Alpha Ryan DamisonAll I see is red. Anger. My veins ferociously pulsate hard as I think of my mate. My mate is a guy, I can’t accept this shit. Clearly, the Moon goddess had it out for me. What a sly bitch, as there is no more hilarious mistake than pairing me with a guy!I knew she hated me from the start. But there were bigger bastards than me in the past. Then why me? Why? My chest heaves menacingly, anger and fury rising to the surface. The way my mate existed disgusts me. His gender disgust me, his thin body, his weakness, everything about him disgusts me. I couldn’t keep calm and now, there is only one thing that can calm me. That is the Red Room of Pain.As soon as I leave my office, Drake run towards me asking something that I didn't really hear. "Tell Daniel to do the arrangements. Right now!" I order Drake, my voice thick and threatening.I hope that will calm me. I still can't believe that my mate is not a girl. I would have tolerated any bitch, but really a guy? Though
Alpha Ryan DamisonI leave the room, wiping my hands with the handkerchief. Jax's blood is all over the piece of cloth, I dump it in the dustbin as I feel disgusted by him. He had to die because he knew too much.Now that I can't kill my mate, I mentally think about the pros and cons of accepting him as my mate.Pros: My wolf will be happy.Cons:People will think I am gay. He can't be a Luna. Will our pack have two Alphas? No, he is not a werewolf. He is a weakling. I can never have pups with him.No boobs. That's the major con.Anal sex. With a guy? No, never!I never felt so lost in my past twenty-six years. I never thought my life would take such a deadly-scary turn, devouring all the light from my life, leaving me in this dark, pensive black hole. I ignore all my pack members and leave for the pack house. Today, for the first time, I don’t feel like a king. Moon goddess played well, I knew that bitch hated me from the start. I have dealt with some messed up shit in the past,
Emara StoneI survived the first day in office after spilling coffee on my boss's pants. The next day, I reach the office early with things to decorate my table. I made sure it looked like a man's table.I brought a Hotwheels car whose doors and bonnet can be open, a picture frame of a dog, and an ashtray which I am going to use as a paperweight. Also, a playboy swimsuit calendar so that I can count T-Minus days until I get my salary.Money is the love of my life.True love.Suddenly I feel a presence beside me, I see Shelly checking out my table. I smile, feeling proud of myself. This is all done by me.I hear a gasp, I see her hand slowly covering her mouth in a shock as she stares at the playboy calendar that is hanging in front of my desk. The bikini model is sitting by the p
Alpha Ryan DamisonI wake up from a nightmare in the midnight. I could feel the sweat running from my forehead to temples, dripping to my jawline. My eyes refuse to blink in trepidation and my hands shake miserably, nonstop. Never in my whole life, I had such a terrifying dream.I dreamed of Ethan kissing me. And the worst part is I was passionately kissing him back while desperately removing his shirt. I rub my hands on my face, assuring it was just a dream.Maybe watching the movie last night was another bad idea. I should have never listened to my stupid wolf to watch George of the Jungle and his abs.I couldn't sleep the rest of the night, my frantic soul is scared of dreaming Ethan again, so I focus on my Alpha duties. I make a call in the pack-station and tell my Beta to inform all the newly shifted wolves to be ready for training by three o'clock.If I c
Emara StoneToday will be my first day as Ryan’s personal secretary. I am more scared than excited, as I don't trust my hormones around him. Every time I see him, something inside of me wants to grab his hands and put it on my body. Every molecule in my body itches to touch him.My inner hoe wants to get assaulted by him. Sexually.I reach the small cabin which is built of glass outside the CEO's massive cabin. I see two telephones, a printer, and a fax machine on the table. I decorate my new table with the Hotwheels car, a dog's photo frame, ashtray, and the playboy swimsuit calendar. Yay!I see a file lying on the desk with the title, "Non-Disclosure Agreement." Which instantly clicks in my head, Christian Grey!Is Ryan into BDSM, wait that's why he chose me as his secretary? Does he know who I am?I immediately grab it and star
Alpha Ryan Damison"Sir, should I make a report on it?"Ethan said innocently, which made my bones vibrate. Not because I am ready to lose control and shift, but because Dakota is laughing in my head. We both know that our mate is teasing us. But I am pissed.All I want to do is break all the furniture in the room. I want to smash the chairs on the wall, throw the table out of the window, and break all the glasses in the building.All I see is red.Red on Ethan's cheeks. He is blushing. Blushing red like a monkey's ass. I hate he is looking cute and Dakota is telling me to touch his cheeks. And suddenly I want to feel the softness of his skin, to see his aroused face.You are thinking right, let’s go lick him.I shake my head and remind myself not to listen to my illiterate w
Emara StoneI am so happy, like someone gave me drugs for free. LOL. Just kidding. Maybe not. LOL, no. Haha!Hotty told me to get home safely. The girl, the vagina, the drunk butterflies in me shake like a vibrator. No, like a volcano, an earthquake! I leave his cabin with a big smile on my face from ear to ear, like I got my driving license or my degree. As I don’t have both.I try to do twerking in the office’s corridor that I learned from the YouTube tutorial as I am so happy right now, but then I straighten up as I don’t want to get caught in the cameras. As I was about to leave, the telephone on my table rings.*Tring*"Hi, boo." I hear a lady purring from the other side. I clear my throat and speak, "Your boo cheated on you and I killed him. You are welcome." And I keep the phone back on the table.*Tring*I roll my eyes as I pick the phone again, "Excus
Emara StoneI feel my heart jumping wildly inside my ribcage. My heartbeats are loud enough to be heard without a stethoscope. I keep my hand on my throbbing chest, close my mouth, and take deep breaths from my nostrils.I look around and see familiar paintings on walls, clothes on the floor, cupboards overflowing with books, desk with empty coke bottles.Phew! It's my room.I try to recall what I was even dreaming about. My forehead is dripping with sweat, my white t-shirt is sticking to my skin drenched in sweat. I get up from the bed and walk towards the bathroom.I switched on the light, which was a bad move as it partially blinded me, I had to blink a few times to adjust my eyesight with the light. I stand in front of the washbasin and open the tap to splash cold water on my face.I look up i
Emara Stone"I am counting till three if you didn't, I'll tear your clothes off."Is this fucker serious?"One."Is this really happening?"Two."I thought he was gay."Three."He didn't even wait to complete 'three' and I feel him withdraw his hand from my neck while he roughly grabs one side of my shirt and with other pulls my pants forcefully towards him. I never met a maniac like him in my whole life. He is mental.“Ahhh, HELP!” I scream, realizing that I am going to get raped by my gay boss. He stops his movement. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU? TELL ME!" And again shouts as he demands an answer. I flinch back into the wall, feeling really scared and petrified of my boss. He is a psycho.R
Emara StoneIt's a dark paradise, a pitch-black hole where I am floating. Am I dead? Is this how it feels like after death? No one waiting for you on the other side. No one welcoming you.My body feels light and cold while I freely float into the dark matter of the universe. Wild universe devouring me slowly. Am I high?Suddenly I see a tiny white light blazing far away from me. I think I am close to heaven. I move my hands and legs fast to float towards the light. The light gets bigger as I paddle my limbs faster. I am close. Suddenly the light got so intensely bright, that I had to shut my eyes. Heaven blinding me! I open my eyes, the direct flash on my eyes made me see tiny stars, I blink a few times to adjust to the heavens lighting system. I see a high glass ceiling, the glass has mosaic artworks made up of blue glass and a cresc
Alpha Ryan DamisonI look at him with a look, 'Two can play this game'. I push Ethan with my hips playfully, he stumbles to his right. Ethan again pushes me with much more force than before and I stumble to my left.We probably look like two drunk friends with arm in arm, trying to walk. I look at Ethan, give him my signature smile, and push him with a little strength. This time his arm delinks from mine as he stumbles and falls into the swimming pool with a loud splash.All the dizziness and tipsiness from alcohol leaves my body immediately. I was about to jump after Ethan but then I remember he has a silver medal in swimming. Ethan flaps his hands in water like a dog does, trying to fool me he is drowning so that I jump into the cold water too.Very smart, mate. But I am extra smart."Get out of the water now Ethan, if you don't want to clean the pool later." I shout at him, then walk away
Alpha Ryan DamisonThere was silence on both sides of the phone.I waited for him to speak, but he didn't. His silence was deafening, unbearable for me to hear. Is he in shock? Did I hurt him? My heart clenches at the thought of disbanding Ethan from my life."Ethan? Say something. I know I am being very selfish but you have to understand why I am doing this." It is hard to form a sentence with my heart bleeding out for what I just did. But Ethan remains silent.It's been over ten minutes since he said nothing whereas I am trying to convince him to forgive me. I feel miserable, like shit. Why is it so hard to break up although we were never together? I can't live without hearing his sweet melon voice.Though I rejected him, I still want to see him every day and hear his voice. That's the deal."I am very s
Emara StoneI reach the office building and straight away rush to the seventh floor. I knock twice but no sound came, so I slowly open the door. I see hotty on the couch with a bottle in his hand talking to someone on the phone. Wait! Is he crying?"Ay am very sowie. Pilizz unda-standh meh. Ay am soo.. sowie. Tok tu meh pilizz. Saie shomethang. Annythang pillizzz." He says in a sloppy manner.I look around and see the furniture is gone, there are wood pieces and glass on the floor. The room looks like it went through a tsunami and tornado together. What happened in the last one hour??"Sir?" I speak loudly to catch his attention. He looks at me, then at his phone, then again at me confusedly.Ryan abruptly stands up straight. There is an alcohol bottle in one hand and phone in another. He stiffl
Emara StoneRita dropped me home.Exactly at the door of my apartment, but I know she wanted to drop me to my bed. She was waiting for me to call her inside for a coffee or something, but I straight away thanked her and went inside. And locked the door. Savage, I know.I ain't into chicks. Coz I am a chick ;)Also, I have pictures of me and Ethan hanging in our living room. I can't risk my identity. I toss my phone on the bed, remove my clothes, and throw them on the floor, then directly run for a shower. Shower! Oh god.Shower is a wet heaven.Finally, no more periods. Yasssssss, I am one of those lucky females on the earth who only bleed for four days. I wash my hair in two minutes, now that they are short it is easy to shampoo them also I need not to comb or dry them for hours. I love my short hair. So silky, so
Alpha Ryan DamisonI shake my head furiously as I feel my eyes shifting to black then back to my golden brown color. The focus of my retina keeps on changing as Dakota tries to take over my mind. A fight for control between me and my wolf which I am not willing to give. Focus.I want our mate. OUR MATE RYAN.Errr! I fall on my knees as I feel my vertebral column shifting into an animal's, the bones break then join again to change its shape.I can feel my chest expanding, the shirt and suit on my human form are suffocating me, ceasing the beast inside me. I immediately remove the suit, not wanting to watch it tear into pieces. Bitch, it's Versace.Animalistic growls release from my throat, my claws scratch the wooden floor as they slowly replace my nails. Dark razor-sharp deadly claws digging in hardwood and scraping out the wood. I ca
Alpha Ryan DamisonI walk inside my office's cabin, I see newly furnished table and chairs. I remember how I lost control over my anger on Thursday and broke them into a hundred pieces. Dammit!Ethan saw me watching porn, he probably thinks I am gay. I remember how shocked and red his face was. I should have locked the door.Ryan! I need my mate or else I'll go berserk. I can't control it for this long.I avoid Dakota.Will you stop playing I am hard to get? I want to mate with our mate.I again avoid him.Ryan! Don't pretend that you don't want to spank him.Shut up, Dakota. We are never mating with him. And that is final.I block him in my head before he could growl at me or try to dominate my human form. I have had enough of his purring mate shit. I have always been strict with my pack, followed Alpha duties and even as a bos
Emara StoneI switch on the light, then slowly open the bathroom door. I peek my head inside to look if there is Ryan or any hot ghost hiding in the corner, who is waiting to finger me. But the bathroom is empty, just like my wallet.It was just a dream. Nothing happened.I remind myself of yesterday's incident with Ryan, it is painful to accept that he is gay. I walk inside spin my head in all directions. I stand in front of the washbasin and look in the mirror, just like in my dream. I wait for Ryan to appear and jump at me, but nothing happens. I turn around to make sure I am alone in the bathroom.I am alone. Just like every other night. All alone.I feel a little disappointed as I wanted Ryan to touch me and kiss me just like he did in my dream. I still remember how his tongue rolled over my skin and how his eyes were virtually impregnating me.Never in my life, I had one sexual