Tossed Away

My hand was on my belly as I hummed the song I used to sing to my child when he was inside me. It was a lullaby my mother used to sing for me.

“I couldn’t even hold my child properly,” I whispered. “I am sorry.”

“Apologies don’t fix anything.”

“Yeah! It’s my karma. I deserve it for everything I did. I swear…” I murmured. “I swear I didn’t know Frederick was the one who started the war between the five packs. To be honest, I never cared for anyone but him. Can you blame me?”

He didn’t answer.

“No one ever treated me well. I tried to not hurt anyone but back then, when I thought Frederick could be killed, I gave it my best,” I sighed. “I miss the sky. What do you think he’ll do to me now?”

“He’ll execute you. He has no use of you. There were a few werewolves here but they were all executed once they weren’t useful.”

“If only he killed me when she tossed the corpse of my child next to me. The worst is suffering with everything I knew all at once. Betrayal, being used like a pawn all this time. I feel nothing now. The rage is all spent now.”

“So you intend to go down without fighting.”

“What’s the point of fighting when I won’t be able to do anything?”

“If I was in your stead, I’ll make sure to drag everyone with me. Go down like fireworks.”

“Ammm… How can I do that?” I turned my head, looking at him. He was lying on the ground, playing with something in his hand.

He sat, grinning. “Spill their secrets and let them fight between each other. Do you know how many secrets do they have?”

He started telling me about them. I was shocked. What he told me made me laugh. How did he know about them when he was imprisoned here?

And then, after a few days, I was called to the outside. I saw the sky after so many months. Such a beautiful moon in the sky!

The warriors took me to the forest. I recognized this place. I visited it once, when Frederick executed a lot of werewolves. He said they were the traitors that belonged to the Bloodmoon pack. I smiled the entire time, humming my song. The warriors kept throwing me glances as if I was crazy.

They pushed me to kneel in front of the entire pack. I looked around, still smiling. I waved at Catarina when I saw her. Her eyes widened. After knowing her secret, she looked disgusting. In the entire pack, a few of them were considered innocent.

“Our last guest finally arrived,” Frederick rose from his seat, spreading his arms to attract all eyes on him. “Since everyone is here, we’ll start Ebony Bronfall’s execution,” he turned his gaze on me. I kept humming. “Do you have any final words, Ebony Bronfall.”

Did I have any last words?

I had plenty.

“Yes, I have final words,” I stopped humming. “I thought I was supposed to have one last meal before my head flies. Why am I not getting a last meal?”

I heard murmurs between the crowd. Well, I truly wanted to eat something good. Probably, everyone was wondering why I wasn’t freaked out. I wondered that too. Maybe it was because I lost it. Everything came down on me all at once so it crashed my mind.

“Are these your last words?” Frederick asked.

“No, they are not. I am simply asking for my right. Everyone you executed had a one last great meal and I didn’t have any. I demand my meal.”

“If you’re doing this to buy time, you’re wasting it instead. Do you have any last words, Ebony?”

I could feel his frustration. There were a lot of eyes on us. It was perfect. I should go down in flames, like fireworks.

“I do. May I speak?”

“Go on then. Let us know what you think you need to say.”

He didn’t think I had things to say. Well, if Adolphus didn’t tell me about their secrets, I wouldn’t have said anything.

“Great!” I shouted. “Ammm… I looked around and found Catalina again. She glared at me but I didn’t care. I waved at her. “My final words for Catalina is this: you’re so dumb for marrying someone who has STD. He’s been spreading that around like wildfire. That tingling you felt between your legs, ladies, is just inflammation, you should go check yourself with the pack doctor.  Also, no wonder you sleep with your brother Catalina. It should feel nice.

“Elder Alexander killed his own brother to steal what he has now. To think that he is that shameless to do that because he loved his brother’s mate. Yuck! How does it feel to take someone else’s mate? Does it feel nice? At least, I didn’t know that the Alpha isn’t my mate. I was used all this time. I have a reason.

“Nialliv,” I pointed my finger at her. “You like it when you have a lot of men wooing you, right? Is this why you have a child out of wedlock? If I remember right, it’s a girl. Is this why you killed my child? It’s because he could have been the next Alpha. I see,” I nodded and attempted to keep speaking but Nialliv yelled.

“What are you talking about?” she yelled. “I didn’t kill your child. Your child was a boy indeed but you gave birth to it dead,” she just used ‘it’ for my child. “Also, it’s not the Alpha’s child you were cheating on him. That child would have never become the next Alpha.”

Frederick threw a glare at Nialliv. I was satisfied enough that I burst into laughter.

“Whatever keeps you sleeping at night, Nialliv. By the way, do you know that your mother hated you? What do you expect from a girl who likes to not listen to her good-hearted mother? Especially when her husband beat her to a pulp each time she talked. Anyway, It’s quite displeasing to know that you tried so hard to be kind in front of me. I always found your face fake. As for her wolf, no one ever wondered why the great Nialliv never shifted in front of anyone? I sh-“

“Kill her,” she yelled. “Finish her already, Frederick. Dad, she is spouting lies. She is doing it on purpose to harm me,” she cried.

“Wow! I didn’t know you could spill tears this quickly. You know, Frederick, she is…”

I couldn’t say anything. I didn’t even see someone move. I was suddenly between the teeth of a large wolf.

I hummed.

I kept humming even when my body was thrown on the ground and everything faded into darkness.

I wanted to spill more beans but it seemed game over for me.