Pregnant?

Alexa's POV

I push the door open, walking inside my little home. It's a small house on the outer skirt of our Pack. I live here with just my Mother. I lost my father when I was five. So yeah, I'm both a poor and fatherless Omega. And minutes ago, I became a rejected one too.

"Alexa?" Mother's voice comes from the dark sitting room, stopping me from sneaking off to my room. The sounds of her approaching footsteps follow shortly.

I stop, wiping off the tears on my face. I cried profusely on my way home and I wanna go lock myself in my damp room and cry even more. 

But I can't ignore her after she just said my name. So yeah, I wipe off my tears, because I don't want her to notice them. She'll get worried. And she'll ask. And then I'll have to lie. Because I never told her about Lucian and me. I didn't tell anybody. I couldn't. Since our love is forbidden.

"Where did you go, baby?" She asks, walking closer to me. Her face scrunches in worry. "Are you alright?"

"Yes," I step back quickly, refusing to let her scrutinize me. "I just feel a little tired. So I'll just go get some rest."

"Are you sure?" She pushes further, visibly doubting my words. But there's nothing she can do about it. Because I'm not ready to tell her the truth.

"Yes, Mother. I'm sure. Don't worry about me and go to bed. Goodnight." I reply, and head to my room. 

Tears cascade from my eyes just as I hit the bed. Snuggling my pillows, I cry into them, trying to muffle the sounds. 

My heart is aching so badly. Of all things, I never imagined my relationship with Lucian would end like this. Cruel and bitter. How can I ever get over this agony? 

How can I move on from this? I don't see how. I feel crushed beyond repair. There's no moving on from it. There's none. 

"Alexa?" Mother opens my door, much to my surprise. "Uh, I just wanna ask if you're gonna have dinner."

Thankfully, my back is turned to her so she can't see my tear-drenched face. "No, Mother. I'm not hungry." My voice sounds too shaky and croaky. 

The door creaks and I think she's gone. But then the next second, I felt her sitting on my bed. Next to me.

"I know you're crying, baby. I saw those tears you were trying so hard to hide from me when you walked in. Wanna tell me what's going on?"

I sob harder, holding my pillow tighter, still not looking at her. I can't talk about it. I badly want to, but I can't. 

"It's okay if you can't talk about it," she says, and then she hugs me from behind. "My poor baby. I'm so sorry you're hurting."

"My heart feels like it's gonna explode, Mother. It hurts so bad." I sob, holding her back. Holding her like it's gonna heal my pain a bit. 

"I know. And that's what you get from taking the risk of loving someone above your league. Someone you shouldn't have dared to love."

I stop crying for a moment and quickly sit up, looking at her. She gives me a sad smile and a knowing look.

"You…you knew about my relationship with him?" 

"Yes, baby. I've known for a while now." She admits, wiping the tears from my face.

"But…but…how…I never told anyone…"

"I saw his picture under your pillow when I came to get your laundry. And then I saw your diary. And I saw the watch you got him. I saw your texts too. I wasn't being nosy. I just…stumbled on them. And then you stay out late a lot of times too. I was so worried about you."

"Then why didn't you say anything? Why didn't you ask me?"

"Because you didn't tell me. It kinda hurts that you thought you couldn't trust me with that. But I respected your decision and was willing to wait till you were ready to open up to me."

I lower my lashes in guilt. "I'm sorry, mother. I was just scared you'd be disappointed."

"You don't have to apologize, baby. You did nothing wrong. Life is just too cruel. And you didn't deserve to be hurt like this. Come here."

I go into her arms as we share a passionate hug. "Will I be okay, mother?" 

I need to know. Because it hurts so much right now. I need to know the pain will fade. 

"Yes, baby. You'll be fine. I'll be here to make sure you get through this. I promise."

"Thanks, Mother."

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A MONTH LATER…

My teeth clatter nervously as we patiently wait for the doctor in his office. Mother looks worn out but also worried. I, on the other hand, look disheveled, troubled, and sick. 

I've been this way for a week now. And then a few days ago, I came here to get treated. I ran a couple of tests and I'm back today for the results. Mother decided to tag along as she's worried that I look too pale and I may collapse out on the streets. 

So yeah, we've been waiting. It's been over thirty minutes now. And I'm growing more nervous with each passing second. 

Finally, the door opens and the doctor walks in. His polite smile is etched on his face as he takes his seat. 

"I'm so sorry to have kept you waiting. Had to attend to an emergency."

"It's okay." Mother replies with a weak smile. "So what's wrong with my daughter? She's gotten too pale. I hope it's not something terminal."

"No, ma'am. On the contrary, it's something great. She's a few weeks pregnant. The paleness and morning sickness are all the symptoms…"

I zone out his remaining words, trying to catch my breath. My hand weakly drops to my stomach. I'm…pregnant?

Mother says something to him but I'm not listening. Tears fill my eyes but I hold them back because I don't wanna do all that crying in front of the doctor. 

But when Mother and I finally step outside, I let the tears fall. How miserable can I get, before life finally treats me fair? A child at 18? What do I do with it? And without Lucian?

"It's his child, right?" Mother asks. I can hear the disappointment in her voice and it crushes my heart. 

"Yes," I admit in tears. 

"Are you gonna tell him? Are you gonna make him take responsibility for the child?"

It's a tempting thought. After the rumors of his mating ceremony with his chosen mate spread like a whirl fire, my heart has been in shambles. I want him back, and this may be the only way to get him back. Blackmailing him with the child will definitely make him get back together with me. 

But then again, I can never do that to him. I love him too much to ruin his life with this child. He has a lot of things to do in life and I just wanna love and support him from a distance. Not ruin it for him. Even though it's hard, I need to let him go. I need to free him. 

"No, Mother. I'm not telling him about the child." I say with a weird sense of determination. "I'll keep this child and raise it…"

"You can't raise a child alone, baby. It's too much stress."

"Who says I'm gonna be alone? You'll be with me, Mother. Right? You'll help me take care of your grandchild, won't you?"

"Of course, I will," she laughs, amidst her tears. She hugs me, rocking me like a child. "I'll never leave your side. And you know it."

"Then that's great. We'll both raise this child together." I smile, even though tears are miserably falling from my eyes. 

"Gosh, Alexa. How could you have been so careless?" Mother sniffles, running her hand on my back. 

"I'm sorry, Mother…"

"Shush, it's fine. Don't apologize." She breaks the hug and holds my hands. "It's always been us against the world. And frankly speaking, it's gotten a bit boring, just you and I. It's good to have someone else on our little team."

"Yes." I chuckle. Trust Mother to always find a way to make me feel better. 

"We'll be fine. We just need to come up with a plan. Do you have something in mind?"

I think for a while and nod. "Yes, Mother. Let's leave this Pack. Let's go far away. To a place where I can be happy with you and my child."

It's hard abandoning my home Pack. But I gotta do it. It's the only way I can move on with my life. 

"Are you sure, baby?" Mother asks, seriously. "You're not gonna regret it?"

I think for a while. And I'm filled with doubts. Will…I regret it?