Chapter 34 “Are you happy now?” I asked. I was holding back my emotions. I wanted to hear directly from him what he actually thinks. Lucan stiffened at my question. I know he knew what I meant. “Yes.” I looked at him, my face creased. My heart was breaking into a million pieces. “Cause now I know that you are being true.” “After all…” I paused, having difficulty to continue. “After all this time… you never really trusted me.” “You know who you are.” His soft voice suddenly became firm as words that were honest yet painful flew out of his mouth.. “From the start, I was transparent with my intentions. Just because I treated you like my mate, doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten.” Lucan reached his hand to my face. I felt the warmth of his palm pressed against my cheek as he wiped the fallen tears with his thumb. “Eat. You need to gain your strength.” He then stood, towering over me. His shadow engulfed my small form. “When I come back, I expect you to finish everything.” I heard him turn
NasrinAfter being cooped up in my room for days, I finally decided to come out. I guess I realized that no matter how much I cry my heart out and ostracize myself from the world, Sky will still remain dead. She will never come back. I will only harm myself if I continue to wallow myself in pity . My dream of living a life not walking on thin ice was coming true. How could I give it up?I was still hurt by what Lucan did. I didn’t want to face him. It only reminds me of the extent of his cruelty. I trusted him and yet he didn’t trust me the same way I feel about him. What hurts even more was that I couldn’t think to blame him. Before this mate thing, he despised me for my blood that ran through my veins. What we had is not enough for him to back out on his plans to give justice to the death of his family.With the recent events, I don’t know what will happen to me. I doubt they’ll let me leave this place. I was a walking danger. I don’t know when my shift will take place. I was also t
"Leave.""Rin…" I didn't miss the concern in Rose's voice. She was sitting at the edge of my bed as she tried her best to comfort me. However I didn't want her to comfort me. I want to be left alone. I curled up on the bed and faced away from her so she could get the hint.I felt bitter and empty. Her presence didn't help calm me down like it used to before knowing she will report to her Alpha anyway. Her intentions were pure and sincere but I knew at the end of the day, she will always report to him. I hate him. I truly hate him."I'm here if you ever need me.""Please…" I continued to sob. "I only wish to be left alone."Her eyes were on me for a while before she withdrew her hand that had touched my arm as a means to comfort me. I couldn’t deny its warmth even if I was being stubborn. She released a deep sigh and then got up."Call me if you need anything, dear. I will always be here for you." Rose then quietly left the room.I cried for the rest of the day. And I thought I ran ou
NasrinI kept walking and walking mindlessly. The voice pulled me towards her. It made me forget everything and just focused on it. All of a sudden, I woke up from the daze. I realized that I was already near the cliff, a huge full moon shining brightly in the night sky right in front of me. I looked around and I was shocked that I had come this far. I noticed that I wasn’t wearing any shoes or slippers. I had walked here barefoot and yet despite the distance, my feet didn’t hurt.“Nasrin.” The same voice pulled me out of my thoughts, a shadow covered my form.I looked up and was shocked to see a massive white wolf with glowing blue eyes looking straight at me. I was in awe of the wolf's majestic form. She looks so beautiful and ethereal.She… Somehow I know she’s a female and despite still being a beast, I’m not afraid of her. I stared at her, unable to speak, too stunned by her beauty.“What’s your name?” I asked as I reached my hand to touch her. I remembered that everyone's wolve
Chapter 38NasrinAs soon as I came crashing into the water, a huge blinding white light suddenly engulfed me. I closed my eyes at the intensity. I don’t know how long it had been but when I came to, I was already at the shore. The waterfall was right in front of me.I felt that there was something different about me. I see my surroundings differently… more sharply. I feel powerful and stronger. I looked down and saw that instead of my legs, it was furry paws. I had shifted.I was shocked because I thought if I was going to finally shift, I’d be going through that excruciating pain again. The part where my bones would break countless times was the worst. Although the preparation for my shifting helped me, I was terrified of the actual shifting part.I don't know what just happened that I’m suddenly magically shifted into my wolf form with no effort… except that jump. And then it clicked why I suddenly have the urge to do that.The moon goddess must be real…I held the thought when I n
I shouldn’t be surprised that the house was practically in the same state before and after I left. It goes to show that they never went home. My luggage was in the same place right where I left it, beside the couch. Good, I don’t have to pack again. “Rin…” I tensed. I almost forgot that he came with me. “You’re leaving, aren’t you?” My back was facing him and I didn't have the stomach to turn around and face him.After all, Caleb had become a part of my life that I could never forget. I’m still reasonable enough to know that he truly never wanted to harm me. And going after me to help me escape was an act of betrayal towards his Alpha. It must have been difficult for him to choose me over him.That was something I managed to think through as we ran for miles and miles. The run had calmed me down too. And though I’m still mad and hurt, his sincerity softened me.“I know… I know that… I’ve hurt you. I don’t have any excuses for that. I could have put an effort to call out our Alpha’s
LucanI had never expected my Delta to betray me. My own pack member. I should’ve known. He was close to her to the point it irked me to the core. I burned watching them so close together. They were building a relationship I would crush in the palm of my hand.I guess it was the reason why I specifically chose him to escort her to the border knowing he’ll never disobey my command. I don’t get why he’d rather betray his Alpha. Does he love her? Cause I will fucking kill this fucker if he does.“Lucan, that’s enough!” Alina appeared before us.I was too outraged to listen to her. I knew no wolf could stop me from beating my Delta to death. They all fear my wrath. Alina was probably the only one who had the guts to stop me. She is no wolf and therefore, isn’t easily affected by an Alpha command.“Lucan, stop! If you kill him, do you think your mate will ever forgive you?!” My fist stopped midair as the realization dawned on me. I glared at Alina who had managed to stop me by mentioning
NasrinFour months later“Clove!” I gleefully waved my hand in the air so she could see me amongst the crowd.Clover’s face brightened as soon as she saw me. She ran towards me amidst the busy crowd in the hallways of our university. “Rin!” She engulfed me with a hug while wearing an ear splitting grin on her face. “You just know when to appear, don’t you?” She released a content sigh. I laugh knowing she was already expecting the food I made in my cooking class. I always brought some for her. She usually shares it with Gab but most of the time not. She made it obvious that she was my number one fan.I go to culinary classes whenever I have the time. I decided to leave Literature and proceed to business instead. Mythical creatures and the novels I read were one of the reasons why I wanted to take Literature. But the memories it carried brought me pain and misery. Business was more reasonable. My family was filthy rich, I found out in their accounts. It’s only fair that I know how to
“One day, Alina noticed it. She noticed that those thoughts had been gnawing at me. She then explained to me that Lucan was never meant to be with his fated.”I frowned. I was shocked at this revelation. What was the moon goddess thinking of pairing the Alpha to a traitor but then turned out they were never meant to be?“How is that possible? The goddess pairs her children for a reason.”Rin shrugs in response. “Believe me, I had asked the same question. She told me that I was different. The two of us created a bond etched into our very souls. She said that the moon goddess somehow favored me.”My frown deepened as I tried to process this. “I don’t think that answers the question. Does that mean Alpha Lucan was never meant to be with his mate from the start? If you had not come into his life, would he have remained mateless.” I said, piecing everything together.Rin looked at me, her eyes reflecting a myriad of emotions, but she offered no response. The silence hung heavy between us.
“How is that possible, Alina?” Rin voiced out, curling her hand tighter around her mate’s arm.Alina stole a glance at me and then back at the couple before us. “Anything is possible, my Luna.” Alina calmly answered. “And though I like to answer that question according to what you seek, I always do not have an answer to everything. For that, I am sorry.”After that fiasco in the Alpha's office, Lady Alina could have teleported back to her cottage. Surprisingly, she took my offer in escorting her back to her home.Alpha Lucan was still angry and dejected about it and Rin was still consoling him. I don’t know if she just accepted what happened or that the Alpha’s intense emotions overwhelmed her.“Tell me, Lady Alina. Do you really not know why I was mated to their daughter?”I made sure that we were further away from the pack and nearing her cottage before I asked that question. I didn’t want to risk anyone hearing it.“Of course, I know, Delta. I just didn’t want to let them know the
CalebThe Alpha’s daughter is my mate.Yes, that’s right. Nasrin’s daughter– my friend’s daughter. I don’t know why the moon goddess did this to me– why she made my friend’s daughter my mate. For goddess' sake, she’s like a daughter to me.I remember the first time our eyes met when I held her. There was a strange connection that I couldn't get at first. Eventually, I realized the connection was actually a bond– a mate bond.My emotions were a rollercoaster when I realized what it meant. I didn’t know how it was possible that I could feel it on a pup. A fucking baby!I didn’t know if I should be happy that I finally found my mate. Fate was fucking cruel. After that encounter, I was conflicted. I didn’t know what to do. I envisioned the future here in this pack as she grows older. I can imagine myself suffering, watching her grow into a beautiful fine lady. I could only watch her from afar and fight the matebond. Fighting is the only thing that I could possibly do. What would they t
It had been a few months after the successful celebration and the introduction of the twins to the pack with Apollo as the future Alpha of the pack. There was dancing, singing and a huge bonfire for the crowd. The flow of the drinks and food were never ending. And to my surprise, Lucan invited the Alphas who had been loyal to him ever since. That included my sister's mate. I was so happy she and her mate were able to attend the party. It’s not like he had a choice on the matter. The Alphas really made their presence known. As Lucan would say, they were always breathing down his neck. Either way, Lucan really made sure to spare no expense on the party. “Fucking finally.” Lucan growled lowly, relieving a sigh as he watched me put down our son beside his already sleeping sister. I glared at him. “How long have you been standing there?” I didn’t notice him standing in the doorway of the twins’ bedroom until he spoke. He shrugs, “I was waiting for them to finally fall asleep.” He str
A few days later, Lucan finally allowed my friends to visit me and the twins. My room was chaotic. They brought food, flowers and gifts for me. The room was filled with our chatter and laughter. I was surprised that the twins didn't mind being passed around like they were dolls. Rose scolded them a couple times for doing that but I understand that they couldn't help it. It wasn't only them that felt excited about their birth, it was the whole Blood Moon that celebrated. Lucan still didn't allow them to see our son and daughter. He wanted me to completely rest first. Rose already planned for the party once Lucan is convinced I'm fine. It was evening and everyone had already returned to their work. I heard a knock on my door. I expected it to be Rose bringing my dinner. I was surprised that it was Caleb that brought it for me. "I thought for sure you wouldn't visit me, Caleb," I teased. He laughs, placing my dinner on the side of my bed. "I was busy with work. I couldn't join the o
“Because I was ashamed." Tears fell from her eyes as she confessed. "I didn't know how to face you so I begged Alpha Lucan not to let you know. I'm sorry, Rin. I'm sorry for being so selfish.""No, no. You don't have to be ashamed. You saved me. You risked your life for me. Why do you feel ashamed?" I cried."Come on, Rin. I could have saved you countless times when they tried to torment you. You were sick and alone and no one to lean on. I just stood by and watched. I was no better than them. I don't even deserve to be here with you but my mate convinced me to face the only family I have left.""Then it's good that you listened to him. You have no idea how hurt I am when I learned about your death. I cherished you so much, Sky. You might have not helped me back then but you always never fail to let me feel that you're there for me. And I appreciate it so so much. That's why when I thought you died, it felt like there's a hole in my chest." I wiped the tears and snot from my face. I p
NasrinThe whole packhouse was in chaos when they heard my water broke and finally in my labor. Everyone was either excited or panicked– like my wayward Alpha for example. He was a mess. If I wasn’t the one who was in labor, I would’ve laughed at him.He didn’t look like the calm arrogant Alpha. He was anxious, fidgety and a whole lot of nervous.“I’ll be fine.” I squeezed his hand in assurance. I was trying to look fine even though I winced at the pain once in a while. He didn’t buy my words. He was extremely worried. He had called Alina to make sure everything was going to be fine. I didn’t object, especially knowing that my twins are not normal Alphas. She had told me that the delivery will be fine as long as I take care of myself while carrying the twins. And I did. Lucan made sure I did, too. I was always his priority the whole time. He was willing to leave his work for me. That’s why I was confident that I’d deliver the twins safely. “I’ll stop worrying when the pups are out a
We held our meeting in my office. He only updated me on the current events of the company right now. As usual, it was doing great and only had minor problems.Nasrin was with me during the meeting. She was sitting on the couch where we made the twins. When she learned that she's pregnant, the image of us on the couch made her extremely embarrassed every time she sat there. She always remembers it, especially that there was growing evidence on her belly. Aside from being able to watch over her there, I also wanted her to know the ins and outs of the pack, including the company that I let Roman run. Surprisingly, Nasrin was doing great being the Luna of Blood Moon. She was level headed and intelligent. She easily understood everything going on in the pack. She's relaxed and catches on real quick. And I love that she's cool and not quick to anger. It was so opposite of me.As much as I want to say it's because I'm an Alpha, I knew it was just my personality. It became worse when I lost
“You look like you're about to pop.” Caleb commented on Nasrin teasingly as I watched both of them interact in the living room of our packhouse. Ever since Nasrin and I got back together, I didn’t find the need to be jealous of my Delta’s care for my mate. It took a while for me to finally let go of that feeling but I understood that he just cares for her as a close friend. Although I can’t help but feel jealous at times. Nasrin is kind to everyone and she treats them equally with care and compassion. It’s probably one of the reasons why I find her so endearing. She chuckles at his comment. “I know. I look like I’m more than nine months pregnant. Alina said it’s because of the twins. They really tire me out.” She sighs heavily, leaning her head on the backrest of the couch. My heart aches for her. I wanted her pregnancy to be planned. She was in her early twenties. I wanted her to have time for herself. She has a lot to learn in this pack, as a wolf and as a Luna. Also, I wanted