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Chapter 9: The Zoo
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Blood continues to drip down his sleeves. Do I pretend I never saw it? Do I say something?
"You've been hurt. Let me get a few band-aids from my bag. Then, you can help yourself."
I hand Jeremy the band-aids. I pull out my book and begin reading. It's none of my business unless he makes it my business. Jeremy doesn't strike me as the sort to cry out for help. Even if he did want my help, would I be able to give it to him?
"Do you want to go to the zoo with me," Jeremy asks?
"The zoo? Are you serious? What does that have to do with anything?"
"You seem like you need some fun. And I work there."
"You want me to come and watch you work
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