#Chapter105Raven’s Jealous Lycan“So, what did you do today?” Aya asks daring me to lie. Her eyes compelling me to look at her from across the dining table. I opened my mouth. “Don’t. Don’t even say that word. I know you didn’t have work today. I called them.” My mouth is now opening and closing. “I wanted to check what time you finish so we could come and get you. Why did you lie, Amara?” Here you go again. She called me Amara. I cannot lie and be safe now.“I- I thought you guys might want some privacy. You know, Lycan time alone.” What am I saying now? “But I did go to the café though.” I try to defend myself. “Although, I was not working.” I mutter, looking down at the table which looked very fascinating at the moment. Oh, how very erm white it is. Stunning.“Amara.” I look up to her. Then to my side at Eliana for help. What did I even expect? She shrugged her shoulder and gave me that innocent look. If only I didn’t know her better. Elias beside Aya had an amused look o
#Chapter106Raven’s Disastrous WeekendSunday morning came with the sun brightly shining in my room. I opened my eyes but laid on my bed as I couldn’t escape this house anymore. Guess what? My secret is out. Wow. It didn’t even last a whole day.I hear my door opening as Eliana walks in. “Good morning, little beast.”“Ugh. What now?” I mumble as I pull the cover over my head. “Just in case you were wondering. Or not. We are having breakfast by the pool. Get up and freshen up.” She pulls the cover off me and forces me out the bed. She literally drags me into the bathroom.I quickly take a light shower and don’t bother washing my hair as I just washed it last night. I quickly brush my teeth and come out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around me. Only to see a nightmare early in the morning.“What is that?” I know my expression is hilarious right now. “It’s a bikini. What else does it look like?” she asks me as she stands there with one on, showing off her long legs.
#Chapter107Oh! You Stupid Raven!“Ouch. That hurt.” I shout.Both my hands were now on my cheeks. Why did I listen to myself and slapped myself in the face? Again?The table was filled with silence for a second. Then everyone burst in laughter while I just sat there sulkily, rubbing my cheeks to ease the pain. I looked up to see his worried eyes before it went blank. Did I just dream again? Was it just an illusion again? Did I see worry in his eyes? For me? I must be mad. Of course, silly. Who am I kidding? I’m crazy. Then I laugh out loud silencing everyone else. “Oh Ravens. I think I’m losing my mind.” I wipe off the tear forming in the corner of my eyes. They all nod and continue eating their breakfast as his eyes are trying to read me. These Lycans seriously need to stop doing that.The rest of the breakfast was quiet. Well, I was. His gaze never left mine and I never bothered to look up to him. If I do that, I will only get sucked into it and do something crazy
#Chapter108Raven’s NightmareSomeone needs to stop knocking on that door. “Amara. Open up.” Eliana. Now what does she want? I peeled myself off the sheet and rolled over to the edge of the bed. Without opening my eyes, I head towards the door and open it.Aya and Eliana pushes me in as I finally open my eyes. “What are you two doing here?” I ask groggily. “Remember you told me I could choose your outfits from now on. I came here just to do that. Oh, and I bought help too.” She holds both her hand to Aya who looks equally excited.“Don’t you have a mate to hold onto you? Why you here, so early?” I look at Aya quite annoyed. “Dear Raven, you don’t have to worry about him. He’s already up and in the shower.” She replies sarcastically. When did my sister change so much? “Even more of a reason for you to be there.” I mutter as she shoves me into the bathroom while Eliana laughs hard, heading towards my closet.I can see the beginning of my nightmare.I’m dressed in a fittin
#Chapter109You Lie, RavenThe day went by fairly quick. As usual, I paid no attention to whatsoever was the professor was chanting about. At this rate, I was not going to pass any of these classes that I was taking. Not like I cared. But if Eliana still wants me to join them to campus, she might have to pull up her connection card cause we all now, it isn’t working for me.Emily was with me this morning and her non-stop blabbering didn’t help me pay any attention. Not like I was dying to. But I was quite glad, she was with me. I might save some of my sanity. Or maybe not.Oliver was waiting for me outside the class when we walked out. “Say hi to Sarah for me.” Emily calls out as she walks away to her afternoon class. “Will do.” Then I head to the parking lot. When we sat in the car, I remember that I still had his jacket in my backpack. “Before I forget. Here you go. Thank you for this.” I hand him his denim jacket.“No problem.” He mumbles and starts the car. I swear I s
#Chapter110Hold it in, RavenWhen we arrived home, everyone saw my obviously puffy face and knew that I had cried. So, I hugged Aya and cried some more. It was not like I hadn’t cried in front of them anyways.I knew Eliana was giving him accusing glare and even offered to punch him, but I shake my head while he stood there, rubbing the back of his neck, looking tense. I didn’t want to hurt him. It would only hurt me even more. Why, though?I skipped dinner that evening. I wanted to just lay on my bed and not think about anything. But I kept thinking about him. The whole damn night. What does he mean to me? Why does his presence affect me so much? Why does his absence bother me so much? Just the thought of him having a mate out there, eats my inside. Another girl, not me, made just for him. No.I don’t want to think about him with someone else.But that someone else is made for him.Let go, Raven.Just let go.Close your eyes. Tomorrow will be different. You a
#Chapter111Raven’s Confession“But I didn’t get to meet her. Or see her.” I couldn’t bear to hear anymore but he didn’t stop. “The night that I came back here… the night that rained.” No. “I felt her presence. I smelt her scent.” Please.“She smelled like the wildflower amongst the woods. Even though the rain washed it away, it-it still smelled like heaven.” Stop. “I ran after her, but she was not there. She was gone. She-she disappeared in the woods on my own land and I couldn’t see her.” He let out a low growl.I leaned my head on the window and closed my eyes. Trying to calm my aching heart. “D-did you happen to see anyone in the woods that night? I saw you go in roughly around the same time that I smelt her.” I don’t want to answer. “No. I did not see anyone.” I whisper, not letting my emotions flow through the words I spoke. He let out another deep growl.Silence. That’s how the rest of the ride was. Filled with silence. I refused to turn around or open my eyes even.
#Chapter112Raven- A Lycan That Bites I tug his hands once more and he finally let go. I turn around and walk away. You are doing good Raven. Just walk away. I inhale deeply taking in all the air that might have carried his scent. A smile forms on my lips as I inhale the familiar ocean. Goodbye Lucas. My Lycan. The only being that my heart dared to love.No, I did not go to campus. I did not go back home or the woods. I just walked down the road mindlessly. My brain now empty. No more keeping anything to myself. My heart was free of the heavy weight, but it felt tight against my chest.The day darkened as the sky above cried. It fell on me, but my steps never faltered. The sky growled with pain and poured heavily as if telling me to let go. As if it’s saying it’s okay to cry, I’ll be here to wash your tears and mute your sobs. And it did just that as I walked away from my very first and the only heartbreak.After walking for hours, I came across a quiet park. The rain sto