I still can't believemy wolf choose to fall in my back. Not even did he choose a girl, but he choose an 18 years old that probably didn't even had the chance to meet her mate.' What we're you thinking?' I ask him while putting on my tuxedo. ' I like her and she seem like she is not afraid of me. She is gorgeous, nice, has a perfect body. Did you see her breasts? I would love to devoure her' he puurs his respons like a love sick puppy.I wish I had a chance to change his mind, but I had no such luck.***FLASHBACK***The whole evening I fight with my wolf about that girl , but as always when my wolf is determined I'm on the loosing side.The next morning I meet with Andros and my Beta in my study." Alpha thank you for meeting me" Andros said, the fear from yesterday still present." Don't thank me! I'm mad as fuck and when I could I would kill you!" I scream at him.Taking a beep breath I take a look at my Beta and link him" Do you want to keep that girl of yours here?" I ask him and
I woke up early in the morning Lilian still fast asleep , I take a shower and sneak out of the room without waking her. I asked May, our cook, to bring me my breakfast to my office. " Good morning Alpha, here is your coffee and I made you your favourite chicken sandwich." She says while placing it infornt of me." Thank you, May"" So how is your beautiful wife?" her joyful voice makes me nauseous. " Still sleeping"" Should I make her breakfast too?"" I don't know ask her" I say harsher than I intended too but May takes the hint , bowing slightly and running out of my office. I left before she woke up on purpose, I don't want to face her.Not after the wedding and her mate and especially after our night.' I would love to see her. And the night was good, I bet she liked it' Sin purrs.' Please just shut up. You wanted her, we got her. I did my duty now leave me alone' 'What duty? Are you seriously trying to tell me you didn't like the taste of her ? Didn't like how she felt.. h
We sat there for a while before she suddenly speaks, her head still buried in my chest." W-why did he growl at me? Did I say something wrong?"" No, you didn't. You just confirmed something I've been trying to tell him since the ball. And he didn't growl at you, well not directly. He already dislikes the council and the fact that you confirmed that you don't want to be with him, made him more angry as he already was" I explain to her." Can I ask you something?" I want to know a lot of things and I don't know where to start , and luckily she nods.' Ask about her mate' Sin suggested, well that is a god start." What happend between you and your mate?" She takes a deep breath and entangles herself from me, still not looking up." Well we met when I was sixteen, I just came back from board school to study at the University in our pack and I practically ran into him in the hallway. He said he recognised me as his mate, like he felt some pull towards me or something like that and we sta
Lilian POV///I walked down the halls, all flustered and .. and is that how it feels to be aroused?I was so afraid when I heard that I have to marry him and during our night he was gentle but not like... well like I imagined it.But than we both were forced into this marriage, so I got more than I expected. He is a really nice guy, his wolf.. Well I may be scared of him but till now he is kind to me, told me how much he adores me.. it's a good thing right?He said he will pay off the debts of my father and that I and my family will be free from the council and than he...The kiss...When he suggested that I should mark him I was so scared and the things I felt after ...But the kiss... Even Kora is still purring at the way his lips felt on mine.I wish we wouldn't have been distracted by his Beta, but than again I only had one time and the idea of having sex in his office is kind of freaking me out.He send me away, said he will meet me later.I can't help but wonder if he really is g
James POV /// I can't believe I lost control like that.. and I can't even put it on Sins card.. it was all me.I was heading to talk to my men at the border after the unnerving talk with my Beta when I heard her talk about her being a part of the pack for the first time! Like what the fuck?!?! And when I pulled her with me I was mad! It's an Alphas duty to take care of our species, even halfbloods.. he left her alone, all this years she was alone.Now I understand why her wolf is a newborn soul and she has no idea of how it all works. Half bloods are often weaker and a lot died during the shift, that's when newborn souls start to appear and no wolf took care of her , so she ended up knowing nothing!But my anger faded the moment she started to tremble with fear and cry. After the moment we shared in the office I forgot that I'm still a feared monster, and a complete stranger to her. It's only natural she fears me as soon as she sense my mood.I stilled in my tracks and turned around
Lilian left over a week ago and since than I didn't heard a single word from her. I don't know where exactly she is, what she is doing , how she is doing and I am going crazy. We have been married for not even two weeks and I am longing for her , miss her like she was away for months and I am about to loose it !!And again I can't put it on Sin, who has curled himself in a ball and constantly howls, this is all me.. I miss her, her soft skin, bright eyes, the red hair and to make it worse the fading of her scent is driving me insane!!Is it the mate bond we formed when we marked each other , or is it something else?What if she is never coming back?She didn't want to be here in the first place and I should let her go like I promised so I call Andros." Alpha what can I do for you" his annoying voice greets me." What are the debts of Lilians father?" I ask" Why do you want to know that?" he asks confused. " I want to pay the off.. All of them" " Wha.. why?"" Because I want to ..
James POV///" Did.. did she just say she is pregnant?" I ask no one in particular, still looking in the direction she walked off.Why.. what.. I don't understand!" Did she knew that when she signed the divorce papers?" I ask and turn to her father." Well.. you send them and she thought that.." He starts but I cut him off." Is that a yes?" a vicious growl left me, a lot louder than I intended to but I couldn't hold it as my anger is rising again.' Don't scream at her father, it's your fault ' Sin jumps to defend Maurice.' How the fuck is that my fault?' I ask him.' She went out to be with her parents after one of your flings insulted her and you jumped to the conclusion she don't want to be with us and send her the divorce papers instead af trying to speak to her. What did you think her reaction would be? You almost made us loose her' he snarls at me.'Shut up Sin' ... what a lame retour but I don't have a better one because he is right.I didn't try to contact her once in this w
Lilian POV///I watched as my mom processed the words she heard just now. I never knew how much the denial of our existence from Alpha Deren hurt her, but it should have been clear from the start. She may be a human but werewolf blood still runs in her vains, the need to be accepted and be near a pack runs through her vains.She still longs for an Alphas attention as much as we all do." Mom you should convince dad" I interrupt their talk." Why should I convince him, he would be happy" she says." He wasn't. He said he just couldn't leave, said something about ehm .. if I would be in his place would I have joined back a pack that demanded to kill my mate and child, and something about how week and gutless he is for going back to the people that were hostile towards his family and how he seems to not be able to leave " James trys to recreate their conversation. " But I think if you tell him how much you want that he can't say no, he never could say no to you, remember?" I say, smili
James//Pain is the first thing I feel when I start to gain consciousness, then panic.' Sin! You bastard! What did you do!' I scream at my wolf and get a painful howl in return." Alpha? Can you hear me?" Doctor Cullen calls out to me." Yes" my voice is hoarse and each word fucking hurts !" Lilian" I rasp out." Rest and get well first," he says quietly, making the fear even stronger. Something happened!!' Lilian' I call out to her, but nothing. 'Kora,' I try.' I already tried. They are not answered.' Sin speaks quietly and with so much pain in his voice. He seems to be far away." What happened?" I ask the doc." You lost a lot of blood , we found you.." he starts, but I cut him off with a forced growl." Not, me! My mate! My child!" " The child is fine. Luna is stable but unconscious, " he whispers. " Why?" I ask, trying to open my eyes. " One of the rogues broke through, long before the actual fight started. She was outside with Vince and his Mate Vanessa.. and.. I don't
A MONTH LATERJames/// Lily is now five months pregnant, and it won't take long until we have to start to prepare for the birth of our pup.I still can't believe how things worked out for us so far, but the most shocking is her relation to the King, who, by the way, has called fifteen times this month and will visit us tomorrow!!!I have the whole place cleaned up , I bought the finest food and wine and planned everything, but I still have the feeling I missed something. Never I'm my life did I thought that I would meet the king someday, well, at least not on friendly terms.I always thought that he would come one day to kill me because of who I am and what I do when I'm mad, or better say what Sin does when he is mad.' I'm not that bad,' Sin scoffs. ' Yes you are.. or was.. you behave thanks to Lilian,' I retour .' By the way, where is she? I didn't see her in a while, and I miss her,' he whines. ' We saw her this morning!! She is sleeping , let her be!' I tell him .Since the
I watch satisfied as Marisol pales, realising that she is out of options here." You can't seriously expect my daughter to marry a man my age?" Matoe says looking between us and Davin, who was about to answer but was cut off by a growl of my beautiful mate." Shut up Mateo! Your stupid daughter almost killed my child! You should thanking us that we don't kill her on the spot but giving her an option! Don't mess with me... I took on a fight with Sin don't think I won't take you on" she says and stares deadly at him.Than she takes some calming breaths and turns to Frederick, smiling at him" Long time no see Frederick " ." It's nice to see you too! How have you been sweety?" he answers, a smile breaks out on his face.At that my head shoots in his direction " How do you know my wife?" I ask, feeling jealous. " Her mother and she lived in a human town near my borders. It happend that on her sixteen Birthday they were in the woods right outside the borders, doing a birthday midnight pic
James///Siting and waiting I try to reach out to my mate but of course I am to far away.Taking a glance at my phone I scoff, of course there is no service here in the middle of the fucking desert!I have a pregnant wife at home waiting for me, the one I promised to never leave her again .. but here I am breaking my promise after not even a week!!' She will be mad' Sin says.' We will make it up to her. But you know we don't had a choice. Frederick is our allie, and we don't have a lot' I tell him.' Let's hope she forgives us.. again' he snarls at me.' She will, I make sure of that. I promise you Sin ' I assure him and he nods." Alpha James! Thank you so much for coming!" Alpha Frederick greets me as he enters the hall I've been waiting for him the last two hours. " Frederick, first off all : Is there any mobile services out here, like at all? I have a pregnant wife home and it's kind of freaking my wolf out that we can't reach her" I say to him and he nods." Of course, I'm sor
Marisol///This can't be happening, this can't be real!!He is supposed to be a monster! Why is he so caring?When he looked at me I saw the man I heard about, the cold-hearted monster... but when he looked at her.. the way he gently caressed her back, the way he picked her up...There was so much warmth and love in his eyes..This wasn't real! I am certain!It was all fake, he was faking it to make me belive, to make me regret and crawl back to him!I saw how tired she looked, he must be torturing her and he somehow threatened her to play along!That must he it.. no way in hell is he a good husband and mate to her!But that again she defended him and screamed at me...I was so lost in thoughts I didn't even realised that we already reached the car and I was being pushed in harshly." Whatch out! I'm a councillors daughter " I snap at the man but he only smirks coldly at me and lowers himself,so close I can feel his breath on my face." And I am the bloodlust Alphas second in command,
James///How many surprises will I get ?First I have to listen to Davins shit, than to Marisols and Mateos.And now my mates wolf speaking..." How..? What?" I ask, starring blankly at Lilian that smiles at me.' Kora' Sin purrs happily." Nicos and his wolf worked with us, trained us. She still has some problems but we are on a good way" she tells me." Wait.. we are having a boy?" I squeak like a girl." Yes, confirmed that yesterday." She says and I take a deep breath.' Can you talk to us a bit more?'I ask the girls and Lily smiles. ' Welcome home' Kora purrs and a pleasant shiver runs down my spine. ' Hello Kora' I answer.' We missed you! You made us believe that you won't coma back' she whines.' I know I'm sorry, but once your humanity is off its hard to get it back. We tried to come back sooner but we won't leave again, I promise you' I tell her and she purrs at me, while Lily looks at me with teary eyes." I'm sorry lilian, I can't tell you that often enough but I had no
Lilian//All I could do is stand at the door and watch him leave. I can't imagine what he must go through right now and how he feels.I understand that he is hurt and feels betrayed but watching him shift and run away hurt so much and somehow I couldn't shake of the feeling that he just left me and is maybe never coming back to me.My worsed fear just came to life and I let myself fall onto the stairs ,crying silently while Kora howled in my head giving me a headache.I don't know how long I sat on the stairs when Beta Nicos came out with a blanket.Putting the blanket on me , scooping me up and carrying me inside.I didn't even realised how dark and cold it got outside but I didn't even care.I desperately hoped he would come back but he didn't and I feel so lost and alone." Will he come back?" I whisper- cry and look up to Nicos." He will, he always comes back" he says with such a sadness in his eyes." Do you know what happend? Did he told you?" I ask." Yes Sin linked me when yo
James//As I carry Lilian to my room I get nauseous from the worry and link Ellis." Come to our room ASAP! Lilian has a fever!" ' Is she sick? or is something wrong with the pup?' Sin asks , also worried.' I don't know, but the doc is on his way. Please stay calm no matter what he does!' I tell him and he nods in agreement.I put her to bed and sit down besides her, holding her hand." James I'm fine, it's just a high temperature from the stress and nervousness, nothing to worry about" Lily trys to calm me." I will feel better as soon as doc checks on you" I say determined and she nods, defeated. The feat to loose her is breathtaking! I don't even care for the pup, she can get pregnant again but if something is going to happen to her I definitely will loose it!I may not had much time with her but I deeply and sincerely care for her! I need her, she can't leave me, I think and start to panic just as Doc's scent hits my nose and I rush to the door to let him in." I'm here, no ne
Lilian//I woke up really early in the morning , feeling sick I rushed to the bathroom just in time!I really hope it won't happen every day, I hate to throw up.It's disgusting and it burns my throat and I can't breath properly!!" Hey are you okay?" a sleepy and hoarse voice sounds behind me, followed by steps and a shiver runs down my spine.Really? I am getting horny while throwing up? How sick is that!!" I think my system is broken" I whine just as another wave of nuances hits me.James gets on his knees behind he, pulling my hair into a bun and caressing my back making me feel calm and more horny at the same time." Are you seriously aroused right now?" he growls lustful." As I already said: I think I'm broken" I say and giggle." No you're just pregnant " he says smiling at me." Pregnancy sucks" I state and he laughs." I will go and ask May to make you a tea while you get ready. Will you be OK on your own for a minute?" he asks me and tears well up in my eyes at his care."