Chapter 4

It's been three days since I met Him, Eros.

His name is new to me and his face. Most of the people at that bar knew me or I knew them. But he's different, I don't know him, He don't know me.

I looked at my cellphone when it rang, I smiled when I sew the name of the caller.

"Yes, Manang?" I asked her when I answer the call

"What time are you coming home, Ayla?"

Manang is already old. Senior citizen. She must have retired because she is already too old to work, but she doesn’t want too. She said she doesn’t have a family to be with. She's 75 y/o.

I sighed "I'm sorry Manang but I think hmmmm…." I stopped talking and looked at my wrist watch.

"Will it take you long to get home??"

“I don’t know. Do you need anything, Manang? ”

"Nothing, go home early ha.”

“I will. Bye. ” Even though she’s kinda weird today I still answered her questions.

Only once did Manang soften like that so I got up from my seat and took my bag from the table to come out.

"Are you coming home, ma'am?" Amber asked when she saw me walking towards the exit door.

I stopped walking and looked at her direction. "Yeah, why?"

She slightly bowed her head and looked in a different direction to avoid eye contact. Do I look intimidating!

"Ammm you’re meeting with Mr. Aguilar will start 30 minutes from—"

"Cancel it."

“Hmm I don’t think we can do that, Ma’am. It's only 30 minutes and s-start— ”

"I have an emergency, Cancel it."

I didn't wait for him to answer because I completely turned my back on her and left. When I got home it was very quiet.

I just ignored it, I just kept walking until I got to the dining room.

When I got there, there was a lot of food on the table, and someone was sitting in the farthest seat. He’s the person I haven’t seen for almost 24 years.

He’s just sitting there and seems to be waiting for something or someone, he’s not eating anything although there was food prepared in front of him He's just like a robot there waiting for his master to give him permission to eat.

His hazel -colored eyes stared at me, From head to toe. He looks as if I have done something wrong to him, He is staring at me angrily.

I should be the one who is angry with him, he is the person I should avoid and be angry with now.

“Where have you been?” He asked me, and he still didn’t take his eyes off me.

“What....Are you doing here in my house? ” I also asked him.

"It's also my house, Ayla." He replied

I’m still standing like a statue, even though I badly wanted to move but I couldn't. My leg seemed to be nailed to the floor where I was standing.

"I didn't know that you still consider it a house." I said in a sarcastic way while wearing my bitch face I also smirked to him to annoy him even more.

His jaw tightened and he glared at me. his eyes saying differently from the expression on his face. He didn't answer me, I also don't know where I get the courage to talk to him like that.

"You lied to me." I said to him“Again… what are you doing here, what came into your mind and you think of coming here?”

He remain emotionless while looking at me, and I just smiled at him. A fake smile. I just want him to feel guilty for what he did.

I pointed to my head with my index finger, as if I was thinking of something. I smiled at him, a smile that will surely annoyed him.

“OMY! don't tell me you're sick !? Are you going to die !?” I dramatically said

His still glaring at me but this time he got up from his seat and approached me.

'He's mad, poor him' I said in my mind. I am really strong today to say those words to him.

If I only knew he was here I would have just continued the Meeting with Mr. Aguilar, Tsk.

"You have no respect for your elders." He answered me, he even touched my shoulder.

"Is that what you learned from going to the bar."

He pressed his grip on my shoulder, but I still try to cope with the pain. I'm not even surprised by what he said, they aren't here but they have a lot of eyes watching over the wrong things I'm doing. I smiled at him when I thought of something that would make him more annoyed with me.

"No." I replied, "I learned a different type of being a A-hole in the ba--"

I was caught on my cheek when he suddenly slapped me, instead of crying, I had the courage to express my resentment to him. He slapped me, he freaking slapped my face. I'm pretty sure my right cheeks is already red because of his slap. He also need to slap the left, to be fair, right?

I felt the pain on my cheek but I just ignored it and looked at him.

You can see on his face that he was also surprised for slapping me.

“Fuck, I’m sorry. I'm sorry, Ayla. I didn't mean to slap you. “ He apologized to me, he wanted to touched my cheek but I avoided my face from him.

"You lied to me!" Now I shouted at him, he didn't move and he didn't come near me either. He just stared at me, sadness could be seen on his face.

“You lied, you said… you said you're coming right !? But you did not !. You even promised to me, but you broke it! ” this time my tears were already dripping to my face. “I hoped… I hoped you come because you promised me, you promised! What else can I expect from you, to all of you. You only know how to promise.”

I can't say what I'm saying properly and clearly because my voice is cracking, I feel like it's my birthday and everyone has turned their backs on me. My friends greeted me, but that wasn't enough for me. Only three people greeted me on my birthday, it was Manang and my three friends.

“T-Then you called and promised…. Again, you said you were going home on Sunday so we could celebrate that, right? I agreed to what you wanted! .... e-even though it doesn't seem like it's my birthday that we will c-celebrate. But you disappointed Me, you made Me hoped! ” I said to him, I heard Manang sobbing behind me and the tears of the man in front of me were dripping. “Yeah, You called. But you forget to greet me a happy birthday! No… I haven't received anything from you! ”

“Tell me why! ... why do you have to do that to me !?” I shout again.

"Ayla"

“Tell me !!”

"You know the reason why I didn't come home for your birthday." its calm Promise

"I… know, I want to know why you didn't keep your promise, your promise!"

"She needs me ----"

“And I don't, is that it !?” annoyed I shouted at him, He did not answer. He was also crying quietly. My tears kept falling.

“When will I be your priority !? And why did you come home here? ” I asked

"You need me ---"

"I don't need you anymore, I don't need you, them anymore!"I cut him off “I grew up alone, without the guidance of your parents and then you would say 'You need me'? Stupid, you're stupid! ” I said and Laugh.

It's as if I'm crazy about it, I'm crying and then suddenly laughing. He still can’t say anything, it's as if he has lost his voice. He was so surprised.

Even though I was shocked by what my mouth was saying, it seemed to have a mind of its own. No one spoke after that, I wiped the tears from my eyes and turned my back on him.

"I'm s-sorry"

I even heard him say that, but I ignored it. I also saw Manang crying while the others maids bowed, maybe they heard us shouting.

I just kept walking until I got out, I got in the car and drove. I don’t know where I’m going now.

I am here now in the park, sitting on a bench under a big tree and facing a lake. I was just stunned by it.

I don’t know why we became like this. It happened very fast. I sighed and looked at my wrist watch. It's already 5:30 pm. I didn't notice that I had been here that long.

I don't know where I'm going now, I don't want to go home especially that he was there, he’s stressing me.

"What the f*ck!"

I jumped to my seat in shock when suddenly there was a face that just popped in front of me! He’s smiling at me.

"What a coincidence." He said and he pat my head.

I rolled my eyes that made him laugh, I thought i would never see him again. But here he is, standing in front of me and laughing at me!

"Stupid." I whispered, just enough for him to hear.

"You're so rude to me, you know."

"You're so feeling close to me, yah know?" I mimicked him and rolled my eyes again.

"You love rolling your eyes huh, maybe suddenly…..it will drop."

I laughed out loud because of what he said, I suddenly remembered the my friend Mitch, He looked so annoyed so I laughed even harder.

"Stop or else."

"Or else, what?" I tease him.

The edge of his lip lifted and he aligned his face with mine.

"I'll fuck you here."

I slapped him on his arm because of the vulgarity of his mouth. He laughed so hard while holding his arm arm.

"Shut up!"

“Oh C’mon, love. You'll love it, did you already forget the way you moaned my name --- ”

It didn't take long for me to cover his mouth, I simply looked around and sigh of relief when I saw that there were only a few people here and away from us.

I looked at him again and gave him an awkward smile before removing the hand on his mouth.

"You do not-"

“I remember, Okay! Okay!?"

He laughed at my reaction and sat down next to me. My forehead is still furrowed and looked away, I feel like he's looking at me.

"You’re eyes are swollen, did you cry?" I shook my head in response .

"What happened?" He asked "The last time I saw you, you're drinking and miserable and now… .. you still looked miserable."

I just looked at him and gave him a fake smile, I don't know if he's really concerned or what. I didn't answer him, I played with my fingers and focused my eyes there.

"Tell me what happened."

He's stopped talking and looked at me for a minute, waiting for me to answer his question. I don't like telling someone about my problem, I don't want them to pity me. I hate it.

“No…. I just woke up today and choose drama…… that's it, You ruined it! ” After that, I laughed.

He didn't seem convinced but he stopped asking.

"If you have a problem, you can tell me."

"How?" I asked and gave him a flirty smile.

I really looked stupid, mood swings. Ayla, you are in danger!

"Where's your phone?" He asked

I took the sling bag next to me and looked for the cellphone there, then handed it to him. He opened it immediately, especially since it didn't have a password.

I just looked at him while he was typing on my cellphone, I’m frowning and watching what he was doing.

“Do you have a load?”

"Are you going to call someone?" I asked an innocent question here, he nodded so I just nodded in response.

I was shocked when suddenly a ringtone rang and I was even more surprised when he took it from his pocket and answered the call and end the call immediately. He was smiling when he handed the phone back to me.

"I already save my number to your contacts, you're welcome." He said and wink.

I just gave him an awkward smile, I didn't even think of that! Gosh!

“If you just want to get my number, you should just tell me. What a waste of a load! ” I sighed

He chuckled and he just watched me put my cellphone back in the bag. After that we became quiet, no one intended to speak anymore.

The silence was so loud!

I stood up and yawn so he looked at me, I looked at him and held out my hand to him. He reached for it and stood up as well.

"Where are we going?" He asked as we walked to the parking lot.

"At your house?" I asked and shrugged my shoulders.

He stopped walking so I stopped too, he looked at me as if he couldn't believe what I said.

“What? Are you serious? ”

"Do I look like I'm kidding?"

“You want another rou—”

"You’re rude!" I stared at him and just walked away again “I don't want to go home, my friends have family. I don't want to disturb them.

"So you decided to disturb me?"

I stopped walking and looked at him. ”Am I disturbing you?”

Of course, Ayla. You don't know him and he don’tknow you either!

“No, you can stay in my house if you want. Just don't rape me… .. Ouch! ”

I slapped his arm because he said, Me? Will rape him!? maybe he is!

“In your wet stupid dreams” I rolled my eyes that made him laugh “Come on. I'm sleepy, Hurry up!"

"Okay, just follow my car."

I didn't answer him and just followed what he said. He's my savior, actually I can sleep with my friends. But I am ashamed to their husband. I might even interfere with them making my future nephew or niece.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked when we got to his house.

"I'm full, where is the guest room?" I asked him while leaning against the counter.

"There's a guest room upstairs, next to my room."

I just nodded and said goodbye to him. He even offered to take me there but I refused, I know where his room is.

There are two rooms next to him so I was confused to where to enter, fortunately one was locked while the other was open.

I also didn't notice then that there were four rooms here on the second floor. When I opened the room I made sure it was locked and then I put my bag on the small chair near the table and lay down.

I stared in the mirror for a few more minutes until I fell asleep.