REGAINING MY FAITH

MARILYN'S POV

I sat on the bed lost in thought with the duvet wrapped around me taking deep breaths..

The issue had really gotten too far.

Extremely too far and it seems I have no say in it anymore.

I....i....I can't believe I am thinking and saying this but.....damn....I love him .

He is so good......

So freaking good....!!!!!

Shit!!?

But yet, it's still not right.

This is my mom's husband we are talking about here.....

I.... shouldn't be doing this?!!!

But at the same time, I freaking wanted more of him again and again..

Aaargh!!

I am so stupid.

What the hell am I thinking?

I sighed deeply and ran my fingers through my hair.

How the hell am going to do this?

How am I ever going resist that seductive devil.

The seductive devil that never failed to catch me right at my moments of weakness.

What the hell happened to my faith?

What the hell happened to my believe of keeping myself till it's the right time to get laid and that is when I am married?

Aaargh!!!!!

I seriously have to