It’s hard to describe the type of relationship River and I have with each other. Sometimes I even wonder if it is possible to describe it in the first place.
We have a son together, but we’re not really considered a ‘family’. We’re parents, but we’re not in a relationship. It’s a very complicated conundrum that I hate thinking about, but once in a while, when River turns to me with that stupid gorgeous smile on his stupid gorgeous face, I can’t help but think – what if we were… more?
More in each other’s lives, not just in our son’s. More close with one another, and not just awkwardly conversing from time to time. More in love, and not just two confused adults with very confusing feelings.
I hear
The thing about second chances is that you never know you believe in it or you tell yourself that you don’t, but sometimes life happens and you find yourself debating whether or not it’s the right choice to give another chance or you’re just setting yourself up for another heartbreak. The worst part is thinking that it might even be more painful than the last and I don’t know if I’ll be able to survive that if it happens again. “I can still hear someone’s breathing!” I shouted in the middle of the woods and the wolves around me stiffened. Fifteen giant beasts surrounded me, one who wasn’t shifted, yet it was obvious that they still held a sense of fear. That was how training with me usually went. I loved the feeling of control and power amongst my peers. I walked over to the left side as I followed the sound of a constrained breathing until I reached a white and brown wolf that looked like he was going to pass out any second from now. “Cris,” I said as I looked him in the eye. I p
Titus Bane“Alpha! We’ve finished setting up the new schedule for patrols around the edge of the border.” Egan said as he ran up to follow me.It was seven in the morning and I was just finishing up my usual run. Phoenix was still pretty active and I could feel his energy running through my veins meaning I could still go for another hour, but today, I had something else to do. Something I’d been waiting for a couple of days now and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little too excited than usual.In a few hours, I would be flying off to Norway with Trinity. I didn’t think I’d be seeing her so soon, though soon was a rather vague word since it’s been almost three months since I last saw her yet it also felt like a lifetime since then
Christmas is just as, or even more, grand in the White Castle as it was before. Decorations ranging from Christmas lights hung and lit up, a wreath on all doors, stockings of different colors and names, mini trees per room, poinsettias in full bloom, candles, mistletoes, nutcrackers, you name it. The White Castle looked like Santa had thrown up all over it. Safe to say, Neo was absolutely ecstatic. Back in Arizona, we celebrated Christmas, too, but definitely not as extravagant as this. We just had a small Christmas tree and a few gifts. So to him, this was a magical experience. I think another reason for his over the moon excitement was also the fact that his best friend, Trinity, was arriving soon. “Knock, knock.” I let my presence known before opening the door to Neo’s room. “Oh, wow.” I said, surprised, as I stared at the colorful banner which had ‘Welcome, Trinity’ written on it with crayons. Zane and Skye were holding it on each side as Neo looked at it and gave them ord
“Get him! Get him!” The usually tamed and serious training grounds have wolves screaming left and right with unrestrained cheers.“Ahhhh!” Another wild uproar of frustrated and entertained screams. “Holy shit,” someone behind me half whispered half shouted like he’s never seen anything so unbelievable yet so hard to look away from. Which is, to be fair, pretty much true, because right in front of us are two Alphas fighting like there’s no tomorrow, fighting like whoever gets out of this battle ground gets bragging rights forever, fighting like there was no way in hell their male egos would let them lose. Titus managed to bite the right side of River’s neck, making River let out a loud whimper, but he quickly regained his composure and with a lot of force, rams Titus on a huge tree trunk. “Shit!” The White Howlers–and me–are on the edge of our seats. I want to put an end to this, but at the same time, I want to see who will win. Is that bad? I mean, it’s not like I told them to f
Everything about this morning is peaceful yet also filled with energy. Everyone was by the frozen lake at seven in the morning, just after the morning run, and were all admiring the scenic view. Aside from Neo and Tri who were already frolicking on the ice as River and Titus watched carefully like the protective dad and older brother they were. The snow is white and clean, the lake is dazzling under the sun, and the weather was not too cold. That is, compared to the usual, but for Tri and Titus there wasn’t much of a difference as they still wore more layers. “Hear me out,” Skye says as he turns to me with a smirk. Sometimes I have this millisecond in my head where I blink and instead of seeing the eighteen year old Skye, it’s the little boy that I used to bake cookies with. White hair, blue eyes, and a bunny tooth smile. Now he’s taller, broader, and has a lot more hair on his brows and head, that were obviously black as black could be, making his light blue eyes pop from his
“So… How have you been doing? Titus asked, his eyes focused on me and only me, and I felt like I was getting sucked into them as each second passed. “Have they been treating you okay?” He added and somehow I could tell he was ready to release Hell on Earth depending on what I was going to say.It was two in the afternoon in the castle; specifically in Neo’s bedroom. After an eventful morning of playing around the frozen lake with snow arts and fights, we all had a big breakfast, walked around the territory a little as Neo toured Tri and I with Titus–while River stayed very close–and after eating risengrynsgrøt (hot rice pudding served with sugar, cinnamon, and butter) which is a traditional meal for ‘Little Christmas Eve’ around here, Neo and Tri were completely dog-tired and they were knocked out in the tree house in l
Titus Bane This can’t be happening. This can’t be fucking happening! Not her, not my little sister, the only family I have left. Fuck. Fuck, I can’t control my anger and my confusion. Just a few hours ago we were having the best time of our lives together. Trinity had never experienced so much snow and such a beautiful winter and even if she was slightly cold, this didn’t stop her from having fun. This didn’t stop her from creating memories with Neo and everyone. Now… Now she was lying down on the bed, her body shaking uncontrollably and white foam forming in her mouth. I was stunned. I didn’t know what to do. My body was frozen still and everything around me was spinning.
River Colden“I swear to the goddess, you better have a damn good reason as to why you’re dragging me all the way to the border or else I’m kicking your ass, Ass-pen.” I threatened my Gamma who was walking in front of me, leading me to the area he said I had to see.“Oh it’s valid alright. It’s as valid as a five foot seven silver-haired woman.” He said in a tone and with an expression like he knew something I didn’t and I hated whenever that was the case.Though I hated it even more knowing that the longer I was here outside, the longer Keira was inside with Titus completely alone. It wasn’t that I had anything against the man–he did
(This chapter includes sexual elements. Reader discretion is advised.) – Titus Bane – Everything is calm. So calm that it feels rather weird after everything that has happened. Chaos and destruction is all I have ever known for the most part, but now that I’m settled down at my place in my Pack, just watching the once green leaves now a mix of orange, yellow, and other Autumn colors sway with the wind, everything feels…peaceful. I closed my eyes and took a deep inhale, the smell of nature filled my senses and it invigorates me. An image of her pops up in my head almost like second nature to me. She is beautiful. The most beautiful woman to ever exist on this earth, and that’s saying a lot because this earth could be ugly and cruel, but not her, not my mate. Sometimes I still wonder what I had done in my past life to deserve someone as perfect as her, and I stop and think if this is just a dream, if everything in my life is just my imagination, and if it was, I hope to never wake
I was seated by the tree, the exact one Syvne and Roman found me and saved me from. I was just there in silence as I held on to the pure golden necklace that had the Japanese words ‘狼霊気’ meaning Healing Wolves formed on it. This was the keepsake Sho Chiaki, the guy from Titus’ Pack that knew about my family, gave to me. He said everyone in my Pack had it and when he found out his parents had kept it all those years ago, he knew he had to give it to me. As I sat there, thinking about them, it all still felt surreal, but at the same time, I also felt calm and at peace knowing about who they are and what they did for me on that night. I could have lived a life never knowing about their existence and a part of me would have always had an empty spot, but because I met Titus and in turn Sho, I was given the opportunity to learn about them and I will always be thankful for that. And though my heart pains for what happened to them and how they didn’t deserve that, I will live my life to
“Tri, can we please watch something else besides Frozen 1 and 2?” Neo, my little boy who was now six years old, turned to his best friend and gave her a pleading pout. Trinity giggled as I brushed her long red hair from behind. She was seated on my lap while Neo changed position every ten minutes as he got bored of the never-ending girly Disney movies we watched. In one year, gone are the days that he was completely absorbed with watching any Disney movie. I can’t believe how much he’s grown, but I will never get tired of seeing the changes that happen to him, physically and emotionally. I smiled at the boy whose raven hair was starting to get lighter. The streaks of silver on his hair are mixing in and it’s probably because of the fact that he’s been living in the winter season day in and day out for the past year. His complexion is lighter and his cheeks are as pink as a rose petal that I can’t help but stop and stare at him for a while because everyday, it’s like he looks more a
River Colden The sun was starting to set and before we knew it, there would be little to no light and finding Keira under this lake would be close to impossible. Not that it wasn’t already, and fuck, I hate myself for thinking that way. I wanted to stay positive, but it was so goddamn hard when we’ve been out here frantically looking for any signs of her. I didn’t know how much I would loathe frozen lakes until today. “I don’t see her, River! I don’t see her!” I heard my brother’s desperate cries as he was on his knees, pushing away the snow that had covered most of the lake. Titus was doing the same, but he hasn’t said a single word since Ivy pointed out where Keira was. He was the first one to drop down to his knees and start searching. Until now, even while it was happening, I still couldn’t believe that it was true, that Ivy could do something so… so fucked up as to
Titus Bane I stepped outside and walked and walked until I felt like I was far enough. My heart was beating a mile a minute and it felt like it was going to explode any second now. Seeing Keira and River in that position, so close to each other, and it being embedded in my brain like a curse just threw me into a spiral. To make things worse, River wants to have Keira as his mate and Luna. How could I have been so stupid? How could I have been so blind? It was right in front of me this whole time. Hell, it’s not like they even tried to hide it. River may have broken Keira’s heart many years ago, but Keira had been in love with him for far more. He may have done all that shit to her, but at the end of the day, they had the past. River was everything to Keira, and it’s not like it couldn’t happen again. Then there was me. The man she just met a few months ago. I may be her m
I was at a complete loss for words.Here was the man that I had been in love with since before I even knew what love meant. The man that I grew up with, that I talked to for Goddess knows how long, and the one person I knew deep in my heart I wanted to end up with.He was confessing his devotion to me, telling me that from here on out, I could have everything I have ever dreamed of. Everything until that day five years ago.The old Keira then would drop everything to accept his offer. The Keira that had always been head over heels for Alpha River Colden.But the Keira now is different. I may choose to be a White Howler again, but I’m not choosing to be
River Colden“I swear to the goddess, you better have a damn good reason as to why you’re dragging me all the way to the border or else I’m kicking your ass, Ass-pen.” I threatened my Gamma who was walking in front of me, leading me to the area he said I had to see.“Oh it’s valid alright. It’s as valid as a five foot seven silver-haired woman.” He said in a tone and with an expression like he knew something I didn’t and I hated whenever that was the case.Though I hated it even more knowing that the longer I was here outside, the longer Keira was inside with Titus completely alone. It wasn’t that I had anything against the man–he did
Titus Bane This can’t be happening. This can’t be fucking happening! Not her, not my little sister, the only family I have left. Fuck. Fuck, I can’t control my anger and my confusion. Just a few hours ago we were having the best time of our lives together. Trinity had never experienced so much snow and such a beautiful winter and even if she was slightly cold, this didn’t stop her from having fun. This didn’t stop her from creating memories with Neo and everyone. Now… Now she was lying down on the bed, her body shaking uncontrollably and white foam forming in her mouth. I was stunned. I didn’t know what to do. My body was frozen still and everything around me was spinning.
“So… How have you been doing? Titus asked, his eyes focused on me and only me, and I felt like I was getting sucked into them as each second passed. “Have they been treating you okay?” He added and somehow I could tell he was ready to release Hell on Earth depending on what I was going to say.It was two in the afternoon in the castle; specifically in Neo’s bedroom. After an eventful morning of playing around the frozen lake with snow arts and fights, we all had a big breakfast, walked around the territory a little as Neo toured Tri and I with Titus–while River stayed very close–and after eating risengrynsgrøt (hot rice pudding served with sugar, cinnamon, and butter) which is a traditional meal for ‘Little Christmas Eve’ around here, Neo and Tri were completely dog-tired and they were knocked out in the tree house in l