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"I hope you feel guilty for rejecting your sister several times. She wanted you to be here for dinner and you what? Continue to reject her.""What will be my role be at the dinner, Mom, and why do I need to be there? What? To embarrass me?""You ungrateful child! Your sister is not like that! Go or-"I cut the call before turning my phone off.It's eleven in the morning, I just woke up and I can hear my good mother's voice again. Like, what the hell? Can't they let me rest for a day?I sighed deeply.Last night was what I call a nightmare. I don't want to remember all the things that Claus said because my heart hurts so much. It's like my heart is being torn apart again and again by hearing those words from his mouth. I don't even want to recall it.I was crying the whole night. It was almost morning when I completely fell asleep. I don't even want to look at myself in the mirror because I expected my facHelp"Mother Delia!" I screamed so loud when I got inside. After a while, someone came out from the kitchen. Her eyes widened as she hurriedly walked towards me. I met her halfway before hugging her."Oh... My daughter grew up beautifully..." her soft voice made me close my eyes as I hugged her so tight. I kissed the top of her hair, smelling her in the process.I miss her. I miss my home..."I miss you, Momma..." I whispered softly. I smiled a little when I felt her hug tightening around me. After a while I heard her sniffed which surprised me. I broke our hug before looking at her. She was already crying. I wiped her tears while stopping mine from falling too. Gosh!"My daughter...I miss you...""Oh gosh..." I hugged her again and kissed her head several times."I really miss my Momma too..." my mouth trembled as I spoke. I was on the verge of crying too. My chest started to tighten but I am very happy. I want to regret why I left her here. I wish I had forced her to come with me so
RegretBut do I have any choice?No."Trin! What wedding dress should I choose?!" I watched my sister as she excitedly showed me the brochure of the wedding dresses. Being here...is killing me.It's painful. What I'm doing is painful but it's okay. I can only be with my sister sometimes, will I refuse this opportunity?I sighed before smiling at her."You should choose something brighter, Triz. It will suit you better." Of course. If she's the light, then I'm the darkness. We're completely opposite. We didn't spend a lot of time together when we were kids because...I avoided her. The reason? It's mom and dad, of course. They told me not to talk to Beatriz too much because she might be influenced. I don't know what kind of influence they were talking about but as I got older, I slowly understood what they meant.The young me was confused b
Trauma"What the hell?! What happened to you?!"Miya was hysterical when she fetched me. Claus left me crying inside the car. Someone picked him up and that's just it. He left me...alone...crying.I don't think that I can even drive in my state so I called Miya. The service van took her here, which immediately left after sending Miya here."Beautrin..." she held my face and tried to wipe my tears but they were still dripping. It just won't stop falling! I've been trying! I've been trying so hard to contain my tears but it just won't budge.I could see Miya's face with intense sadness as she looked at my whole face. I know. I know that my face shows how hurt and broken I am right now. There are no enough words to describe what I am feeling right now. This is just too much for me to handle."M-Mi..." I cried louder. She did nothing else but
Consequences"I have to tell him... I have to tell him... I have to tell him..." That's what I said over and over again when I woke up the next morning inside my condo. I am not sure, and I don't know how he will react on this. But I wish...I am wishing that he'll believe me now. Because honestly, I don't know what to do. I wanna raise the kid alone so bad but...but what if those people come back and hurt me again? What if they take my child away from me again?!No!This is not about me anymore! But also for my unborn child. I have to protect my child...our child. Together. Claus and I will do it together! His child needs him. We need him...I-I can't be alone because I'm scared! I am afraid not only for myself but also for my child...our child.I lazily took a bath before dressing myself up. When I was satisfied with my look, I immediately left the room."Trin...?" Miya immediately noticed me. She was sitting in the living room and it looked like she was talking to someone on her c
Never again Has someone already told me that my life would end up being this hard? I bet no. Because I wasn't prepared. I... No one is prepared. B-but I never thought my life would be this difficult. I never thought that the day would come when I don't even want be alive...that I would rather wish be gone. I didn't think I would choose to be selfish on this. I just want to disappear from the world because of what is happening to me. I know how much my mother and father are angry with me. I know that. Ever since I was a child, I could feel it. I was never the priority. It was always my twin. But even so, I still understand them. I tried to understand them from the very beginning. I...took my time. I took my time and did everything for me to be noticed by them, so that they could acknowledge me, that one day they would remember that their daughter has a twin and isn't alone. I took my time. I was living not for myself but to satisfy my family. But it was never enough. I...was never e
BrokenSadness. Undenial. Angry. Frustrated. It's so sad that I have to lose someone I truly value just so I would wake up in my own daydream. That the daydream, the dream, the place that I've been trying to live on is not at all a dream but a nightmare. I clutched my Momma's dress tightly to my chest as I cried. Memories of her when I was still young washed over me. "You're back in your room. Why don't you come out, hmm? It's your birthday and one of our princesses is sulking already." It was Momma Delia's voice when she came inside my room. I sighed. Any child will probably sulk inside his or her room if your own parents don't greet and pay attention to you. They only greeted Beatriz while when in fact, we're twins. We have the same birthday too so I don't understand why am I treated differently.I'm sad. But...I can't be mad at them. Sulking, yes, but I am never the type of the person who'll invest myself with too much hate.Even if they think I'm cursed, at least I still kno
For goodLeaving may be the hardest thing to do for many. Who would want to leave the place you grew up in, right? No one wants to leave and go somewhere unfamiliar to you.But now, that is the easiest way for me to finally let go of everything. The easiest and the most practical way to do. Leaving is the easiest choice for me right now. Not the easiest escape, because everything won't be easy for me, that's for sure. I guess I've been through all the hardships in life that I am somewhat feeling calm. I don't know. Maybe I'm not yet saddened by what I'm going to go through in the future.nBut at least, now... I can finally be free.Free from pain, from hurt, from all the shits that I've been through, from the people who caused my life so much...pain."Are you really serious? Are you really going to leave? The Philippines?" Tammy asked me one question. I don't exactly know how many times did she asked me that. She looks like she's not convinced yet. We're both leaning on her car while
Indira"Your designs are quite interesting! I saw some of your posts in social media and I must say that everything looks unique. I am not surprise anymore as to why your works became a hot topic and trended all over Paris!" Mr. Del Rio's assistant voiced out.I smiled at what I heard. My designs really came from someone. From my baby. My child is my inspiration while I was doing it. My baby is the reason why I made such a masterpiece. I softly caressed my swelling stomach. This is my nine month already, and I can say that leaving the place where I used to live is such a good decision. I am now better. Better than anything else. Better than before. And who would have thought that I'll end up designing clothes, rather than modeling one, like I used to, huh?When I was in the Philippines, I used to model clothes and such. Well, I always wanted to design clothes but I have never tried it before. I just thought of designing because of my baby. My first designs were baby clothes. When w
Special Chapter (The Last Chapter) Claus' Point of View "Seriously, Monteserio? You and Beautrin already have three children but...she still won't accept your proposal?" My jaw tensed at Ythan's teasing voice to me. I glared at him. Euler and Chaos just laughed. "How old is Indie again? She's eight years old. She's almost nine. And Saintesszia Coraline is already 1 year old. And now, she's pregnant with your third child, but you're still not married to her. Dang! You're so weak!" I winced at Ythan. This man's tongue is really carved differently. I gulped down a bottle of beer and slammed it down on the table. It's painful to hear Ythan say that my queen still don't want tl marry even though we already have about four babies. And do you even know what's more ironic? I don't even know what we really are. She let me touch her, kiss her, and make love with her but she couldn't even answer me even as a boyfriend first. In short, we don't have a fvcking label. I courted her, and asked
Epilogue (His Side) Saint Claus Ezekiel Monteserio POVI punched the mirror in my bathroom while looking at my own reflection with nothing but pure grief and anger. I fucking hate myself for hurting my baby. I didn't mean it! I was just forced. I have to do it to be able to keep her safe. Because I don't know what I will do when something bad happens to her! I have learned in the first place and I deeply regret not listening to their threat. They... They threatened me to break up with my love or they'll kill the baby inside her. I know. I know my queen is pregnant with our first child. I know that. I know all her moves. Because I'm not just in love with her. I am fvcking obsessed too. Someone threatened me that they'll hurt the baby inside her. But I ignored it because of my job and my position in the industry, I can't really avoid such things. That night, when she disappeared and got kidnapped by someone I didn't fvcking know, that's when I almost lost my mind. I was about to fvck
Chapter 45Earn "Shush, baby, it's fine Missus. You're safe. I'm here. I'm here." Claus' soft voice was the last thing I heard before everything finally went dark. I don't know how many hours I slept, but when I woke up, my whole body was so painful that it was as if I had been beaten over and over again. I groaned. I slowly opened my eyes and the white ceiling immediately appeared to me. Just by the smell of the surrounding, I knew I was in the hospital. "W-water..." I whispered huskily. I tried to move my fingers but it was too numb. I feel heavy and my body still feels heavy. "C-Claus..." I whispered again. When someone moved next to me, I immediately looked at the person who was crouching on my bed. Only then did I realize that Claus was there. He was sitting on a chair and was resting his head on the side of the bed where I was lying. He's also holding my hand tightly. Maybe that's why I can hardly move it. "C-Claus... Claus... Monteserio...!" I raised my voice slightly caus
Chapter 44KidnappedWe celebrated Indira's birthday in the island, indeed. We spent our days there, happily. Happy. Yes. I can say that I'm finally happy now. Well, I'm happy with those years with Indira. But seeing her 'this' happy being with his father is what makes me happy too. It makes me...completely happy. "I'll go first, baby, hmm? I really have to do something." I ignored him and kept on frowning. I don't know why though. He'll just come back to the city to fix something, but here I am, acting too much. "Don't come back." I said and turned my back at him. I heard his violent sigh. I didn't mean it...like this. I don't know why my mood is changing so much now and it's frustrating me! Sometimes I'm sweet to him, but most of the time I acts out and I'll be completely rude. "No, baby. I'll pick you up here. You'll ride a chopper, baby, to go faster. I'll go first, but you'll follow anyway." Nope. I still don't want it. Why don't we go together? Would that make any difference?
Chapter 43Baby Daddy I was sobbing real hard while staring at the setting sun. I watched as the light slowly disappeared. Just like what happened to me years ago when he turned his back at me. That's when my world went completely dark. But then, my sweet Indira came. She became the light to my world. My sunshine. She is the angel that made me rise again. "I'm so sorry, baby..." I stiffened when I felt him carefully settled on my back. He hugged me so tight and buried his face on the crook of my neck. I was even more shocked when I felt the nape of my neck where his face was buried slightly wet. He was sniffling and sobbing. He's crying! He's crying! "I made a mistake. I choose to hurt you just to save you, baby." He sobbed while I frowned. My forehead creased. I wiped my tears and tried to face him but he held me more. "I-I can't take us to be like this anymore...I'm sorry. It was my fault. I-It was my fault..." "What the hell are you talking about, Claus? I-I don't understand."
Chapter 42Sunset When we arrived in the island, we were immediately greeted by the couple, Tammy and Euler. The man looked at me for a while before looking away and grinning. I squinted my eyes at him, raising my eyebrows in the process. "Tammy, tell your husband not to tell Monteserio that I'm here. I don't want to see that bastard lurking around here again later."Tammy slightly turned to her husband and elbowed his stomach. Euler coughed but didn't complain. "You heard that, Euler. Don't do anything because I'm going to divorce you." The man just sighed and nodded. I smirked. Whipped, huh? "Of course, baby. Don't want to put our marriage at risk." I just rolled my eyes when he dipped his head and kissed my friend in front of me. "We're going straight to the cabin, Tam. We're going to rest..." I kissed her cheek. I was about to leave when she held my wrist. I looked at her with a frown. I saw her pouted. She came even closer to me before whispering. "Why are Raf and Miya in th
Chapter 41Hide and Seek But who am I kidding? How many years had passed again? Five or six? I thought he wasn't in my heart anymore. I thought I was completely over with my love for him. But it turns out, for those years, I just filled my heart with anger, the reason why I thought that I was over him. But not yet, he's still here. Still intact. I love him. I still do. I can't deny that anymore to myself because I already feel it. But then, I don't trust him. And my love for him is not enough for me to take a risk again. Especially because of the words I heard from Beatriz yesterday. "What is the problem?" I was brought back to reality when Raf nudged me. "You said we're leaving tomorrow, right? But why does it seem so early? Aren't you too excited to leave?" he asked. I sighed before adjusting Indira who is sitting on my legs. "No. I just want to make Indie happy," I said. I saw him pouted, clearly not believing to what I said. "It's not that. I know there's something else. You
Chapter 40EraseIt was as if the whole world had thrown me a huge meteorite. I was frozen. I was stuck. I was...dumbfounded. I wanted to blame myself again for even thinking of giving Claus a chance to meet his daughter, our daughter.He...planned these. For sure.I let out a smirk. Of course. As much as I wanted to believe those stupid actions that he did these past few days, it was impossible that he loves me just like what he told me. He pushed me away. He loathed me because he believed I was the one who killed our own child. I may treasure my career so much at that time because I was just starting, and modeling is my passion. It was my first love before him, but when I found out I was pregnant with our child, I didn't think about having an abortion. I could never do such a thing. And it hurts me that he believed in others more than me. He doesn't believe me. He didn't let me explain.It broke me into pieces. He broke me into pieces. I know he was hurt by what happened, but he do
Chapter 39AbortionI fell asleep in his arms that night. I just woke up because of the rays of the hitting my face. I frowned and slowly got up. I blinked my eyes multiple times, letting my sight get used with the blinding light. I'm in our unit's room. How did I...I shook my head before getting out of bed. I was still yawning while going to the bathroom.I hardly can remember what happened last night. It's just that I fell asleep after my nap. Ha! I rolled my eyes. I don't even know why I let him do the things that he's doing right now. I mean, it's obvious, right? I've moved on. Or did I, really?I rolled my eyes.I know myself better and I know I'm done with him. It's just that... I'm feeling so attached to him. And I'm even loving the way he touches me. I love his warmth. His scent. I even thought I'm addicted to it. I still remember how I smelled him last night. I even heard how he laughed at me while I was doing that.I sighed.I ignored the thoughts that were bothering me bef