42M I R A N D A"Who is Ben's real father?" He asks me and my soul just left my body.I tried to keep an emotionless and straight face after the things that Hugo told me and now he's asking me about Ben. All of a sudden he's curious about Ben! But he has the right to be because I have been utterly selfish towards him, the entire time. I can't believe that I came here totally unprepared for this kind of conversation and I can't believe he'll actually tell me everything that happened that night. Embarrassing.Totally embarrassing. I don't know how to face him after what he just told me and I am totally bothered about the things we did seven years ago. Now that he's questioning about Ben's biological father, it is something I don’t know how to face. I have always guarded myself from people who would want to invade that kind of personal space in my life. Ever since Ben was born, I have always protected him from everyone who could possible hurt him.Ben does not deserve to be ridiculed
42.5He's quiet now. He's listening."I was so embarrassed that I've lived with it these past seven years. I was so wasted that I don't remember anything and it is so scary not knowing what I have done that night. It’s so traumatizing.” I cried as I shake my head sideways.Silence enveloped the room.“I'm so ashamed of myself. The look on your face when you saw the bloodstain on your hotel bed sheets. It scarred me. It made me feel so… horrible.” I confessed.His brows creasing, “How did you... How did you know about that?”“I was there. I was hiding inside your hotel room. I was looking at you and you looked so disgusted and how it made me feel that I was something disgusting.”Hugo shakes his head, “Rose, no.”“I felt so dirty for having that sinful one night stand with you." I cried inwardly.Hugo looks at me ruefully. "Sinful?" He repeats.I look back at him as he continues, "That sinful night meant something to me. It was a night I would want to relive over and over again."My he
43M I R A N D A Those words and yelling conversations I had with Hugo yesterday is still ringing against my ear. I can't believe he finally found out about the truth and I cannot believe it ended up like that. We fought like we didn't have tomorrow and I yelled at him out of disrespect and anger even though I know I was at fault too.Even after confronting him with what I felt and what I have been through all those years, it was surprising of him to comfort me. Yet, I acted out of control when I screamed at him and even blamed him for the mistake that we both did.I absentmindedly blamed him even though I know I was at fault too. I should have held my emotions flowing overly out from my body that I have kept for all these years.After that confrontation, I honestly don’t know what the future holds for all of us and most especially for Ben. I know he will be very happy to know that his father is Hugo and I know he will be so mad at me for hiding it from him all these years. I don’t e
43.5"Hey hey.” He coos. “Don't think about things that are way overboard.” I try to wipe my tears off my cheeks as I stare at my picture with Ben and Landon over my dresser.“Hugo's not gonna take Ben away from you, he promised me that he won't and I won't let him.” Landon adds. “I know him and he's not gonna do that to you.”I exhale heavily as I wipe my tears from my cheeks and tried to smile as I watch Ben’s smile on the photo and Landon’s smile too. "I just want you here with me right now." I whimper softly."I'm so sorry for not being around with you.” He says sadly. “I should have been there. I am so sorry. Don’t worry, I'll book a flight to New York right now. I'm coming for you love." He tells me and having Landon is already reassuring.I slightly smile. “Okay. Thank you Landon.”"Have you tried talking to Ben about Hugo?" Landon asks.I shake my head as I answer, "Not yet. I can't seem to.... Find the right words on how to say it to a six year old." I laugh humorlessly as m
44H U G O “Why are you being so mad at me?!” Audrey raised her voice at me as we talk over the phone.It has been like this since then and I fucking hate how she is doing things on her without telling me. She does things as she please and this one has been off the charts.“Because you are doing things you want to do without even letting me know!”“Hugo, I don’t need to tell you everything I do!”“That’s our wedding Audrey. I have a part on who to invite or not. At least you could have told me that you were going to visit Miranda!”“Ahh!!” She exclaims louder. “There you go! You said it yourself! You were not mad at me because I invited them but you honestly are mad at me because I went there without telling you!”I groan inwardly as I clench my fist while I stare the view of London from my office. Audrey has been too over the edge lately and I don’t know why she is acting like this ever since she caught Miranda inside my hotel suite that one time.“Audrey, that was not the problem h
44.5I was the one who ripped her and took her innocence from her as selfish as it sounds but I was first. I was the first one who did those things to her. She has my son, my first born child, and this is totally different than Audrey's back in the day. I might have sort of stolen Audrey from him but this time is different.Rose was mine first and I don't know why I feel this way over her just because I did some things with her first. I feel like, I need to be owning her and not Landon.But, she's not mine.And never was.You are pathetic Hugo. Fucking pathetic.Just because Rose and I had sex even before she met Landon doesn't mean I can steal her from him too. I'm getting married and the people already knows I’m marrying Audrey in two weeks.God, two weeks.I should be happy right? I should be happy that I am marrying the woman I have always loved for so long. But, why is it that the thought of marrying him feels like a chain around my neck?I should not feel like this at all. I ha
45H U G O"Why do you feel like backing out from your wedding?”Mum’s question bothers me. “I thought you love Audrey?” She adds.“I do love her.” I admitted.She looks at me worriedly, “Then what seems to be the problem?”I've always loved Audrey and she's the only woman I wanna be with ever since I met her. She used to be so simple. She used to be so gorgeous and very down to earth. She used to be so friendly and smiling. That was the Audrey that I fell in love with.But now, she totally changed.Every single thing about her changed as soon as she got really famous. She changed the way she dresses. She changed the way she speaks. She changed the way she treats people. She changed the way she was supposed to be and it felt like I don’t know the real Audrey anymore. She changed when people were starting to notice her, when people were beginning to love her and when people were seeing her potential.She is not the same woman I fell in love with before.Then there’s Rose, who left me
45.5M I R A N D A"Hey."Landon suddenly wraps his arms around my waist as he stands next to me. He quickly kisses my neck and slowly spins me around to face him. I move my head to Landon and cupped his cheeks with both of my hands as we smile."You are one bothered and hot looking momma." He teases.I grin. "I'm not bothered, but I am hot looking.""Yes you are bothered and you're also hot looking momma." He kisses my forehead.I smile shyly."You wanna go out for a walk? Or a drive? A drive would be better." He winks at me.I nod. "I think I need to get out a little bit. I need some sunshine.""I am your ball of sunshine." He smiles.I giggle and kiss his jaw. "I love you my lover."He smiles at me so handsomely, "I'm beginning to love it every time you call me that." Landon holds me tighter and I do not want him to let me go."I know you love it." I say."Yes. How about we go out for a drive a little bit before we pick up Ben from school and then maybe grab some ice cream afterwar