Bonnie The moment the door closes I let the tears fall. I meant every word that I said to my mate. I do understand that it doesn't always work. Sometimes a wolf finds their mate but doesn't want them, other times there is a chosen mate that they would rather and there's also the rare occasion where a wolf doesn't want a mate at all, and while I don't think that is the case for Alpha Nicholas given that he's an Alpha and they are much more possessive of mates, I wouldn't be surprised if it's the first and second option when it comes to my mate. I wouldn't be surprised at him not wanting me and I'm almost certain that there's more to him and that she-wolf that he was helping at the ball.Regardless of what his reasoning is I just want him to be happy and if that means him rejecting me then I'm ok with that, it just means that I need to figure out a new plan for my life. Sadness washes over me as I think of my life without Lily but she's got her Mate now and I couldn't be anymore happie
Alpha Nicholas"Nicky! Nicky. Where are you?" I jump as my brother's voice booms in my pounding head. I sit up and instantly wince at the stiffness in my neck. Where the hell am I? I look around quickly remembering sitting in my office after my mate left and the two empty whiskey bottles explain why my head feels like it's been used as a punching bag. "Jeusu fuck!" I grunt as I stretch and stand up before heading to the bathroom attached to my office. I need a piss and a shower. Luckily for me, I keep spare clothes in there too for emergencies."Nick. Fucking answer!" Shit, I forgot that Will was linking me. "What do you want?" He laughs making my head rattle and I just wanna punch him. "Oh, I see someone is extra grumpy today. Where the fuck are you? I've been banging on your door for ages." Great! "I'm in my office, ended up falling asleep in here.""Well, get the fuck up here, it's almost 9." Fuck I don't think I've ever slept that late before. He must be wrong. I walk over to my ph
Alpha NicholasWe've been searching the woods for over 2 hours and I'm starting to lose hope when Storm suddenly starts growling and a scent hits my nose. It's faint but I'd know that scent anywhere, it's my mate. "I can smell her!" I shout causing Lily to almost fall over a fallen tree truck in her rush to reach me, luckily for her, Shane had his eyes on her and managed to stop her. "Where is she?" I try to focus on her scent but it's still too faint to figure that out. Storms kicking up a storm in my head snarling and growling with the need to find her while my chest continues to burn. Can wolves have heart attacks? because I think I may be having one."Her scent is faint but if I can smell her then she can't be too far away." My brothers and Lily start talking but I ignore them as I try and focus on the scent and where it is. "Storm can you feel where she is?" With him being a wolf his senses are even better than mine. "So now you want to be near her?" Here we fucking go. "Don't sta
Alpha NicholasI can feel Lexi pulling away from me. She wants to run and while I don't blame her for that, I still can't let her do it. I Can feel Bonnie slowly fading and it's driving me fucking crazy. If it comes down to it I will haul her ass back to the pack house and deal with her anger later as long as she gets taken care of I don't give a fuck, but I'd like her to come willingly. I don't deserve it but I just need her to trust me. Deciding to give her a little something I get down on my knees so she's standing over me and pretty much beg her to let me help her."Lexi. I know you have no reason to trust me, I get it, I really do. But I promise that nothing will happen to Bonnie. I just want to help. I've not been acting as I should, I know that. I've been a fucking fool! but I just want to help, that is all." She lets out a whine but doesn't give me any kind of answer. "Let me talk to her." Storm's voice booms in my head. He's so worked up that I can feel how tense he is. I agr
Alpha NicholasIt's been two days since I brought Bonnie to the doctor and she's still unconscious and I've not left her room. I shower in the ensuite bathroom attached to her room and my brothers, Lily, and my parents bring me anything I need along with endless amounts of food that I don't want. Since the moment the doc left us alone I've felt sick and I'm pretty sure that Storm is feeling the same, only I don't know for sure because he hasn't spoken to me since we got here. Of course, before he went on a silent strike he made sure I knew what he thought. He said that this is all my fault, that if I had accepted my mate the night we met then she wouldn't have been hurt and she wouldn't be here, and as much as I want to deny it I can't, he's right. This is all my fault and the idea of her being hurt because of me feels like a knife to the heart."Hey, Dad." Lottie's soft voice takes my attention away from where I've been standing at the window thinking over these last few girls. My br
Bonnie“Bonnie… Bonnie, you're awake, fuck you're awake!" He jumps out of his chair and quickly presses a button on the wall before standing right next to me. “How are you feeling? Does anything hurt? Why didn't you tell me what was going on with you? Why did you run?” He's throwing question after question at me and I don't have enough time to even think about an answer never mind do it. Jesus my head hurts.“Alpha, maybe we could give Bonnie a few minutes to wake up before we start with the questions?” A guy in a white coat says as he walks into the room and over to my bed. He's an older man with streaks of grey in his hair and crazy bright blue eyes and it doesn't take a genius to figure out that he was a looker when he was younger.“Yeah, sure, fine.” My mate grunts unhappy but I'm not sure if he's more pissed at being told what to do or the fact that he can't wait to interrogate me. Wait, what did he mean when he asked me why I didn't tell him what was going on with me? What does
Alpha NicholasShe threw me out of her room... She threw me out. She may not have done it physically but it was clear that she meant it and as much as I wanted to ignore her and just stay there, she deserves to be treated with some respect. Yes, I know I'm not exactly doing that when it comes to our whole mate bond situation but that's why I can at least try and give her the respect she deserves in other areas. I'm still not happy about being kicked out but I have to admit that seeing some of her feisty side come out was quite enjoyable."Hey, son. How is she doing?" My mom's voice echoes in the small hallway where I've been sitting on the world's most uncomfortable chair for the last 15 minutes. She may have kicked me out of her room but she didn't say I couldn't sit outside of it. "She woke up for a little while then asked me to leave so she could get some more sleep hence me sitting here like a lost sheep." My mom chuckles as she comes to sit beside me but instead pulls the chair a
Bonnie"Are you ready to talk now, Bonnie?” Nope, not at all, but here goes nothing I guess. "Yes." There is a lot I want to say, a lot I need to know, but I'm not going to go first. He hasn't been very kind to me so far and the least he can do is go first and maybe explain to me why he doesn't want me. "I know we have a lot to talk about, but first I just want to clear something up. You mentioned earlier about me having women in my life, and I was wondering what you meant?" "Just what I said. I know you have a woman, but again, as long as she makes you happy, then I'm happy for you." I'm not sure what else I'm supposed to say. Yes, the thought of him with someone else hurts like hell, but that's his choice, and I'm not going to try and force him into something he doesn't want, namely a relationship with me. He looks confused as he stares at me. "I don't know where you got that from, but I assure you, I don't have women in my life, not in the relationship sense anyway." "I saw you a
Alpha NicholasAfter spending twenty minutes between my mate's legs and drawing several orgasms from her, I'm so turned on I'm harder than a box of nails, and as much as I want to spend several more hours between her legs, I want to get my dick between them even more, I need to. I place one more kiss on her mound as I pull my fingers out of her soaking-wet pussy and can't help but smirk when she makes a noise of protest. My girl is greedy when it comes to orgasms and I fucking love it."I haven't finished with you yet, baby girl. Don't worry." I look up to see her smiling, but it quickly turns into a moan when I gently slap her pussy before slowly making my way up her body, leaving a trail of kisses along the way. I cover her body with mine as I reach her mouth and dive in kissing her with all I have. I groan as our tongues tangle together, and I explore every inch of her mouth. Fuck, will I ever get enough of her?I pull back when I'm out of breath and watch as my mate's chest rises
BonnieBoy, has it been a day! A very long, emotionally draining day, but I'm oddly kind of glad that it happened. Of course, hearing Lottie talk to me about how she felt and taking in the words that she said and the meaning behind it all was heartbreaking, but I do believe that having her talk to Nick and me about how she's been feeling was a good thing.One because it explains why she said all of the things that she did and two because maybe now that she has finally said everything out loud, it will help her too because she had a lot of thoughts and feelings and while some of them are a result from the pain that her birth mom has caused her during her life, some of them also just resembled an act of a jealous teenage girl.The quicker she learns that she isn't going to be replaced or forgotten or lose me or this baby the better because I hate to think of her suffering like that. And while I can't promise that nothing won't happen to the baby, I can promise that I will do everything p
Alpha Nicholas Hearing my daughter's fears was hard. I never want her to be scared of anything, but whereas I will always do my best to protect her from physical harm, I can't do a lot to protect her from her mental fears. As much as I want to, it's just not possible. The scars that her birth mom left behind have the potential to haunt her for a long time, possibly even for the rest of her life.As hard as it must be for her to feel how she does or how she did, I can't and won't allow her to talk to anyone like she did, especially Bonnie. While she has my sympathy, if I let her get away with this without any kind of punishment, then I won't be doing my job as her dad. Yes, her words had meaning and I somewhat understand how she feels, but she didn't need to talk to Bonine like she did, and just the mere thought of her in any way mentioning killing the baby has me seeing red.If I let her speak to Bonnie... her stepmom... her Luna like she did, then I can only imagine how she could sp
BonnieI'd be lying if I said that hearing those words out of Lottie's mouth didn't break my heart and I can both sense and feel that Nick feels the same. There are so many things that I want to say to her right now, but I hold back both wanting and feeling that Nick should take the lead here.He takes a deep breath while keeping his eyes locked with hers. "If that's the truth, then yes, that's what I want to hear. We need to get to the bottom of whatever is going on, no matter how hard it may be for you to say or for us to hear." Nick tries to remain calm, but I can feel his emotions, and they are all over the place. "So, is that the truth?"She nods her head as she wipes more tears away from her eyes. "Why, sweetheart? Why are you feeling jealous?" She stares at Nick, but I can see it in her eyes. She is struggling to word what she wants to say, but I'm pretty sure that I have it figured out, so I just go with it and blurt it out. "Lottie, am I right in thinking that you're jealous
BonnieI hate the feeling that everyone is currently against Lottie, or having any kind of bad thoughts against her, and while I know it's stupid given the situation, I just can't help it. There is already a protective streak inside me when it comes to Lottie and, regardless of the situation, it's hard to switch off."Lottie, would you like to tell your grandparents and uncles what you have done, or even better why?" Nick asks her, although it's more of a command than a question. Lottie's face slightly pales while everyone in the room just looks confused, and I get it.While Lottie is a typical 16-year-old girl with hair, makeup and talks about finding mates being a part of her daily life, from what I've been told and come to learn myself since I've been here, it doesn't appear that Lottie has caused a lot of trouble in her life. She seems to be a pretty well-behaved girl, so I can only imagine that everyone is a bit confused right now.I grab my mate's attention and lean into him, ke
Alpha Nicholas"I'm sorry, sweetheart. Can you say that again?" My mate hiccups as she tries to calm herself down and control her breathing. "Lottie, She said that you don't want any more children. She said that you have never wanted any other children aside from her." What the fuck is my daughter playing at?While I know that my daughter isn't innocent because let's be honest, no children are, I still can't imagine her ever being mean to Bonnie, especially over a baby, and her baby brother or sister at that. Growing up, she had always wanted a sibling, so why would she react like this now? Whatever her reason, I'm fucking angry and my pregnant mate is completely heartbroken, and I want this shit sorted out right now!"Where is she?" I growl. I'm trying to keep my anger under control, but it's so fucking hard right now. "I don't want this to... I..." Before she can finish her sentence she breaks down crying once more, and I swear that every single tear that she shreds feels like it te
Bonnie After not feeling well for a few days, I was starting to get a little worried. Werewolves don't generally get ill, but here I was constantly tired. I was sick in the mornings and my appetite was all over the place and yet, I still didn't put the pieces together, but Nick's mom did. Earlier today, while the guys were down in the cells, she came to see me. Nick had gone to her worried about me and, because so far I had refused to see a doctor, he had asked her to come and see me, hoping that maybe he could figure out what was wrong with me.Of course, within minutes of me telling her what was wrong, she had worked it out all while a massive smile appeared on her face. The moment she told me that she was certain that I was pregnant, I wanted to pass out. Of course, looking back now, I realize that the symptoms were all there screaming in my face, but for some reason, I had missed them all.I generally hadn't even thought about the possibility that I could be pregnant, which was s
Alpha NicholasThe moment I step on to the Alpha floor, I feel my body instantly start to relax and, after a quick chat with my parents, my dad ushers her, the girls and the guards out of my lounge and off my floor, clearly sensing my need for alone time with my mate, which I appreciate. Before he left, he insisted on having the guards stationed at the bottom of the stairs that lead to my floor, which I have no problem with. They are close enough for our protection, more importantly, the protection of my mate, but also far enough away not to impose on any of my alone time with my mate. The stairs that they are now guarding are the only way to gain access to my floor, so I can finally allow my mind to settle and forget about all the shit that's going on, even if it's only for a few hours.When I first stepped on to our floor, I could faintly smell Bonnie's scent, but the moment I entered our bedroom it hit me in the face like a hammer, and I'm instantly in need of her. I look down at t
Alpha Nicholas"So I get why you changed your mind about talking to anyone, but why were you hiding in the bushes when they all ran? Surely you would have known that you would have been caught?" Shane asks Alberto as I sit back and let him take the reins. "That's what I was hoping for," he grunts."What? Why?" Robbie asks, taking the words right out of my mouth. "I figured that while I couldn't come to you off my own back if you caught me while we were trying to hide and escape, then it was out of my control." I'll give it to him, it wasn't the smartest move in the world but not the worst either."So you hoped that we would find you and bring you here so that you could tell us what was going on? Maybe hoped that we would help you?" Shane asks. Alberto nods, agreeing while shifting himself in his seat, looking uncountable. "There's no way that you didn't think that there was a chance that we would kill you for the betrayal before you could even tell us anything. What if our men had kil