CHAPTER 154: Lives That I'll Ruin

ZEUS-

The blood on my hands, it won’t go away, its color is all I could see around, in Arthur’s eyes, in my love life, a dreadful dream I want to wake up from but its impossible because my ghosts are putting me down into a deep sleep.

And how ironic, I can’t even sleep, I find myself standing by the window, looking at her, looking at me, while stabbing her and taking Arthur’s dreams away.

Was it worth it? Is all I ask myself every day. Was it worth losing my beta? And this fear of losing her as well, losing my heart, my Aurora.

I'm scared, she’ll leave me. Just like she did before, she’ll choose everyone over me, again and again and again.

My mind screams certain things I don’t want to comply to however, I find myself torn between reality and nightmares. Like what I'm living is a fake world and I need to leave it soon.

Because I’ll be stuck in here forever, alone. But there’s this hand which brings me back every night. A hand that I'm scared will fade into my darkness.

I know I'm bloc