Chapter 45Earn "Shush, baby, it's fine Missus. You're safe. I'm here. I'm here." Claus' soft voice was the last thing I heard before everything finally went dark. I don't know how many hours I slept, but when I woke up, my whole body was so painful that it was as if I had been beaten over and over again. I groaned. I slowly opened my eyes and the white ceiling immediately appeared to me. Just by the smell of the surrounding, I knew I was in the hospital. "W-water..." I whispered huskily. I tried to move my fingers but it was too numb. I feel heavy and my body still feels heavy. "C-Claus..." I whispered again. When someone moved next to me, I immediately looked at the person who was crouching on my bed. Only then did I realize that Claus was there. He was sitting on a chair and was resting his head on the side of the bed where I was lying. He's also holding my hand tightly. Maybe that's why I can hardly move it. "C-Claus... Claus... Monteserio...!" I raised my voice slightly caus
Epilogue (His Side) Saint Claus Ezekiel Monteserio POVI punched the mirror in my bathroom while looking at my own reflection with nothing but pure grief and anger. I fucking hate myself for hurting my baby. I didn't mean it! I was just forced. I have to do it to be able to keep her safe. Because I don't know what I will do when something bad happens to her! I have learned in the first place and I deeply regret not listening to their threat. They... They threatened me to break up with my love or they'll kill the baby inside her. I know. I know my queen is pregnant with our first child. I know that. I know all her moves. Because I'm not just in love with her. I am fvcking obsessed too. Someone threatened me that they'll hurt the baby inside her. But I ignored it because of my job and my position in the industry, I can't really avoid such things. That night, when she disappeared and got kidnapped by someone I didn't fvcking know, that's when I almost lost my mind. I was about to fvck
Special Chapter (The Last Chapter) Claus' Point of View "Seriously, Monteserio? You and Beautrin already have three children but...she still won't accept your proposal?" My jaw tensed at Ythan's teasing voice to me. I glared at him. Euler and Chaos just laughed. "How old is Indie again? She's eight years old. She's almost nine. And Saintesszia Coraline is already 1 year old. And now, she's pregnant with your third child, but you're still not married to her. Dang! You're so weak!" I winced at Ythan. This man's tongue is really carved differently. I gulped down a bottle of beer and slammed it down on the table. It's painful to hear Ythan say that my queen still don't want tl marry even though we already have about four babies. And do you even know what's more ironic? I don't even know what we really are. She let me touch her, kiss her, and make love with her but she couldn't even answer me even as a boyfriend first. In short, we don't have a fvcking label. I courted her, and asked
Prologue"They are getting married,"I looked away from the article I was reading. I sighed heavily before biting my lower lip. It's like something is blocking my chest that completely stopped me from breathing for a moment, and the lump in my throat is hurting me. Tears started to blur my eyes and I wasn't able to stop it when it finally fell on both of my cheeks. It hurts. So much. It was very painful. It's like my heart is being squeezed over and over again. I sighed heavily, hoping that I would calm down completely, but it didn't. I didn't. It's not working. Nothing's working because I'm still hurting.'Gosh, Oleya Beautrin San Diego!'I should put myself together, really! This is not me! I shouldn't be crying!I tried cheering myself up, thinking about some happy thoughts, but my cries only got louder. How can I fucking think about the happy thoughts when he's my happiness? Every time that I think about the happy thoughts, I always find myself hurting too.I'm hurt because I kn
Guilt"Cut! Let's take a break first!" Jade, the photographer shouted loudly as she looked at me with a frown on her face. I blinked a few times and sighed before slowly getting off the platform."What's with you today, Beautrin? You are not yourself. You are too preoccupied that you can't even pose for a nice shot!" She said irritatedly as soon as I got close. Miya, my manager and my friend immediately came to me and immediately grabbed my arm.I sighed.I know how much I've disappointed the whole team today. I'm also disappointed at myself, but I can't seem to focus today. I can't seem to function well, especially since the events from what happened that night are still replaying over and over again inside my head."You disappointed us today, Trin. You should fix this. We are in a hurry.""Jade please, let's let Beautrin rest. She's just stressed out." Miya commented. Jade gave me a sharp look before turning her back at us.Miya pulled me inside the dressing room. When we were alone
LoathDays passed like a blur.It's been weeks since something happened between me and Claus and all I did was to reminisce every bit of it like it just happened yesterday. I can't seem to forget it.I badly want to talk to Claus. But...what if he doesn't remember, right? Because he was too drunk that night and I doubt if he can remember every piece of what happened to us.Shit!I'm going crazy! I don't know what to do anymore, and I feel like I can't face my twin just the same knowing that I had sex with her fiancee! "Tomorrow will be a busy day, Trin. We have a tight schedule so it's better if you rest first."I sighed. "It's okay Miya. I'm used to it.""No. You're going to go home to your condo early and rest. I don't want you to be in the middle of the shoot and space out like a mad girl again. " I sighed again. I didn't complain anymore because I feel like I didn't have enough energy to fight with this girl. She's as hardheaded as me.The service van brought me to my condo. I di
Ring"Your mother called," Miya showed me her phone. I raised my brow at her. "You're coming to the dinner later? With your family and the Monteserio's?"Monteserio. I shook my head. There's no way in hell that I will dine with that f-cking family."Tell her I'm busy." I coldly said. Miya doubtfully looked at me. I know she is confused as to why I declined the invitation."Are you sure?" She taunted with a grimace on her face. Clearly not sure of what I said. She knows that I am slave to my own parents. I sighed and nodded before lying on my bed. I took a break for work. I don't know how long it should be, but I know that this would really take longer. Or I can't even call this a break. I just want to rest. "It's your Mom, Trin." Miya said while looking at me. I just raised my brow again. And if it's Mom? What should I do? Nothing. I don't want to face any of them because I don't want to be more stressed.They will invite me for dinner and what? Embarrass me in front of everyone. T
TruthBefore the two, Tammy and Miya, could return to our table, I immediately fixed myself. I plastered my smile while they were approaching. The two are still glaring at each other which made me laugh a little bit. "My God, Tamia! She looks like a fool while dancing in front! Not even on beat. It's embarrassing." Miya said with a frown on her face before sitting next to me."Shut up. You're trying your hard in pretending that you're demure, but it's obvious from your face that you're not. It's a bar, so I'm probably going to dance. And no one should care whether I'm on the beat or not." Tamia took a sip of the vodka she was holding. I just shook my head, a small smile on my lips is clear. Seeing both of them makes me happy. They are one of my allies who truly love and care for me. They were there when I needed them the most. They are here, by my side, when the world's turning its back against me. They are the ones who stayed. And seeing them, with me, makes my heart warm. I wasn'
Special Chapter (The Last Chapter) Claus' Point of View "Seriously, Monteserio? You and Beautrin already have three children but...she still won't accept your proposal?" My jaw tensed at Ythan's teasing voice to me. I glared at him. Euler and Chaos just laughed. "How old is Indie again? She's eight years old. She's almost nine. And Saintesszia Coraline is already 1 year old. And now, she's pregnant with your third child, but you're still not married to her. Dang! You're so weak!" I winced at Ythan. This man's tongue is really carved differently. I gulped down a bottle of beer and slammed it down on the table. It's painful to hear Ythan say that my queen still don't want tl marry even though we already have about four babies. And do you even know what's more ironic? I don't even know what we really are. She let me touch her, kiss her, and make love with her but she couldn't even answer me even as a boyfriend first. In short, we don't have a fvcking label. I courted her, and asked
Epilogue (His Side) Saint Claus Ezekiel Monteserio POVI punched the mirror in my bathroom while looking at my own reflection with nothing but pure grief and anger. I fucking hate myself for hurting my baby. I didn't mean it! I was just forced. I have to do it to be able to keep her safe. Because I don't know what I will do when something bad happens to her! I have learned in the first place and I deeply regret not listening to their threat. They... They threatened me to break up with my love or they'll kill the baby inside her. I know. I know my queen is pregnant with our first child. I know that. I know all her moves. Because I'm not just in love with her. I am fvcking obsessed too. Someone threatened me that they'll hurt the baby inside her. But I ignored it because of my job and my position in the industry, I can't really avoid such things. That night, when she disappeared and got kidnapped by someone I didn't fvcking know, that's when I almost lost my mind. I was about to fvck
Chapter 45Earn "Shush, baby, it's fine Missus. You're safe. I'm here. I'm here." Claus' soft voice was the last thing I heard before everything finally went dark. I don't know how many hours I slept, but when I woke up, my whole body was so painful that it was as if I had been beaten over and over again. I groaned. I slowly opened my eyes and the white ceiling immediately appeared to me. Just by the smell of the surrounding, I knew I was in the hospital. "W-water..." I whispered huskily. I tried to move my fingers but it was too numb. I feel heavy and my body still feels heavy. "C-Claus..." I whispered again. When someone moved next to me, I immediately looked at the person who was crouching on my bed. Only then did I realize that Claus was there. He was sitting on a chair and was resting his head on the side of the bed where I was lying. He's also holding my hand tightly. Maybe that's why I can hardly move it. "C-Claus... Claus... Monteserio...!" I raised my voice slightly caus
Chapter 44KidnappedWe celebrated Indira's birthday in the island, indeed. We spent our days there, happily. Happy. Yes. I can say that I'm finally happy now. Well, I'm happy with those years with Indira. But seeing her 'this' happy being with his father is what makes me happy too. It makes me...completely happy. "I'll go first, baby, hmm? I really have to do something." I ignored him and kept on frowning. I don't know why though. He'll just come back to the city to fix something, but here I am, acting too much. "Don't come back." I said and turned my back at him. I heard his violent sigh. I didn't mean it...like this. I don't know why my mood is changing so much now and it's frustrating me! Sometimes I'm sweet to him, but most of the time I acts out and I'll be completely rude. "No, baby. I'll pick you up here. You'll ride a chopper, baby, to go faster. I'll go first, but you'll follow anyway." Nope. I still don't want it. Why don't we go together? Would that make any difference?
Chapter 43Baby Daddy I was sobbing real hard while staring at the setting sun. I watched as the light slowly disappeared. Just like what happened to me years ago when he turned his back at me. That's when my world went completely dark. But then, my sweet Indira came. She became the light to my world. My sunshine. She is the angel that made me rise again. "I'm so sorry, baby..." I stiffened when I felt him carefully settled on my back. He hugged me so tight and buried his face on the crook of my neck. I was even more shocked when I felt the nape of my neck where his face was buried slightly wet. He was sniffling and sobbing. He's crying! He's crying! "I made a mistake. I choose to hurt you just to save you, baby." He sobbed while I frowned. My forehead creased. I wiped my tears and tried to face him but he held me more. "I-I can't take us to be like this anymore...I'm sorry. It was my fault. I-It was my fault..." "What the hell are you talking about, Claus? I-I don't understand."
Chapter 42Sunset When we arrived in the island, we were immediately greeted by the couple, Tammy and Euler. The man looked at me for a while before looking away and grinning. I squinted my eyes at him, raising my eyebrows in the process. "Tammy, tell your husband not to tell Monteserio that I'm here. I don't want to see that bastard lurking around here again later."Tammy slightly turned to her husband and elbowed his stomach. Euler coughed but didn't complain. "You heard that, Euler. Don't do anything because I'm going to divorce you." The man just sighed and nodded. I smirked. Whipped, huh? "Of course, baby. Don't want to put our marriage at risk." I just rolled my eyes when he dipped his head and kissed my friend in front of me. "We're going straight to the cabin, Tam. We're going to rest..." I kissed her cheek. I was about to leave when she held my wrist. I looked at her with a frown. I saw her pouted. She came even closer to me before whispering. "Why are Raf and Miya in th
Chapter 41Hide and Seek But who am I kidding? How many years had passed again? Five or six? I thought he wasn't in my heart anymore. I thought I was completely over with my love for him. But it turns out, for those years, I just filled my heart with anger, the reason why I thought that I was over him. But not yet, he's still here. Still intact. I love him. I still do. I can't deny that anymore to myself because I already feel it. But then, I don't trust him. And my love for him is not enough for me to take a risk again. Especially because of the words I heard from Beatriz yesterday. "What is the problem?" I was brought back to reality when Raf nudged me. "You said we're leaving tomorrow, right? But why does it seem so early? Aren't you too excited to leave?" he asked. I sighed before adjusting Indira who is sitting on my legs. "No. I just want to make Indie happy," I said. I saw him pouted, clearly not believing to what I said. "It's not that. I know there's something else. You
Chapter 40EraseIt was as if the whole world had thrown me a huge meteorite. I was frozen. I was stuck. I was...dumbfounded. I wanted to blame myself again for even thinking of giving Claus a chance to meet his daughter, our daughter.He...planned these. For sure.I let out a smirk. Of course. As much as I wanted to believe those stupid actions that he did these past few days, it was impossible that he loves me just like what he told me. He pushed me away. He loathed me because he believed I was the one who killed our own child. I may treasure my career so much at that time because I was just starting, and modeling is my passion. It was my first love before him, but when I found out I was pregnant with our child, I didn't think about having an abortion. I could never do such a thing. And it hurts me that he believed in others more than me. He doesn't believe me. He didn't let me explain.It broke me into pieces. He broke me into pieces. I know he was hurt by what happened, but he do
Chapter 39AbortionI fell asleep in his arms that night. I just woke up because of the rays of the hitting my face. I frowned and slowly got up. I blinked my eyes multiple times, letting my sight get used with the blinding light. I'm in our unit's room. How did I...I shook my head before getting out of bed. I was still yawning while going to the bathroom.I hardly can remember what happened last night. It's just that I fell asleep after my nap. Ha! I rolled my eyes. I don't even know why I let him do the things that he's doing right now. I mean, it's obvious, right? I've moved on. Or did I, really?I rolled my eyes.I know myself better and I know I'm done with him. It's just that... I'm feeling so attached to him. And I'm even loving the way he touches me. I love his warmth. His scent. I even thought I'm addicted to it. I still remember how I smelled him last night. I even heard how he laughed at me while I was doing that.I sighed.I ignored the thoughts that were bothering me bef