I don't know what's more heartbreaking. If it's the reality that my boyfriend for 2 years found his real mate and left me for her, or the fact that I've also found my mate but unfortunately, he cheated right after we met.
I didn't cry, though. I don't know. I'm probably too tired to shed a tear. My mind and heart were in chaos, which kept me awake all night.
By the end of the night, I was exhausted. The dark circles underneath my eyes were so disturbing that it literally freaked out my mother.
She cupped my face and looked at me worriedly. "You look worn out. What happened?"
I shook my head and said nothing.
"She must be having difficulty sleeping here. After all, it was an unexpected decision that you'll be moving in here."
"You're right. Me, too. I am not yet used to living here," mom said. "Don't worry, dream. We'll get used to it." My mother hugged me and kissed my cheek. Moving in and out wasn't new to me. I literally grew up with that scenario due to my mother being a single parent and having no permanent residence. So sleeping at a stranger's house doesn't make me uncomfortable.
I am like this for different reason
"It's okay, mom. I'm good."
She sighed and ran her hand through my messy hair. "Did you think of him again? I told you to forget about that pup. You're still young, Aurora. You are barely sixteen. It was only puppy love, an infatuation."
I nodded my head and said nothing. I know that if I talk back to her and argue that I wasn't actually thinking about my ex, this conversation would not end.
"It's a teenager's love. We all experienced that, so let's just understand her, Ana. Besides, it would subside in no time once she found her mate, too."
I flinched at his words. It would be subdued? Well, unfortunately, it only worsened everything as my mate, which was apparently your son, cheated on me.
My mother let out an exasperated sigh and rolled her eyes. She went back to sitting next to the alpha. "Fine."
Alpha Marlon smiled and looked at me. "Feel free to make yourself comfortable around my humble house, Aurora. I will send someone to help you design your own room."
I smiled a little. "Thank you, alpha."
My mother and him excused themselves after we had breakfast, which slightly lightened up my mood. I didn't know I was starving not until I tasted the food.
After breakfast, I didn't know what to do next. So I just decided to borrow my mom's car and drove back to our house. There is something in our house that makes me comfortable and feel warmth. It was probably because living alone with my mother was what I was used to and I considered it as home whenever I went back from my whereabouts.
Our stuff was already taken to the alpha mansion. It happened so fast like a blur. One minute I was living contentedly here together with my mom, and the next second, we're already moving out.
I let out a sigh as I slumped down on the soft bed of my room. I missed this room even though it was only a night that I didn't get to sleep here. I will miss this. The thought that I'm going to live in another place after this house sends nostalgia in my chest.
I didn't know I was already crying.
I broke into a fit of loud sob, hugging my knees and resting my arms around it as I leaned my back against the headboard. I was totally brokenhearted. I kept getting rejected. What the hell is wrong with me?
I wasn't a very emotional teen. Growing up, I encountered a lot of bullies. I wasn't the one who easily cried over it. I often get into fights. But now, I don't know. My emotions were all over the place.
It was nearly sunset when I decided to go back home. My eyes were swollen because I've been crying since early in the morning. I even skipped my lunch.
As I was opening the door of the car, a hand suddenly gripped my wrist. I lifted my gaze and was shocked to find Axcel standing in front of me with sweat dripping from his forehead. There was a panicked and remorseful look in his eyes that made me feel sick for some reason.
He clenched his jaw. "I've been looking for you since this morning. You didn't come home."
I felt my heart throbbed. I pulled my hand back and took a step away from him. I wanted to cry again for the betrayal that I felt from him.
"What are you doing here?" I asked weakly.
"Isn't it obvious? I was looking for you," he said, his voice was kinda annoyed.
I scoffed. "Did mom ask you to find me? Don't worry, I will call her and tell her where I was. So if you excuse me, I'll go ahead."
I pulled the door and opened it. I was about to get in when he gripped my arm harshly and pulled me to his body. My face hit his chest.
I angrily looked up at him. "The hell?!"
"Don't use that sarcastic voice on me, little one," he said dangerously. His eyes darkened and I could see that his wolf was stirring up. For a moment, I was terrified of what he could do to me. He has an alpha blood, and there is no doubt that being disrespected and not being obeyed makes his wolf angry.
But then again, why should he be angry? Did I do something wrong?
In fact...
... he was the one who had done something wrong to me.
I pushed his chest when I finally pulled over myself from these distracting thoughts running through my head.
I let out a growl. I knew my pupils dilated with gold as my wolf took control over.
"Don't touch me like that, you filthy wolf," I spat. My words cut deep through him as I watched how he whimpered. Pain swam through the depths of his blue eyes. But I was too enraged with him to even feel conscience. "You slept with another she-wolf last night, didn't you?" I asked bitterly.
The sadness in his eyes was replaced with guilt. Now he looked so ashamed of himself.
When he spoke no word, I laughed sarcastically and threw my head back as tears spilled out from my eyes.
"Wow. Unbelievable," I gritted out. We just literally found each other. We are soul mates, bound to be each other's for the rest of our lives, and yet he dared to disrespect our bond during our first meeting. My wolf couldn't accept the fact
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean—" I cut him off by waving my hand in the air. I looked at him with pain in my eyes.
With a cracked voice, I said, "You know what, it's too much. You don't deserve someone like me nor do I deserve someone as asshole as you." I took a deep breath and looked straight into his eyes. My heart stung as the next words left my mouth like an acid that burned us together. "I, Aurora Carter, are rejecting you as my mate... Axcel Knight."
And with that being said, I turned around and left him, broken beyond repair.
It was painful. Excruciating even. My stomach churn painfully that I had never imagined. My chest constricted and I could hardly breath. The bond that once existed was no longer existing and it was slowly killing me. It was too painful to the point that it had gotten numb.Tears soaked my face. Everything was over between us. I ended the ties between us and the chance of me having a second chance mate is quite impossible since mating is a very sacred thing and shouldn't be taken lightly. And yet, I dare to reject it.To say I was regretting it was probably an understatement. I am regretting it. Not because I want Axcel in my life or I was scared that I might not be able to find another mate. No, no, it was actually the contrary. I was regretting it because the excruciating pain in my chest from the rejection is slowly killing me. I don't want to die yet. Not when I haven't met my younger sister or brother yet."God, dear. What is wrong with you?! You've been crying all day. You're muc
I had a promise with my mom and I shouldn't be thinking of breaking it, but I do. I want to back out and break off my promise to her that I'll start moving forward. However, how could I really do that when the reason behind those unwanted tears that had escaped my eyes was practically standing right next to me?What he did was something unforgivable. I understand that Derick has to leave me because he has found his mate, and I knew my place. I cried over him because it hurts. I know he hurt me but it was all unintentional.Unlike this asshole...Axcel and I were sitting inside a car. He was the one driving and I was on the passenger's side, looking out the window and trying to avoid him as much as possible. We haven't spoken a word. And trust me, I don't want to start one. Talking to him is going to be a waste of time. I don't want to associate myself with someone like him.He cleared his throat. I could sense that he was itching to talk to me. "I'm sorry—" I cut him off rudely."It d
The lunch has finally come to its end. Most people were happy to hear that the alpha was expecting a new pup and is bound to remarry, but there were still a couple of people that were against it and disapproved of my mother. But the alpha shut them off and said their opinions about his love life does not matter to him nor the pack. To be honest, members were very ungrateful to their alpha. The alpha makes the pack safe and the members unharmed with more than enough resources to make a living. This big community of werewolves would've already crashed into nothingness if it weren't for the alpha. He rules the pack but he also protects it. He makes negotiations with other packs just to keep them from ruining ours. He keeps the members safe from the attacks of rouges, barbarians, hunters, and even from other races.And now the members were against the new life that the alpha deserves to have: a new family.So ungrateful.But then, as Alpha Marlon said, it doesn't matter to him. And it wa
Why? That's the question that has been running through my head the moment our situation has sunk into my head. I've been crying all night long, thinking about the horrible things I've done in the past for me to deserve this pain I am feeling right now.I am a total shit today. With messy hair and swollen eyes with dark bags under it. I look like someone who takes drugs and hasn't been sleeping for weeks.If you ask me why I was crying, the reason is so simple. I was dumped.My ex-boyfriend and I for 2 years broke up last night after he found his mate. I thought I was gonna be his mate, but turns out I wasn't. Of course, he would choose her. After all, she's his mate. His lifetime partner. He apologized, he begged for my forgiveness, but at the end, he still left. I want to pull him to me, to not give him up, to fight for our love. I don't know what happened at that time, but I suddenly lost the will to do so. It felt like all the energy in my body was drained after the revelation unf
We sat awkwardly right across each other. Alpha Marlon wasn't pleased with his son growling earlier when he arrived. It shows no respect towards their visitors. "I am glad that you came right in time, son," Alpha Marlon said, trying to form a conversation between the awkward atmosphere around. "We have a very important announcement to make and we are happy that the two of you attended this night."My mother smiled and held the Alpha's hand. The scene itself was sweet and one look you can already guess what is going on between them. However, I couldn't find myself to be happy for my mother at this moment. My all attention was conscious about the dominant male sitting across the table. Even though my eyes were not looking in his way, I couldn't not help but to notice every action he made. He was sitting there quietly and observantly. It was my first time meeting him, but I can already guess he will be as good a leader as his father, or even much beyond that. He has that effortless int
The lunch has finally come to its end. Most people were happy to hear that the alpha was expecting a new pup and is bound to remarry, but there were still a couple of people that were against it and disapproved of my mother. But the alpha shut them off and said their opinions about his love life does not matter to him nor the pack. To be honest, members were very ungrateful to their alpha. The alpha makes the pack safe and the members unharmed with more than enough resources to make a living. This big community of werewolves would've already crashed into nothingness if it weren't for the alpha. He rules the pack but he also protects it. He makes negotiations with other packs just to keep them from ruining ours. He keeps the members safe from the attacks of rouges, barbarians, hunters, and even from other races.And now the members were against the new life that the alpha deserves to have: a new family.So ungrateful.But then, as Alpha Marlon said, it doesn't matter to him. And it wa
I had a promise with my mom and I shouldn't be thinking of breaking it, but I do. I want to back out and break off my promise to her that I'll start moving forward. However, how could I really do that when the reason behind those unwanted tears that had escaped my eyes was practically standing right next to me?What he did was something unforgivable. I understand that Derick has to leave me because he has found his mate, and I knew my place. I cried over him because it hurts. I know he hurt me but it was all unintentional.Unlike this asshole...Axcel and I were sitting inside a car. He was the one driving and I was on the passenger's side, looking out the window and trying to avoid him as much as possible. We haven't spoken a word. And trust me, I don't want to start one. Talking to him is going to be a waste of time. I don't want to associate myself with someone like him.He cleared his throat. I could sense that he was itching to talk to me. "I'm sorry—" I cut him off rudely."It d
It was painful. Excruciating even. My stomach churn painfully that I had never imagined. My chest constricted and I could hardly breath. The bond that once existed was no longer existing and it was slowly killing me. It was too painful to the point that it had gotten numb.Tears soaked my face. Everything was over between us. I ended the ties between us and the chance of me having a second chance mate is quite impossible since mating is a very sacred thing and shouldn't be taken lightly. And yet, I dare to reject it.To say I was regretting it was probably an understatement. I am regretting it. Not because I want Axcel in my life or I was scared that I might not be able to find another mate. No, no, it was actually the contrary. I was regretting it because the excruciating pain in my chest from the rejection is slowly killing me. I don't want to die yet. Not when I haven't met my younger sister or brother yet."God, dear. What is wrong with you?! You've been crying all day. You're muc
I don't know what's more heartbreaking. If it's the reality that my boyfriend for 2 years found his real mate and left me for her, or the fact that I've also found my mate but unfortunately, he cheated right after we met.I didn't cry, though. I don't know. I'm probably too tired to shed a tear. My mind and heart were in chaos, which kept me awake all night.By the end of the night, I was exhausted. The dark circles underneath my eyes were so disturbing that it literally freaked out my mother.She cupped my face and looked at me worriedly. "You look worn out. What happened?"I shook my head and said nothing."She must be having difficulty sleeping here. After all, it was an unexpected decision that you'll be moving in here.""You're right. Me, too. I am not yet used to living here," mom said. "Don't worry, dream. We'll get used to it." My mother hugged me and kissed my cheek. Moving in and out wasn't new to me. I literally grew up with that scenario due to my mother being a single par
We sat awkwardly right across each other. Alpha Marlon wasn't pleased with his son growling earlier when he arrived. It shows no respect towards their visitors. "I am glad that you came right in time, son," Alpha Marlon said, trying to form a conversation between the awkward atmosphere around. "We have a very important announcement to make and we are happy that the two of you attended this night."My mother smiled and held the Alpha's hand. The scene itself was sweet and one look you can already guess what is going on between them. However, I couldn't find myself to be happy for my mother at this moment. My all attention was conscious about the dominant male sitting across the table. Even though my eyes were not looking in his way, I couldn't not help but to notice every action he made. He was sitting there quietly and observantly. It was my first time meeting him, but I can already guess he will be as good a leader as his father, or even much beyond that. He has that effortless int
Why? That's the question that has been running through my head the moment our situation has sunk into my head. I've been crying all night long, thinking about the horrible things I've done in the past for me to deserve this pain I am feeling right now.I am a total shit today. With messy hair and swollen eyes with dark bags under it. I look like someone who takes drugs and hasn't been sleeping for weeks.If you ask me why I was crying, the reason is so simple. I was dumped.My ex-boyfriend and I for 2 years broke up last night after he found his mate. I thought I was gonna be his mate, but turns out I wasn't. Of course, he would choose her. After all, she's his mate. His lifetime partner. He apologized, he begged for my forgiveness, but at the end, he still left. I want to pull him to me, to not give him up, to fight for our love. I don't know what happened at that time, but I suddenly lost the will to do so. It felt like all the energy in my body was drained after the revelation unf