January 1, 2012

January 1, 2012

Elijah's Perspective

It's exactly 12: am, everyone was drowning themselves with wines and alcohol, celebrating the first day of this year, while me? I felt damn heartbroken.

"What's the matter?" Mr. Bruce asked, my father's personal bodyguard, in addition to him, he was like my father, he loved me as my father did.

"Nothing, Mr. Bruce," I lied and smiled at him.

"You're not good in lying, Mr. Elijah, do you know that?" he said and I chuckled. He read me again, he always does.

"Well, I'm just a little bit unwell, Mr. Bruce, you don't have to worry," I replied, and he smiled.

"You miss that girl, right?" he said and he really impressed me until that moment. He was remarkably good in reading person, he always did. 

Hmm, I don't know," I just answered, but he was right, I missed that stupid future wife of mine so badly. I've been waiting for her answer that night, I knew she saw the ring and that note but I didn't receive any message from her.

I was nervous and feel afraid that she wasn't interested in me or maybe she got mad that's why she never contacted me but wasn't it is unfair? If she didn't like me she can just tell me, instead of not contacting me or whatever reason she has. 

I honestly wanted to call or meet her but I didn't, I wanted to see if she would miss me if I was not around her nor I wasn't bombering her inbox with text messages, but I failed. Six freaking days had passed yet she still didn't contact me.

"Stephanie, you're making your husband heartbroken, how could you manage to sleep without talking to me? While I, I am going crazy when I couldn't see you yet I'm tolerating the pain."

Mr. Bruce left and he tapped my back before leaving me, then I heard Stephanie's mother came to visit, I was excited to meet them halfway that I almost flee but I didn't see Stephanie with her. I tried looking around but she was not in everywhere of the place, I asked her mother and found out that she was invited by her friend that's why she came here to have a visit to her friends also.

"Where are you?"

 I wanted to text her badly but I kept resisting my hands to press the send button. I didn't want her to laugh at me, but what else could I do, she might be with Candice, Bert's twin brother, and I'm sure she didn't meet her and left her mother because of entertainment but because of Bert, that nerdy boy.

Well, Bert was her longtime crush, she used to confess to him before but got rejected because Bert was not interested in girls, he was more into his studies, poor him he just let go of a girl that he could rarely find. Stephanie might be too loud, not nice at all haha, but she is different, she has a big heart, despite her scary face, and how she looked serious every day, she was still the most beautiful woman in my eyes. But regardless of how cold Bert was treating her, she was still in love with him, and I was a freaking dumb who failed to win her heart even her attention. It's been a year since our parents told us about our wedding yet nothing changed after that, she was still the same, she always sees me the way she looks at me before.

I was tempted to call her, scold her and tell her to meet me but damn, I couldn't, who am I to do that. I spent my new year too lonely and hopeless. 

''Stephanie, what are you doing to me?'' her face kept showing inside my brain, then I couldn't stop thinking what might they were doing, or are they gotten closer? Damn mind, I don't know what am I supposed to think or do. 

 After an hour of being restless and kept thinking of Stephanie, I sneaked out and drove to Candice's house. I parked my car, got out and I was like a weirdo, peeking out here at their gate, checking if Stephanie was inside the house, I was crazy.

'' Damn if she finds out what I am doing right now, I'm sure I will never show my face to her ever again. This is embarrassing, I don't know why am I doing this either,'' I murmured still trying to find Stephanie inside.

I was busy jumping, peeking, or whatever I could do just to see if she was inside, I was like a freaking spy, weird one yet handsome, haha. 

''Hahaha,'' I heard Stephanie's laughter from the distance and I smiled, ''Got yah, I knew it,'' I thought and slowly tip-toed to peek where she at. I hid behind the bush that was planted beside their gate and looked inside. I saw her drinking something and laughing out loud, gosh my heart, it's pounding again.

 I smiled and watched her then I saw Bert went near her and she immediately put her hair behind her ear, trying to get his attention.

I chuckled, ''Stephanie...Stephanie... You're still trying to flirt with him when he rejected you twice, stupid,'' I whispered, still laughing quietly, hiding crazily, but then as I kept watching them I saw Bert picked something from his pocket and showed it to Stephanie.

''What is that?" I thought and then I saw Stephanie teared up and hugged him.

''What's going on?" I thought, and the next thing that happened was Bert went behind her and wore a necklace to her neck. I was confused.

''Are they...?'' I stopped thinking for I knew it was impossible, it was maybe just a gift and I was the only one overreacting here, yeah, yeah, it's impossible, Bert wasn't interested in her, but that was only what I thought because I confirmed with my own eyes that they had something when I saw Bert slowly kissed Stephanie in her lips.  I looked behind me immediately because I couldn't withstand seeing them kissing.

I went back inside my car and gasped some breath, my heart was sinking, I felt betrayed. 

I didn't know that it would affect me too much that I could feel my tears flowing continuously.

''You're weak, Elijah,'' I whimpered for myself and that kissed kept flashing inside my head.

''So this is how it feels to be heartbroken for real,'' I whispered and left the place. I was still surprised, I know things like this might happened but I thought that she won't dare open her heart knowing that she would marry me in the end after all. 

''You're an idiot, Elijah, believing she'll pick you,'' I cried and just tried to act okay in front of my family and to our visitors.