving up already. But lately, I wasn't really worried about having a job or not, I was more bothered about Benedict and what happened that night. I wouldn't know how to act when I will see him again.I must admit that I made some mistakes beforehand when things were still okay for the two of us. Mistakes like pushing him away eversince I met him because of infinite reasons and dont's that I could think of. I was too scared to admit to myself that I was very much attracted to him even though I was denying it all along. The urge was long there, I just didn't bother it too much and now it's firing up.The following morning after that night, Bethany said that Benedict left for work very early and didn't even have breakfast. He just told he
49T H E AThe yacht is heading to an island nearby which was owned by Sebastian and they said we'll be arriving there tomorrow morning. Sebastian's father just finished building a 7-Star resort there and a lot of prominent people from very powerful families have been visiting. The only ways to get there was either by water or by air. Hence the guests can only go to the island either by ship or chopper.I don't know how insane these very rich people could easily spend their money on things like these. I find it unfair because they could waste money as long as they want while other poor people in this world has nothing to eat on their plate and are sleeping with hungry stomach.I sigh as I look out the window and I was anxious of tonight's party. The dress that Bethany let me borrow an hour ago didn't fit because I was too huge. But I wasn't worried about what to wear for tonight, I was more worried of how I will be acting in front of Benedict being with Lovemarie.Honestly, as I reali
50T H E AI sat next to Sebastian alongside the others. The moment I stepped inside this ballroom, everyone looked at me. I was nervous because all of their attention was on me and how these men admired me and said that I was gorgeous. But their words og appreciation didn't matter because I only wanted to know how Benedict thinks of me. Honestly I really wanted to know how Benedict thinks of me right now. I wanted to know how he thinks of how I look with my dress. I wanted to know if he thinks it's too much or just too revealing. I wanted to hear his opinion but he is too busy with Lovie. He probably thinks that she's much prettier than me."Thea, I can't believe how stunning you look right now." PJ complimented me for the fifth time and now his date looks at me as if she's ought to kill me.I smiled at PJ."You've said that for the nth time P." Troy grinsPJ chuckles, "It's because she truly is."PJ's date whose name is Ashley rolled her eyes."Now now PJ. Your date seems to be a li
51B E N E D I C TI waltz around the dancefloor with Bethany but I kept on stealing glances from Thea and Sebastian. I didn't want him to notice that I was looking at his date. I don't want him to doubt our friendship. I don't want him to think that I'm hiding something from him. It's already enough to see him happy. They're happy together anyways.But no matter how hard I try to keep myself unattach from her, it's just too impossible to happen."C'mon Benedict. You obviously have to agree and tell me the truth." I hear Bethany."About what?" I asked, trying to sound annoyed."That dress Thea's wearing." She points out.I look away."You were the one who bought it." Bethany adds."What did she say?" I asked."That Sebastian was the one who bought it for her. He was the one who delivered it to her suite a while ago." She explained.I nod. "Then that's it.""That's it? Don't you dare fool me Benedict. I saw that dress. I was the one who received it from the delivery man that day." She
52T H E AMy body felt weak in a second and I wanted to succumb to what he wants me to do. He makes me wanna stay here and dance with him. He makes me wanna forget about the whole other people inside the ballroom to be with him. He makes me forget that Sebastian is my date and Lovemarie's his tonight.But this isn't wrong, is it?He isn't officially seeing someone and I am available too. But why do I feel like I'm betraying Sebastian?I groan inwardly and wanted to pull myself away but he gently rubs my hand with his soft long fingers. My body melted and followed him as he placed my left arm around his neck and his right hand holding my free hand as he lazily pulled it up to our side. His other hand wraps around my waist and I loved how it stays there, as if he owned me tonight.Benedict, I hope you can read my mind. I hope you can read my mind so that things will be easier and that you'll know that I am already falling for you. No, I think I had been feeling this a few months ago bu
53B E N E D I C TEverything that was surrounding me was quiet and calm now.Me and Thea were both quiet now after two hours and half of having sex. I'm tired but I've never been this satisfied. I lay on her bed with nothing on me and with Thea lying down next to me. Thea lays her head over my chest and she's been awfully quiet for twenty minutes now. It made me feel as if I did something terribly wrong. I wonder if I even satisfied her. I mean, don't get it wrong but I'm the best in bed and I've been told. Not only once but always.I have noticed that Thea has been avoiding to look me in the eye and I guess she just doesn't know how to speak to me after what we unexpectedly did. We were quiet but we were okay. All of a sudden I see Thea pulling her forefinger out and started drawing circles around my left chest. She scribbled some words against my skin but I couldn't understand what it was.I gently placed my hand over the back of her head and started running my fingers through her