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Focusing on the wrong thing
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BisaTani Rinko, electric violins Yoshida Hachiro, drums. Kurata Sosuke, guitar I thought I should start keeping character charts as there are so many characters to keep up with... some of you might have complaints about it, especially since I've been taking such a long time to finish. Kagami's band- Banshee Akemi- feisty vocalist, attends the same high school as Kagami. Agawa- foreign, mixed race bassist. College student. Player. Hagihara- bald, wears shade, seemingly a fan of Satoshi. Also plays drums. Satoshi- drummer from Blacklist!!! , he's also a producer, capable of playing other instruments. Yumena- vocalist from Blacklist!!! A snobby and judgemental fashionista. Blacklist!!!- a popular rock band Hysterical Kitten- A talent agency founded by the father of Yumena, former manager of blacklist, Kagami is listed there as composer and fellow bandmate of Banshee.
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