4

Truth

Before the two, Tammy and Miya, could return to our table, I immediately fixed myself. I plastered my smile while they were approaching. The two are still glaring at each other which made me laugh a little bit. 

"My God, Tamia! She looks like a fool while dancing in front! Not even on beat. It's embarrassing." Miya said with a frown on her face before sitting next to me.

"Shut up. You're trying your hard in pretending that you're demure, but it's obvious from your face that you're not. It's a bar, so I'm probably going to dance. And no one should care whether I'm on the beat or not." Tamia took a sip of the vodka she was holding. I just shook my head, a small smile on my lips is clear. 

Seeing both of them makes me happy. They are one of my allies who truly love and care for me. They were there when I needed them the most. They are here, by my side, when the world's turning its back against me. They are the ones who stayed. And seeing them, with me, makes my heart warm. 

I wasn't enough for my own family. They were never proud of me from the start. But these two, these two made me feel like I am enough. They made me feel like my existence is enough for someone to be proud of.

These two never doubted me. They never left me even in my worst days. They supported me in everything. They both understand me in any way.

I'm still lucky, aren't I? So so lucky to have a genuine friends like them. 

The two were so drunk when we came home. I was the one who was driving while the two were bickering at the backseat. I just shook my head every time Tamia's voice rises in annoyance. The two are really like cats and dogs whenever they fight. The reason why I don't really like to put them together because they're so noisy. 

I was thankful that I didn't have to call a guard to lift the two up. They are indeed drunk but they know I can't carry them both so they are trying their hardest to stay awake. I was just guiding them. 

"What the hell! Step aside, Tammy! Your face makes me sick!"

"It makes you sick! Your face is just 2 and mine's a 10!"

I smiled apologetically at the couple who were with us inside the elevator. They just nodded in understanding. They were watching the two too with nothing but amusement in their eyes. 

When they got inside my condo, the two immediately stretched out on the sofa. Half of Miya's body were on the carpet while her feet were placed on the sofa. I shook my head. I guess it was kinda a bad idea to bring them in a bar. If I had known, we could've just get drunk inside my unit, right?

I just entered the room and left the two in the living room. I took a bath before changing myself into my sleepwear. I was able to get an extra comforter and a thick blanket for the two before I get back inside my room. 

I lay on the bed and stared at the blank ceiling above.

I thought I was fine. No. I can't be. I don't know how long I'll be able to handle it, especially with the news I just found out.

They are fu-cking engaged now. This is not just an article anymore. This is for real now. 

Claus really loves my twin to the point that he's ready to give her his surname to her. Claus and I were together for four years, but he never asked for my hand. He wanted us to have a baby, but he never proposed to me in those four years of being together. While he and Beatriz had only been together for a year, he was able to immediately ask for her hand in marriage. I can't help but to compare. I guess comparing things will become a part of my life forever, because my whole life, I was compared too. I was compared to my twin. Saying she was far more better and such. I accept that all. But I have never been angry with my twin because it is not her fault that other people viewed me in a bad way.

When I had Claus, I considered myself lucky. Why not? He is Saint Claus Monteserio. One of the youngest successful businessman in the country. He is someone that every woman wants. He is an answered prayer for most, but I was too lucky to have him, huh?

We were fine. We were so fine together. B-but...

I closed my eyes tightly. Tears streamed down my face like a waterfall.

I-I was pregnant...in the middle of me rising to the top of modeling. I was on the perk of my modeling job. I can reach it, but I got pregnant. I was pregnant with our first child. But even so, I was so ready to give up everything just for the child inside my womb.

I was so ready to give up everything including my career. B-but my child gives up too.

I sobbed hard before caressing my tummy as if that would bring my child back.

I don't... I don't know how our child lost! Or, I know it to myself but I just refused to accept it. 

It hurts...

I closed my eyes tightly before heaving a deep sigh. Memories of what happened the night where I know I lost my baby came rushing inside my head. 

The only thing that I can remember is that... Is the complete darkness. I was surrounded by darkness. I'm being forced to drink something I didn't know what kind of drink. It was liquid. It was water, but I tasted something was off in it. I don't want to drink...but they were... They were touching me!

They were touching me! They were laughing!

I clasped my mouth with both of my hands. I looked around my room. I wanted so bad to scream for help but something's stopping me.

I-I didn't mean to swallow that. While I was struggling to escape from their hands, I was screaming so they successfully put the water inside my mouth. I only drank a few...

And that's why I lost my...my baby.

I didn't mean to drink that! I know that it wasn't just a normal water! 

I never wanted to lose my child! I was mourning too! The next day, I woke up with a massive headache...inside a hospital. I was on her bed. The doctor told me that she successfully removed the baby inside my womb!

I was hysterical! I was angry! I didn't wish to abort my child! The doctor lied! The doctor was paid by someone! The doctor showed Claus the contract where I signed so I could abort the child when the truth is, I didn't signed anything! Everything was a fraud! But Claus believed it!

And that is when everything crumbles down.

I sobbed loudly while hugging myself. After a while I heard the door to my room opened carelessly, before I felt the warm embrace of the two around me.

"Shush, everything will be fine... Hold on, Beautrin, please..."