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Bonnie

Author: becky j
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Bonnie

The moment the door closes I let the tears fall. I meant every word that I said to my mate. I do understand that it doesn't always work. Sometimes a wolf finds their mate but doesn't want them, other times there is a chosen mate that they would rather and there's also the rare occasion where a wolf doesn't want a mate at all, and while I don't think that is the case for Alpha Nicholas given that he's an Alpha and they are much more possessive of mates, I wouldn't be surprised if it's the first and second option when it comes to my mate. I wouldn't be surprised at him not wanting me and I'm almost certain that there's more to him and that she-wolf that he was helping at the ball.

Regardless of what his reasoning is I just want him to be happy and if that means him rejecting me then I'm ok with that, it just means that I need to figure out a new plan for my life. Sadness washes over me as I think of my life without Lily but she's got her Mate now and I couldn't be anymore happie
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