Prologue

Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. All characters appearing in this work are a work of fiction and only a product of my imagination. Enjoy reading!

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Did you ever wonder when will be your last day living in this world? What will be the last word you will say to your loved ones, who will be the last person that you will see at your last moment.

It's either a doctor or a person who will bring an end to you?

They say before you go and leave this world you will begin to have a flashback, you will remember all the bad decisions that you made that will bring regrets to you, all the things that you kept, will be turned into memories and you will always wish to go back and feel it over again. In a moment, you're still with your loved ones, eating dinner with them, making them laugh, you still have the freedom to say what you want to say to them but in a blink of an eye, that thing you treasure will disappear like a dream.

Because right now, that's the things that I feel as I fight for the incoming end that soon will remove my existence in this world.

"Don't close your eyes! Stay with me, Kali! Stay with me!" my mother said with fear and tears in her eyes as they push me with a stretcher to the emergency room full of stab wounds, my head hurt like crazy too that felt like my brain will explode.

Everyone that I loved is there looking at me with fear and discomfort like it is hard for them to see me in pain, like in just the blink of an eye they know they will lose me.

It seems like my ears go deaf and everything is in slow motion as I hear their cries and scream telling me not to leave them, but I don't know if I can still hold on, I don't know if my love for them is good enough to fight my fate. I am just blankly looking at the lights in a ceiling that we passed while they quickly push the stretcher so my life will be saved right away.

But I don't know if holding on is still my choice right now... because it felt like that the deities already decide on my fate.

"I'm here Kali, please don't give up please don't leave me, please my love I love you" his voice sounds like a mixture of fear and hope as he holds my hand to make me feel that I'm not alone. As long as I want to answer him, there's no voice coming from my mouth. I'm just blankly looking at him as if my brain stops my body from moving.

He's the one that keeps me alive, but I think this will be the last time that I can saw his face, the last moment that I can hold his hand, and it pains me that the last thing I will remember is the pain and tears in his eyes.

I don't want to leave them full of regrets because I failed to show and say what I need to say.

I look to my loved ones, memorizing their face and if God wants to take my life today, let me borrow a minute or even seconds to bid my goodbye for them, so they can continue to live their life like how they used to be, so they can wake up every day not blaming their self because they failed to protect me.

An excruciating pain dominates my brain and I tightly hold Charlie's hands and the moment I close my eyes, a memory flash in my mind like an unforeseen thunder of what happened that leads me to that kind of situation.

Friday Afternoon, the sun is set and the breeze of the December wind touches my skin that makes me shiver. As I watch the sunset on the soccer field in my university, a pen and sketchbook on my lap while thinking for a new concept for my painting when I saw Charlie smiling at me as he approaches me where I am, a smile that makes my heart beats so fast, the smile that always makes me vulnerable. He's wearing his white coat, meaning that he just finished his shift from the hospital before coming here. He's an intern doctor and I'm so proud of him. He holds my hand and I just watch him do the thing that always melts my heart, enjoying his dark but angelic face and listens how my heart beats so fast on his every touch.

"Why are you looking at me like that," he asks as he notices my weird gaze at him.

I really don't know why I feel like I memorizing every part of him right now, I think I really just miss him because of his busy schedule.

"I missed you," I said and hug him, he hugs me back and kisses the top of my head

"I miss you too! what do you want to do today?" he asks, but his phone suddenly rang, he apologetically smiled at me before answering his phone.

He answer his phone and give medical instruction to the person he's talking to, I feel like it's emergency and our quality time will be postponed again.

He ends his call but before he speaks. I just smiled at him and just intertwined our hands together.

"It's okay, you need to prioritize learning saving lives," I said before we stand up to leave the university.

The hospital he's attending is just in front of my university. He insists to take me home but I told him that he got an important patient.

"I'm okay love, you're job is more important. I just call you when I got home okay?"

I bid goodbye to him and remove my hands on him and kiss his cheeks. He watches me as I enter the bus and I just waved my hands to him and sign him to go inside the hospital.

If I knew, that will be the last time that I will be holding his hand like that, I shouldn't have let go...

A while ago, the beauty of sunset in the sky became gloomy, meaning that a storm will come in that day.

When I got to our subdivision and the rain starts pouring, I hear the roar of a thunderstorm. I take out my umbrella before I walk to the dark alley to our house. Our subdivision is new and still developing that's why they're still few people who live there, there's no light in every alley that I passed by that makes it dangerous when your walking alone at night.

I just make my walk faster so I can go home right away because except for the dark alley, the rain became strong that start to block my sight.

I jump in surprised when I hear my phone rang, and when I check it it's my mother. When I try to answer it, I see a flash of lightning followed by a roar of a thunderstorm so I just ignore the call, afraid that If I answer it, the lightning will really hit me.

I don't know if it's because of the thunderstorm but I hear a footstep that felt like that someone is following me. At this point, I'm in an alley where there are houses that are still in construction, no lights, and no people who are working because it's almost 6 pm and raining.

I stopped for a while and together with the strong roar of thunder is my heart beating so fast because of nervousness and fear. The strong lighting became my light for a while and I feel how horrified I am when I see a shadow of someone holding a knife.

I looked straight on the way I need to take and start to walk again when I feel that someone behind me is still following me, I immediately try to bring out the pepper spray that my father buys for me but before I get it I hear the footstep walking faster going near to me, that's why the umbrella slept away in my hands as I start running for my life.

Because the fear starts to dominate my body and because of the strong pouring rain, I didn't see anymore where my feet lead me, I can't think clearly and see the way to our house which was the only place where I know will be safe.

Tears start coming out of my eyes, I don't know who that is but she or he is trying to take my life from me. And I'm not ready for it!

I know I will not save myself from crying but the fear starts to lead to my system. My phone rang again and this time I don't care if the lightning will hit me because this time, It's okay to be killed by that instead of the person who plans to murder me. In this very dark place where no one can see or hear me.

When I get my phone, it is Charlie on my caller ID and I immediately answer it.

"Where the hell are you—"

"SOMEONE WANTS TO KILL ME! I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM—" before I can continue what I need to say, someone hits my head that makes me dizzy which caused me to fall to the cold ground. I touch my head and see the blood on my hands, and even though I still feel dizzy and weak, I still try to stand up to attempt again to run for my life and scream for help, but before I did all of it. Someone grabs my hand to stop me from running again.

Disbelief and fear dominate me as I saw her face, fear to her face full of anger and envy.

I saw a creepy smile that makes my fear intensified.

"Don't worry, I will make it easy for you"

And before I can seek help, a knife stabs me many times in the different parts of my body that felt like that this person is going blind by anger that it's almost forgotten who I am. She continues to stab me and I see how she enjoys it with a smile on her face like it gives her satisfaction.

"How...Eloise...." I said as I think for my friend who always has my back and will do anything to protect me even though I know she will not hear it. I touch her hand to make her stop, to remind her who I am but she's too strong and felt like she will not stop until she sees that I'm not breathing anymore. Before she stabs me again, I hear a group of footsteps and a strong light coming from here that made her stop. She faces me again and whispers to my ears.

"This is what you get for not listening to me... Lillybeth" she said and kissed my cheeks before running away from me down to the dark alley, so no one can see her.

A roar of a serene police car is the last thing I hear before I found myself in a stretcher and my mom and charlie rushing me into the emergency room.

I see how Charlie is eager to enter the Emergency room to follow me with his white coat with my blood on it. But the nurses stop him. I force myself to smile at him so he can stop. Their eyes full of tears is the last thing I saw before the door of the emergency room closed.

I can't understand what happening to me anymore, many doctors keep screaming to each other about what they need to do. The nurses keep injecting me with something until I didn't feel the pain anymore.

I slowly close my eyes and was tired of every pain I experienced. The moment I closed my eyes, I hear A flat line, and all the fear and pain disappear as I see my body on a hospital bed with a lot of blood on it.