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36. Guilt
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An Alpha's Bite 37. Safa
NasrinI kept walking and walking mindlessly. The voice pulled me towards her. It made me forget everything and just focused on it. All of a sudden, I woke up from the daze. I realized that I was already near the cliff, a huge full moon shining brightly in the night sky right in front of me. I looked around and I was shocked that I had come this far. I noticed that I wasn’t wearing any shoes or slippers. I had walked here barefoot and yet despite the distance, my feet didn’t hurt.“Nasrin.” The same voice pulled me out of my thoughts, a shadow covered my form.I looked up and was shocked to see a massive white wolf with glowing blue eyes looking straight at me. I was in awe of the wolf's majestic form. She looks so beautiful and ethereal.She… Somehow I know she’s a female and despite still being a beast, I’m not afraid of her. I stared at her, unable to speak, too stunned by her beauty.“What’s your name?” I asked as I reached my hand to touch her. I remembered that everyone's wolve
An Alpha's Bite 38. White Wolf
Chapter 38NasrinAs soon as I came crashing into the water, a huge blinding white light suddenly engulfed me. I closed my eyes at the intensity. I don’t know how long it had been but when I came to, I was already at the shore. The waterfall was right in front of me.I felt that there was something different about me. I see my surroundings differently… more sharply. I feel powerful and stronger. I looked down and saw that instead of my legs, it was furry paws. I had shifted.I was shocked because I thought if I was going to finally shift, I’d be going through that excruciating pain again. The part where my bones would break countless times was the worst. Although the preparation for my shifting helped me, I was terrified of the actual shifting part.I don't know what just happened that I’m suddenly magically shifted into my wolf form with no effort… except that jump. And then it clicked why I suddenly have the urge to do that.The moon goddess must be real…I held the thought when I n
An Alpha's Bite 39. Goodbye
I shouldn’t be surprised that the house was practically in the same state before and after I left. It goes to show that they never went home. My luggage was in the same place right where I left it, beside the couch. Good, I don’t have to pack again. “Rin…” I tensed. I almost forgot that he came with me. “You’re leaving, aren’t you?” My back was facing him and I didn't have the stomach to turn around and face him.After all, Caleb had become a part of my life that I could never forget. I’m still reasonable enough to know that he truly never wanted to harm me. And going after me to help me escape was an act of betrayal towards his Alpha. It must have been difficult for him to choose me over him.That was something I managed to think through as we ran for miles and miles. The run had calmed me down too. And though I’m still mad and hurt, his sincerity softened me.“I know… I know that… I’ve hurt you. I don’t have any excuses for that. I could have put an effort to call out our Alpha’s
An Alpha's Bite 40. Justice is Served
LucanI had never expected my Delta to betray me. My own pack member. I should’ve known. He was close to her to the point it irked me to the core. I burned watching them so close together. They were building a relationship I would crush in the palm of my hand.I guess it was the reason why I specifically chose him to escort her to the border knowing he’ll never disobey my command. I don’t get why he’d rather betray his Alpha. Does he love her? Cause I will fucking kill this fucker if he does.“Lucan, that’s enough!” Alina appeared before us.I was too outraged to listen to her. I knew no wolf could stop me from beating my Delta to death. They all fear my wrath. Alina was probably the only one who had the guts to stop me. She is no wolf and therefore, isn’t easily affected by an Alpha command.“Lucan, stop! If you kill him, do you think your mate will ever forgive you?!” My fist stopped midair as the realization dawned on me. I glared at Alina who had managed to stop me by mentioning
An Alpha's Bite 41. Bone Deep, Soul Wrenching
NasrinFour months later“Clove!” I gleefully waved my hand in the air so she could see me amongst the crowd.Clover’s face brightened as soon as she saw me. She ran towards me amidst the busy crowd in the hallways of our university. “Rin!” She engulfed me with a hug while wearing an ear splitting grin on her face. “You just know when to appear, don’t you?” She released a content sigh. I laugh knowing she was already expecting the food I made in my cooking class. I always brought some for her. She usually shares it with Gab but most of the time not. She made it obvious that she was my number one fan.I go to culinary classes whenever I have the time. I decided to leave Literature and proceed to business instead. Mythical creatures and the novels I read were one of the reasons why I wanted to take Literature. But the memories it carried brought me pain and misery. Business was more reasonable. My family was filthy rich, I found out in their accounts. It’s only fair that I know how to
An Alpha's Bite 42. Congratulations
Two years laterNasrin“Congratulations, graduates!”On cue, we tossed our cap in the air as we all cheered. Clover, Gab and I were searching for each other when we finished congratulating our seatmates and friends. As soon as all met, we hugged and squealed in excitement.“Finally!” Gabrielle sighed. “God I can finally sleep.” We laughed at her antics. It had been sleepless nights for us just so we could finalize every project and assignment before getting to the finish line which is here, our graduation day. I think we were more excited to finish everything and just chill than the graduation itself. It was stressful after all but it was worth it. “Do you wanna join us?” Clover asked me. “My parents and siblings are here to celebrate with me. They’d be happy to have you join us.”I smiled at her. “Thank you, Clove, but I’m fine.” They both eyed me with a concerned look. I know they’re worried that I’ll be celebrating alone. “My friend’s here to celebrate with me.”They both raised a
An Alpha's Bite 43. A Painful Farewell
“Do you always come here?” Caleb asked as we made our way through the crowd. There were people partying, dancing, getting wasted, others not minding other people’s business and just came here probably to just drink and have a good time.“Not really. Parties aren’t exactly my thing. You know that. I couldn’t actually keep up with this.” I said. Our voices were neutral as if there wasn’t music blasting all over the club. With our hearing, we could hear each other even if we whispered.“Right.” He responded dryly.“You don’t approve?” I asked teasingly. We still haven’t found my friends.“You know my take on this. Humans are bound to commit a sin in this place.” I laugh at him. He sounded like a prude old man.“Relax. It’s not why we came here anyway. If Gab and Clove wanted that, it’s their choice.” I shrug. “I just want to have fun with them before we go our separate ways.”“Sorry, Rin. I didn’t want to ruin your night this early.” His apology was sincere.“I know.” I grin. “I actually
An Alpha's Bite 44. Decision
It was late in the evening when we were traveling towards Blood Moon. It would be a few hours drive from my old house. I decided to stop by there and check the place. Fortunately, it looked exactly the same after I left years ago. I still haven't decided if I want to sell the house despite the painful memories living there.As we were nearing the border of the pack, I was also getting cold feet. I have thought about this for two years and when I was finally on our way, I suddenly didn’t know if I could do this.I knew our relationship was unconventional. It started from hatred, revenge, schemes to growing feelings for each other. I hated him for what he did, for using me when I thought that our feelings were mutual. Perhaps at first, I understood where he was coming from. His actions may be justified. I knew why he wanted to hurt me. But things changed as our times together progressed. I guess it’s the reason why what he did was so painful. Even though I knew the reason he did what h
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An Alpha's Bite 59. Her Blessing
“One day, Alina noticed it. She noticed that those thoughts had been gnawing at me. She then explained to me that Lucan was never meant to be with his fated.”I frowned. I was shocked at this revelation. What was the moon goddess thinking of pairing the Alpha to a traitor but then turned out they were never meant to be?“How is that possible? The goddess pairs her children for a reason.”Rin shrugs in response. “Believe me, I had asked the same question. She told me that I was different. The two of us created a bond etched into our very souls. She said that the moon goddess somehow favored me.”My frown deepened as I tried to process this. “I don’t think that answers the question. Does that mean Alpha Lucan was never meant to be with his mate from the start? If you had not come into his life, would he have remained mateless.” I said, piecing everything together.Rin looked at me, her eyes reflecting a myriad of emotions, but she offered no response. The silence hung heavy between us.
An Alpha's Bite 58. Let's Talk
“How is that possible, Alina?” Rin voiced out, curling her hand tighter around her mate’s arm.Alina stole a glance at me and then back at the couple before us. “Anything is possible, my Luna.” Alina calmly answered. “And though I like to answer that question according to what you seek, I always do not have an answer to everything. For that, I am sorry.”After that fiasco in the Alpha's office, Lady Alina could have teleported back to her cottage. Surprisingly, she took my offer in escorting her back to her home.Alpha Lucan was still angry and dejected about it and Rin was still consoling him. I don’t know if she just accepted what happened or that the Alpha’s intense emotions overwhelmed her.“Tell me, Lady Alina. Do you really not know why I was mated to their daughter?”I made sure that we were further away from the pack and nearing her cottage before I asked that question. I didn’t want to risk anyone hearing it.“Of course, I know, Delta. I just didn’t want to let them know the
An Alpha's Bite 57. His Rage
CalebThe Alpha’s daughter is my mate.Yes, that’s right. Nasrin’s daughter– my friend’s daughter. I don’t know why the moon goddess did this to me– why she made my friend’s daughter my mate. For goddess' sake, she’s like a daughter to me.I remember the first time our eyes met when I held her. There was a strange connection that I couldn't get at first. Eventually, I realized the connection was actually a bond– a mate bond.My emotions were a rollercoaster when I realized what it meant. I didn’t know how it was possible that I could feel it on a pup. A fucking baby!I didn’t know if I should be happy that I finally found my mate. Fate was fucking cruel. After that encounter, I was conflicted. I didn’t know what to do. I envisioned the future here in this pack as she grows older. I can imagine myself suffering, watching her grow into a beautiful fine lady. I could only watch her from afar and fight the matebond. Fighting is the only thing that I could possibly do. What would they t
An Alpha's Bite 56. His Conflict
It had been a few months after the successful celebration and the introduction of the twins to the pack with Apollo as the future Alpha of the pack. There was dancing, singing and a huge bonfire for the crowd. The flow of the drinks and food were never ending. And to my surprise, Lucan invited the Alphas who had been loyal to him ever since. That included my sister's mate. I was so happy she and her mate were able to attend the party. It’s not like he had a choice on the matter. The Alphas really made their presence known. As Lucan would say, they were always breathing down his neck. Either way, Lucan really made sure to spare no expense on the party. “Fucking finally.” Lucan growled lowly, relieving a sigh as he watched me put down our son beside his already sleeping sister. I glared at him. “How long have you been standing there?” I didn’t notice him standing in the doorway of the twins’ bedroom until he spoke. He shrugs, “I was waiting for them to finally fall asleep.” He str
An Alpha's Bite 55. Our Promise
A few days later, Lucan finally allowed my friends to visit me and the twins. My room was chaotic. They brought food, flowers and gifts for me. The room was filled with our chatter and laughter. I was surprised that the twins didn't mind being passed around like they were dolls. Rose scolded them a couple times for doing that but I understand that they couldn't help it. It wasn't only them that felt excited about their birth, it was the whole Blood Moon that celebrated. Lucan still didn't allow them to see our son and daughter. He wanted me to completely rest first. Rose already planned for the party once Lucan is convinced I'm fine. It was evening and everyone had already returned to their work. I heard a knock on my door. I expected it to be Rose bringing my dinner. I was surprised that it was Caleb that brought it for me. "I thought for sure you wouldn't visit me, Caleb," I teased. He laughs, placing my dinner on the side of my bed. "I was busy with work. I couldn't join the o
An Alpha's Bite 54. Sisters
“Because I was ashamed." Tears fell from her eyes as she confessed. "I didn't know how to face you so I begged Alpha Lucan not to let you know. I'm sorry, Rin. I'm sorry for being so selfish.""No, no. You don't have to be ashamed. You saved me. You risked your life for me. Why do you feel ashamed?" I cried."Come on, Rin. I could have saved you countless times when they tried to torment you. You were sick and alone and no one to lean on. I just stood by and watched. I was no better than them. I don't even deserve to be here with you but my mate convinced me to face the only family I have left.""Then it's good that you listened to him. You have no idea how hurt I am when I learned about your death. I cherished you so much, Sky. You might have not helped me back then but you always never fail to let me feel that you're there for me. And I appreciate it so so much. That's why when I thought you died, it felt like there's a hole in my chest." I wiped the tears and snot from my face. I p
An Alpha's Bite 53. Blood Moon Heirs
NasrinThe whole packhouse was in chaos when they heard my water broke and finally in my labor. Everyone was either excited or panicked– like my wayward Alpha for example. He was a mess. If I wasn’t the one who was in labor, I would’ve laughed at him.He didn’t look like the calm arrogant Alpha. He was anxious, fidgety and a whole lot of nervous.“I’ll be fine.” I squeezed his hand in assurance. I was trying to look fine even though I winced at the pain once in a while. He didn’t buy my words. He was extremely worried. He had called Alina to make sure everything was going to be fine. I didn’t object, especially knowing that my twins are not normal Alphas. She had told me that the delivery will be fine as long as I take care of myself while carrying the twins. And I did. Lucan made sure I did, too. I was always his priority the whole time. He was willing to leave his work for me. That’s why I was confident that I’d deliver the twins safely. “I’ll stop worrying when the pups are out a
An Alpha's Bite 52. King and Queen
We held our meeting in my office. He only updated me on the current events of the company right now. As usual, it was doing great and only had minor problems.Nasrin was with me during the meeting. She was sitting on the couch where we made the twins. When she learned that she's pregnant, the image of us on the couch made her extremely embarrassed every time she sat there. She always remembers it, especially that there was growing evidence on her belly. Aside from being able to watch over her there, I also wanted her to know the ins and outs of the pack, including the company that I let Roman run. Surprisingly, Nasrin was doing great being the Luna of Blood Moon. She was level headed and intelligent. She easily understood everything going on in the pack. She's relaxed and catches on real quick. And I love that she's cool and not quick to anger. It was so opposite of me.As much as I want to say it's because I'm an Alpha, I knew it was just my personality. It became worse when I lost
An Alpha's Bite 51. Apology
“You look like you're about to pop.” Caleb commented on Nasrin teasingly as I watched both of them interact in the living room of our packhouse. Ever since Nasrin and I got back together, I didn’t find the need to be jealous of my Delta’s care for my mate. It took a while for me to finally let go of that feeling but I understood that he just cares for her as a close friend. Although I can’t help but feel jealous at times. Nasrin is kind to everyone and she treats them equally with care and compassion. It’s probably one of the reasons why I find her so endearing. She chuckles at his comment. “I know. I look like I’m more than nine months pregnant. Alina said it’s because of the twins. They really tire me out.” She sighs heavily, leaning her head on the backrest of the couch. My heart aches for her. I wanted her pregnancy to be planned. She was in her early twenties. I wanted her to have time for herself. She has a lot to learn in this pack, as a wolf and as a Luna. Also, I wanted
