CHAPTER 1

Nathan POV

 Love, that was the only thing I could whisper, the only song I could sing, and the air that gave me life.

  I am Alpha Nathan and tomorrow is the day I was going to be united with the one I loved and it made me feel on top of the world.

 I walked together that cool evening with my heart Luna Elsa to her lodge holding her hands with love and affection.

 "Goodbye Love," I whispered into her ears and turned around to leave but then, she pulled me back and we were locked gaze, our faces so close that I could feel the air coming from her nostrils.

 "Don't leave me," she whispered straight at my face with tears already forming in the corner of her eyes.

  I felt crushed seeing those teary eyes. I loved her so much, so bad that I would kill for her sake but I had to go because it was about to rain.

 "Just tomorrow, my love and we will be one forever." I said to her with love in my eyes.

 "I feel safe with you." she said to me but not with love but in a very odd way, with fear I would say but why was she afraid? She didn't look certain like she always did.

 "I am just making things up." I thought inwardly and threw my odd thoughts away immediately. "She was only missing me already." I assumed rationally.

 "Don't worry my love, soon I will be by your side all day long." I said to her and planted a kiss on her forehead.

 She kissed me back but this time, right on the lips, and soon, we were lost kissing each other passionately.

 I placed my hands on her head while we were locked up in a deep kiss. A few minutes later, I had to pull away from her.

 "I love you but I have to go now before the rain starts," I whispered into her ears and walked away from her.

 And out of her life too for that was the last time I set my eyes on her.

 The sky was covered by a thick layer of darkness and lightening struck.

 I doubled up my step, to beat the rain before it began.

 I got home and fell asleep on the bed. Tomorrow was going to be the greatest day of my life but never did I think that anything could go wrong in such an awkward way.

I woke up a few hours later with a very uneasy feeling. Something was wrong somewhere but I couldn't tell what exactly it was. I stared at the time, it was just 10 pm.

 I stared at my cellphone right beside me and I could see that I had missed about fifteen calls.

 "Fifteen calls," I said to myself. "Who would this person be?" I thought.

 I unlocked my phone and searched through the call logs only to discover that it was my love, Elsa.

 "Why all the calls?" I thought. "We just left each other some hours ago," I said, already getting worried. 

 "I will have to go for her now."

 I jumped out from the bed and got dressed immediately. I got a cab and immediately got to her place.

 At the door, I hit the doorbell twice but there was no response and it got me extremely worried. It was totally unlike her.

 "What.... going on?" I said with a stuttery voice.

I placed my hands on the handle and turned it out for me, that door wasn't locked.

 I could feel my heart beating hard against my chest and cold shivers ran down my spine as I walked into the cold building. 

 "Elsa!!" I called out but the echoes of the room were the only response I got.

 "Elsa," I called again but there was still no response.

"Where would she have gone with her door wide open?" I thought still trying to battle my wild imaginations off.

 "She might be in her room with her headset on. That's the reason she could not hear me when I called." I formulated an explanation for it.

 But somewhere deep down inside me, I knew things had gone way too bad.

 I walked toward her room and right there, my fears were confirmed.

It was a strike that rendered me broken to my bones and tears gradually poured down from my eyes.

 She was hanged to the roof with a roop, lifeless and cold.

 "No!!!" I sobbed. "Not when we have less than twenty-four hours to be one forever," I cried out as fresh tears poured down from my eyes.

 I stared at the floor and saw a note. "I am sorry love but I have decided to end my life, I can't stand the harsh realities of this world anymore." the note read.

"But what harsh realities, what!!" I yelled.

 She was perfect, living fine and booming with life. Then it struck me, "until this evening..." I muttered.

 She knew something was going to go wrong, that's why she wanted me to stay with her but I wasn't sensitive enough. I yelled releasing more tears from my eyes.

"There is something more to this than what I am looking at." I said to myself.

 I searched for something that could tell me the truth. That was all wanted, the truth.

 I found her phone on the floor and I searched through the message and the call logs swiftly and I found something.

 "I am... Under atta.." The message was still in her draft, incomplete and wasn't sent. And she was about sending it to me.

 "She was murdered." I said aloud in affirmative, heartbroken even more.

 And her murderer wants it to seem as though she committed suicide.

 I found a way to get her down from up there and I rested my head on her cold lifeless body.

 "Tell me this is not true, tell me it's all a dream." I sobbed with my tears wetting her clothes.

 "And you were so nice. Why would anyone murder you...?" I yelled looking so confused.

 And that was how the one I loved so much, my mate was taken away from me by the cold hands of death.

 I watched a week later, on a dark October morning as she was lowered to the ground in the pack and members mourned her sorrowful dismissal.

 When she was lowered, I proceeded to pour the first handful of sand on her body.

 I fell swiftly to the floor and packed my hands filled with sand as fresh tears poured down from my eyes, recalling every bit of those great moments we spent together. Those memories can't be erased easily.

 "I promise not to let your murderers go scout free. I will hunt them down and make sure they experience ten thousand times the pain they caused you before your death." I vowed and poured the earth on her body.

And in the end, fate made it so obvious that - not everyone needs to groom love. I think I wasn't part of the game.

Her death changed me.