Chapter 1

      I roll my eyes downing another cup full of alcohol. My friends won't stop talking  and guess what they are talking about? some kdrama. I hate kdrama with that stupid repetition of theirs. I shake my head and stand up. I hate my life.

 The stupid set of group of friends invited me to this night out for my birthday guess its over now. Nobody really cares, parents? No! siblings? no! Except Felicia. I shut her out of my life though the little girl loves me so much she still reaches out to me by calling me. I don't know who the hell give her my number but the person it did well.

I ran out of home not too long like 6 months ago. We are six the family well their family. Two boys and two girls I am the second one and Felicia the last. I'm always the centre of abuse and all. Soone day I just got tired and left it was hard finding a job and all but I did.

 I'm a damn waiter in celebrity or classy restaurants should I call it. I fought my way in. Normal restaurants wouldn't pay much. I don't even bother schooling anymore. I'm  all tired of everything my parents don't even care reaching out to me. I'm sure they know Felicia has my number but they don't care. They even give a s*** if I existed or not. I was just an house help. They treated me like one and I believed to be one.   

 I'm glad I left they don't deserve me at all I don't even matter anymore. I stroll outside the bar where cool breeze hit me. Lifting and swirling my summer dress about my knees. My hair dance around my face. I tuck it behind my ear tears forming in my eyes.

All right I miss them. Though  they treated me wrong. If they thought they were training me, they made a mistake. That was torture utmost torture. I rest against the railing on my elbows. God, I hate feeling like this. all my friends even care about me do they? I don't even have one as far as I'm concerned

 I  dig the  heels of my palm into my eyes annoyed that I'm seriously crying. My rent due next tomorrow and I won't get my salary at the end of the month because of my stupid attitude. I had hit a customer right in the face with her food because she was talking sassy and stupid to me. I hate it when people think they can control me I've learnt my lesson

  So my boss is delaying my salary by a week well until I shouted at him and almost hit him in the face. So I'm gone by two weeks and I'm sure that bastard keeps the payment like that. I hate him as much as I hate my parents.

Clocking twenty two tonight makes no difference.  I just feel more useless and unloved.  Worse strippers are earning more money than me every night, like 10 times my salary. I could be a stripper. I have the boobs and ass though medium all through but I can still manage. I may not be as beautiful as my so-called friends are, Heavens help me my attitude is worse.

God so help me. lights are all everywhere cars making a hell of a noise. I wonder why people with cars don't use their brains. Just pressing the horn like a cow. I smile, I'm a cow sometimes. Like when I fought with that woman at the restaurant. I'm glad I ruined her stupid expensive dress next time I see her anywhere except the restaurant I'm going to eat her whole like it like that.

Damn I'm so drunk right now I feel like jumping over into the traffic. I twist my mouth to a side. I just need sex hahahaha who would believe I'm a virgin at thia age? No f****** body. They won't even believe me all I need to do to make them believe me is just to have an orgy in front of them problem solved. Bam.

 I'm so fucking crazy. I know, I know, I know.

" Hello " I spin around slowly someone joins me on the railing, can't make out the face though. But his voice is so deep and commanding. I watch his hair dance around the wind massaging it. " what's a pretty girl like you do when you're out here alone? "

" You haven't seen my face yet. You've never seen me before. "

" Aren't you beautiful? " 

" I know I'm beautiful "

" See "

I roll my eyes. Men with their annoying sense of stupid humor they always think they are handsome, fit, clever, everything and perfect well I think they're f****** ugly. Just like my brothers  and stupid father.

" So what are you doing all by yourself? It's dangerous don't you think? " 

Puhlease 

" Nothing can hurt me " I huff 

" Huh uh "

" Wait who the fuck do you think you are? Uh? You think girls can't handle things by themselves? You don't even know me! You just-- "

" Woah, girl take it easy. I'm just saying. Relax okay "

I face the other side. I've been insecure all my life. Well until 6 months ago when I set myself free indulged in karate lessons and all after someone tried to rape me that night I ran away from home. nowhere to live and go, for a minute there I regretted it but then I picked myself up again.

I may not have the best clothes and all- heck yeah I do. Mom was always conscious of the clothes I wear outside she always wanted me to look the best and I packed all the ones I could take I'm wearing right now even though I hate gowns but  it's new and I wanted to try on my supposed already over birthday.

I think it's time to finally let go of this perky virginity. JiJu in case I might get raped again cause I'm really careless. At least it wouldn't be to a total stranger. Oh Lily, this muscled figure is also a stranger. Nah he's not, we've talked.

" Wanna fuck? "

I ask turning to face him. I don't even know if he's still here anyway. Lights from hotels and high buildings wouldn't reach us 

" Sure " 

Now, that was easy. Only that I feel somehow. Too much alcohol, but I only took a cuo- lie I took two whole bottles. Geez I should have brought the remaining stuff. Maybe it'll give me more confidence.

" Do you have a room? "

I ask shifting closer to touch him. At least I have to know and feel who I'm going to fuck with.

"  I have a house you know "

" Yea right "

I say quickly waving my hand. I finally reach and touch him. He's wearing a suit. Hmm office guy. I run my hand down to his shirt. Fada lurd. Even though he's wearing a stupid suit I can feel the thickness of everything. His breast, I glide lower down. I can feel all the muscles under the stupid fabric. Oh good JESUS. Tonight is gonna be the best night ever and the best birthday present for myself.