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I don't know what happened after...what we did. I just remembered that my eyelids were getting heavy 'till everything went black. Yes. I fell freaking asleep after that embarassing moment. I woke up in a soft bed. The sun was hitting my face as I slowly got up and sat on the bed.I wandered my eyes around the room and I noticed how unfamiliar the place is to me. This is not what our unit looks like! Definetely how our room looks like! I winced as my head throbbed. I massaged it slowly and suddenly, the memories from last night came rushing in my mind.I closer my eyes tightly as I remembered everything. Every little thing appeared inside my head. It was still so fresh! Oh God!
I am so dumb for doing that, really!I sighed.
I shook my head and removed the blanket that was wrapped around my body.I certainly don't have much tiVisitorHow many times have we done that? I don't know. I lost count myself. He took me over and over again and he seems not too tired to do it over again.I shook my head. When it comes to this, I really couldn't keep up with Claus, even before.I fell asleep again after what we did. I was too tired to even move. When I woke up and looked at the time, it was three in the afternoon. My stomach is growling and I feel extremely sticky. My God!I was alone in the bed when I woke up so I took a quick shower. I saw some clothes on the sofa inside the room. It has a tag and I assumed that it was for me. There's also some unused underwear and it has the same size as me so I'm sure that it's for me.After I got dressed, I grabbed my purse. It was on the bedside table. When I left the room, I was greeted by the quiet surroundings and I just shrugged.I don't have much of the power to ask
EggplantWhat they say is true. If someone inflicted too much pain on you, it's either you become numb and get used to it or move forward and turn your pain into an inspiration. And I did the latter and the former.But I am not that heartless. I still feel guilty for doing that to them. Despite all the pain that they've inflicted on me, I still feel sorry for them. There's still a part of me that wants to fix the relationship between me and...my family.But...I still can't. I can't trust. I am afraid not only for myself but also for my son. What if...what if they'll...do the same thing to my child?I had trust issues and to this day I still carry that with me. Maybe that's normal, right?I sighed.The next day I just stayed inside the condo with Indira. She was clinging on me too much today. Miya said it looks like she missed me. I pouted. Me too. I miss you my son even though I haven't seen you for almost a day.Oh really? You didn't think about your child while you were with Saint C
How to Plow(Slight ✨)"What...what else do you need?" As soon as I left the unit, I caught the man who was on the side of the door, leaning against the wall and it's suffocating. It's still suffocating to see him act like this to act like nothing happened. I don't want to face him anymore. But I remembered that I also wanted to clarify something with the him. He just can't show up here easily like everything that he did before is nothing. And I am afraid that we'll be in the news headlines because of what he's doing right now. I must not forgot that we are both a public figure. The eyes if the medias will always follow. He didn't answer and just stood still. He looked at me coldly. It was so serious. The kind of look that you'd think I've committed a grave sin against him when in fact, he was the one who did me wrong and it looks like he's forgetting about it. I sighed.I closed the door before facing him. I looked around making sure thay no ome can see us here talking. Why did h
Chapter 38SoberThe next days we were busy. There was a bit of trouble at the boutique so Raf and I had to travel there with Miya and Indira of course.Claus and I never spoke again after what...happened to us. Realizations hit me so hard after all the things that happened. I am angry at Claus but I am more angry at myself for giving in so easily. I became a slave to my own libido.I can't count how many times my eyes rolled as I remembered what happened. He kept on calling me, he even texted but I didn't read any of it.I want to explain to him that what happened between us, is just nothing but a thing we call sex. It's normal. We're both of age. We're adults so that's only natural. I'm not even making it a big deal, but I think he is. I don't even know why. I mean, we're adults and we both have needs. After two days we returned to the Philippines. And this time, Rafael was already planning for our short vacation in Isla Azula Verde. Indira was so excited. She really likes that isl
Chapter 39AbortionI fell asleep in his arms that night. I just woke up because of the rays of the hitting my face. I frowned and slowly got up. I blinked my eyes multiple times, letting my sight get used with the blinding light. I'm in our unit's room. How did I...I shook my head before getting out of bed. I was still yawning while going to the bathroom.I hardly can remember what happened last night. It's just that I fell asleep after my nap. Ha! I rolled my eyes. I don't even know why I let him do the things that he's doing right now. I mean, it's obvious, right? I've moved on. Or did I, really?I rolled my eyes.I know myself better and I know I'm done with him. It's just that... I'm feeling so attached to him. And I'm even loving the way he touches me. I love his warmth. His scent. I even thought I'm addicted to it. I still remember how I smelled him last night. I even heard how he laughed at me while I was doing that.I sighed.I ignored the thoughts that were bothering me bef
Chapter 40EraseIt was as if the whole world had thrown me a huge meteorite. I was frozen. I was stuck. I was...dumbfounded. I wanted to blame myself again for even thinking of giving Claus a chance to meet his daughter, our daughter.He...planned these. For sure.I let out a smirk. Of course. As much as I wanted to believe those stupid actions that he did these past few days, it was impossible that he loves me just like what he told me. He pushed me away. He loathed me because he believed I was the one who killed our own child. I may treasure my career so much at that time because I was just starting, and modeling is my passion. It was my first love before him, but when I found out I was pregnant with our child, I didn't think about having an abortion. I could never do such a thing. And it hurts me that he believed in others more than me. He doesn't believe me. He didn't let me explain.It broke me into pieces. He broke me into pieces. I know he was hurt by what happened, but he do
Chapter 41Hide and Seek But who am I kidding? How many years had passed again? Five or six? I thought he wasn't in my heart anymore. I thought I was completely over with my love for him. But it turns out, for those years, I just filled my heart with anger, the reason why I thought that I was over him. But not yet, he's still here. Still intact. I love him. I still do. I can't deny that anymore to myself because I already feel it. But then, I don't trust him. And my love for him is not enough for me to take a risk again. Especially because of the words I heard from Beatriz yesterday. "What is the problem?" I was brought back to reality when Raf nudged me. "You said we're leaving tomorrow, right? But why does it seem so early? Aren't you too excited to leave?" he asked. I sighed before adjusting Indira who is sitting on my legs. "No. I just want to make Indie happy," I said. I saw him pouted, clearly not believing to what I said. "It's not that. I know there's something else. You
Chapter 42Sunset When we arrived in the island, we were immediately greeted by the couple, Tammy and Euler. The man looked at me for a while before looking away and grinning. I squinted my eyes at him, raising my eyebrows in the process. "Tammy, tell your husband not to tell Monteserio that I'm here. I don't want to see that bastard lurking around here again later."Tammy slightly turned to her husband and elbowed his stomach. Euler coughed but didn't complain. "You heard that, Euler. Don't do anything because I'm going to divorce you." The man just sighed and nodded. I smirked. Whipped, huh? "Of course, baby. Don't want to put our marriage at risk." I just rolled my eyes when he dipped his head and kissed my friend in front of me. "We're going straight to the cabin, Tam. We're going to rest..." I kissed her cheek. I was about to leave when she held my wrist. I looked at her with a frown. I saw her pouted. She came even closer to me before whispering. "Why are Raf and Miya in th
Special Chapter (The Last Chapter) Claus' Point of View "Seriously, Monteserio? You and Beautrin already have three children but...she still won't accept your proposal?" My jaw tensed at Ythan's teasing voice to me. I glared at him. Euler and Chaos just laughed. "How old is Indie again? She's eight years old. She's almost nine. And Saintesszia Coraline is already 1 year old. And now, she's pregnant with your third child, but you're still not married to her. Dang! You're so weak!" I winced at Ythan. This man's tongue is really carved differently. I gulped down a bottle of beer and slammed it down on the table. It's painful to hear Ythan say that my queen still don't want tl marry even though we already have about four babies. And do you even know what's more ironic? I don't even know what we really are. She let me touch her, kiss her, and make love with her but she couldn't even answer me even as a boyfriend first. In short, we don't have a fvcking label. I courted her, and asked
Epilogue (His Side) Saint Claus Ezekiel Monteserio POVI punched the mirror in my bathroom while looking at my own reflection with nothing but pure grief and anger. I fucking hate myself for hurting my baby. I didn't mean it! I was just forced. I have to do it to be able to keep her safe. Because I don't know what I will do when something bad happens to her! I have learned in the first place and I deeply regret not listening to their threat. They... They threatened me to break up with my love or they'll kill the baby inside her. I know. I know my queen is pregnant with our first child. I know that. I know all her moves. Because I'm not just in love with her. I am fvcking obsessed too. Someone threatened me that they'll hurt the baby inside her. But I ignored it because of my job and my position in the industry, I can't really avoid such things. That night, when she disappeared and got kidnapped by someone I didn't fvcking know, that's when I almost lost my mind. I was about to fvck
Chapter 45Earn "Shush, baby, it's fine Missus. You're safe. I'm here. I'm here." Claus' soft voice was the last thing I heard before everything finally went dark. I don't know how many hours I slept, but when I woke up, my whole body was so painful that it was as if I had been beaten over and over again. I groaned. I slowly opened my eyes and the white ceiling immediately appeared to me. Just by the smell of the surrounding, I knew I was in the hospital. "W-water..." I whispered huskily. I tried to move my fingers but it was too numb. I feel heavy and my body still feels heavy. "C-Claus..." I whispered again. When someone moved next to me, I immediately looked at the person who was crouching on my bed. Only then did I realize that Claus was there. He was sitting on a chair and was resting his head on the side of the bed where I was lying. He's also holding my hand tightly. Maybe that's why I can hardly move it. "C-Claus... Claus... Monteserio...!" I raised my voice slightly caus
Chapter 44KidnappedWe celebrated Indira's birthday in the island, indeed. We spent our days there, happily. Happy. Yes. I can say that I'm finally happy now. Well, I'm happy with those years with Indira. But seeing her 'this' happy being with his father is what makes me happy too. It makes me...completely happy. "I'll go first, baby, hmm? I really have to do something." I ignored him and kept on frowning. I don't know why though. He'll just come back to the city to fix something, but here I am, acting too much. "Don't come back." I said and turned my back at him. I heard his violent sigh. I didn't mean it...like this. I don't know why my mood is changing so much now and it's frustrating me! Sometimes I'm sweet to him, but most of the time I acts out and I'll be completely rude. "No, baby. I'll pick you up here. You'll ride a chopper, baby, to go faster. I'll go first, but you'll follow anyway." Nope. I still don't want it. Why don't we go together? Would that make any difference?
Chapter 43Baby Daddy I was sobbing real hard while staring at the setting sun. I watched as the light slowly disappeared. Just like what happened to me years ago when he turned his back at me. That's when my world went completely dark. But then, my sweet Indira came. She became the light to my world. My sunshine. She is the angel that made me rise again. "I'm so sorry, baby..." I stiffened when I felt him carefully settled on my back. He hugged me so tight and buried his face on the crook of my neck. I was even more shocked when I felt the nape of my neck where his face was buried slightly wet. He was sniffling and sobbing. He's crying! He's crying! "I made a mistake. I choose to hurt you just to save you, baby." He sobbed while I frowned. My forehead creased. I wiped my tears and tried to face him but he held me more. "I-I can't take us to be like this anymore...I'm sorry. It was my fault. I-It was my fault..." "What the hell are you talking about, Claus? I-I don't understand."
Chapter 42Sunset When we arrived in the island, we were immediately greeted by the couple, Tammy and Euler. The man looked at me for a while before looking away and grinning. I squinted my eyes at him, raising my eyebrows in the process. "Tammy, tell your husband not to tell Monteserio that I'm here. I don't want to see that bastard lurking around here again later."Tammy slightly turned to her husband and elbowed his stomach. Euler coughed but didn't complain. "You heard that, Euler. Don't do anything because I'm going to divorce you." The man just sighed and nodded. I smirked. Whipped, huh? "Of course, baby. Don't want to put our marriage at risk." I just rolled my eyes when he dipped his head and kissed my friend in front of me. "We're going straight to the cabin, Tam. We're going to rest..." I kissed her cheek. I was about to leave when she held my wrist. I looked at her with a frown. I saw her pouted. She came even closer to me before whispering. "Why are Raf and Miya in th
Chapter 41Hide and Seek But who am I kidding? How many years had passed again? Five or six? I thought he wasn't in my heart anymore. I thought I was completely over with my love for him. But it turns out, for those years, I just filled my heart with anger, the reason why I thought that I was over him. But not yet, he's still here. Still intact. I love him. I still do. I can't deny that anymore to myself because I already feel it. But then, I don't trust him. And my love for him is not enough for me to take a risk again. Especially because of the words I heard from Beatriz yesterday. "What is the problem?" I was brought back to reality when Raf nudged me. "You said we're leaving tomorrow, right? But why does it seem so early? Aren't you too excited to leave?" he asked. I sighed before adjusting Indira who is sitting on my legs. "No. I just want to make Indie happy," I said. I saw him pouted, clearly not believing to what I said. "It's not that. I know there's something else. You
Chapter 40EraseIt was as if the whole world had thrown me a huge meteorite. I was frozen. I was stuck. I was...dumbfounded. I wanted to blame myself again for even thinking of giving Claus a chance to meet his daughter, our daughter.He...planned these. For sure.I let out a smirk. Of course. As much as I wanted to believe those stupid actions that he did these past few days, it was impossible that he loves me just like what he told me. He pushed me away. He loathed me because he believed I was the one who killed our own child. I may treasure my career so much at that time because I was just starting, and modeling is my passion. It was my first love before him, but when I found out I was pregnant with our child, I didn't think about having an abortion. I could never do such a thing. And it hurts me that he believed in others more than me. He doesn't believe me. He didn't let me explain.It broke me into pieces. He broke me into pieces. I know he was hurt by what happened, but he do
Chapter 39AbortionI fell asleep in his arms that night. I just woke up because of the rays of the hitting my face. I frowned and slowly got up. I blinked my eyes multiple times, letting my sight get used with the blinding light. I'm in our unit's room. How did I...I shook my head before getting out of bed. I was still yawning while going to the bathroom.I hardly can remember what happened last night. It's just that I fell asleep after my nap. Ha! I rolled my eyes. I don't even know why I let him do the things that he's doing right now. I mean, it's obvious, right? I've moved on. Or did I, really?I rolled my eyes.I know myself better and I know I'm done with him. It's just that... I'm feeling so attached to him. And I'm even loving the way he touches me. I love his warmth. His scent. I even thought I'm addicted to it. I still remember how I smelled him last night. I even heard how he laughed at me while I was doing that.I sighed.I ignored the thoughts that were bothering me bef