ESSENCE
Once again, I ended up in the arms of the stranger. He caught me before my face hit the ground, flipping my body effortlessly. In the blink of an eye, my back was resting against his other arm, like he’d done this a thousand times before. Our eyes met. Again. And there went my heart, racing like it was training for a marathon. I didn’t even realize I was biting my lower lip until it was too late. 'You are truly disgusting, Essence.' I chided myself silently, forcing my teeth away from my lip. At thirty, I was too old to be getting infatuated with a hot stranger who would never think of me that way. Worse, I was a married woman. With a son. And yet, here I was acting like a schoolgirl who’d never seen a man before. I pulled myself away from him quickly and tried to put a good two feet of distance between us. “You need to be more careful,” he said. Then his gaze sharpened. “Why are your cheeks turning red? Are you having indigestion?” “It’s my natural skin tone,” I lied flatly. It was either that or admit that my hormones were staging a coup. He didn’t push it. Instead, he gave me a look that made my stomach twist again, then said, “You know, I’ve been working out basically my whole life, and I’m very good at it. Why don’t I show you some simple exercises to work your glutes? It’ll help with your stamina, balance your steps, and keep you from tripping all the time.” I wanted to refuse. Honestly, I did. But my head was nodding like I was under some kind of spell. He smiled, just for a second, and that’s when it hit me. I knew him. I’d seen that face before… but where? “Come on,” he said, gesturing forward. Like an obedient puppet, I followed as he led me to a clear spot in the gym. He moved behind me, his hands guiding my waist gently. “Start with slow squats,” he instructed. “I’m right here. I won’t let you fall.” As he spoke, his breath fanned the back of my neck. Goosebumps bloomed across my skin like someone had switched on an air conditioner in January. There was no way I was developing stamina or balance with his voice in my ear. Not when my knees were this weak and my brain was this scrambled. “I… I need to go,” I blurted. His hands stilled on my waist. “I have to make breakfast for my husband and son.” I grabbed my bag and practically sprinted for the door before he could say another word. Five minutes later, I was behind the wheel of my car, my hands shaking and my heart still racing. “Damn you, Alex!” I shouted, smacking the steering wheel hard enough to make my palm sting. “If you hadn’t refused to touch me for almost three years, I wouldn’t be this turned on by a hot stranger!” By the time I got home, I had calmed a little. Driving through the gates, I spotted Alex’s car pulling out. And there she was. Remi Vanguard in the passenger seat, chatting away like she owned the world. Asher sat in the back, smiling. My family. My husband. My son. Pretending I didn’t exist. I honked, sharp and loud. Alex didn’t even blink. He just sped away, leaving me behind in a cloud of dust. I parked in silence, trying to hold it together. Inside, the dining table was still covered in plates from breakfast. They’d eaten and left the mess for me to clean up. I wanted to scream. Instead, I rolled up my sleeves and washed the plates. Then I spent the next few hours cleaning the entire house like it was my job. Well.... it was. And all the while, I kept hearing his voice in my head. 'You are beautiful, Essence.' The words rang clear, like he’d just whispered them in my ear. I caught myself smiling and just like that, my mood shifted. It was stupid. I knew that. But it felt… good. Better than I’d felt in a long time. After finishing the cleaning and sorting through Alex and Asher’s laundry, I took a hot shower, ate a small breakfast, and finally threw myself onto my bed. I spent the rest of the day alone in that house. No surprise there. I only heard their voices when the sky turned dark. Laughter. Asher’s, mostly. Alex had been treating him like an adult ever since his final exams for the term ended four days ago. Dragging him everywhere. I needed to talk to Alex about that, about a lot of things. I left my room, made dinner, and served it when they both came to the dining table. I tried to talk to them. Tried to joke. Tried to… anything. But they ignored me completely. Asher didn’t even glance my way. “Am I not talking to you, Asher?” I asked, my voice cracking. But he kept eating like I wasn’t there. Alex slammed his hand on the table hard enough to make the plates jump. “Can you let us eat in peace? What’s with all the noise?” He stood abruptly and Asher followed. Neither of them finished their food. I sat there, staring at their plates, my chest hollow. I cleaned up again and went back to my room. Four hours later, sleep still wouldn’t come. No matter how I tried, all I kept hearing was that stranger’s voice. 'You’re beautiful. You’re sexy.' I wasn’t sure when it happened but suddenly, I was turned on. Really turned on. I climbed out of bed, brushed my teeth again, took another shower, and sprayed myself with the perfume Alex used to love. Then I pulled out the black nightie he always said drove him crazy. It still fit. Barely. I stood in front of the mirror and tried to believe what I was saying. “You can do this, Essence,” I whispered. “You are beautiful. Curvy. Sexy.” With a deep breath, I opened my door and walked down the hall toward the guest room Alex had moved into more than two years ago. He claimed I snored too loudly for him to sleep. Said I sounded like a pig. His excuses had started small. Too tired. Too stressed. Then he finally admitted the truth: I disgusted him. But tonight, I didn’t care about his excuses. I was horny and I was his wife. We’d said for better or worse, not until Remi showed up. I stood outside his door and was about to knock when I heard moaning. Sexual. Rhythmic. My heart dropped. There were only three of us in the house. For a moment, I thought maybe he was watching p**n, until I noticed the door wasn’t even locked. I pushed it open slowly. And I froze. Alex was on top of another woman. Their bodies moved together in a sick, perfect rhythm. I couldn’t move. Couldn’t breathe. Until the woman turned her head to the side and looked straight at me. Remi Vanguard. She smiled at me as my husband fucked her. I gripped the edge of the door, my knuckles white, my nails biting into the wood. Tears blurred my vision, hot and heavy, sliding down my cheeks. But I couldn’t move. I couldn’t look away. And neither did she.ESSENCE I turned and ran back to my room. I didn’t stop until I was face-down on my bed, crying my heart out.At some point, I slid down to the floor. I sat there for hours, my back against the bed, my face streaked with tears. I wasn’t just crying over what I saw, I was mourning everything. All of it. I thought back to how it started. How I met Alex. He was in a wheelchair back then. An accident had left him paralyzed, but he still showed up to support kids at the orphanage. I was there, too. I had lived a few years of my life in that same orphanage. I understood those kids better than anyone.That was where we met.I had just started my company with my best friends, Hailey and Sky. Life was good. It was mine. Until we fell in love. Alex proposed, and I said yes. I was a size twenty-two even then, but he never complained, he loved me that way. And I believed him. After we got married, I found out he could walk again, if he had surgery. But it was expensive... very
ESSENCE “Did you forget your promise?” I asked, staring at Alex like he was a walking disappointment. “You said it would be just the two of us.” “I know,” he said, holding my arms like I was the unreasonable one. “But try to be flexible. Even your son wants to come.” Right. My son wants to come. The same son who told me to leave my own house. Without another word, I turned, walked back into my room, and slammed the door behind me. My bed barely creaked as I sank into it and stared at nothing. “I should’ve known,” I muttered. “It was too good to be true.” I bent down to unstrap the silver death traps pretending to be shoes. They dug into my fingers as I yanked at the buckles. Of course, Alex picked these shoes. They were his favorite. Mine too—if I’d lost all feeling in my feet. That’s when he came barging into the room. “What the hell is wrong with you?” he snapped. “You know the world doesn’t revolve around you, right?” I scoffed loudly. “You’re the liar full
ESSENCE I sat quietly in the corner, watching everyone eat, drink, and laugh like it was the happiest day of their lives. Well, it probably was. Everyone’s life but mine. They looked right through me, as if I didn’t exist. Which was ironic, considering I was supposed to be the co-star of the show. It was my tenth wedding anniversary, for goodness’ sake. Ten years married to Alex Watson, yet here I was, the invisible woman at my own celebration. But not Remi Vanguard. Oh no, Remi was impossible to miss. She was the star of the evening. She floated around like she owned the place… like she owned my husband. Alex couldn’t take his eyes off her, and neither could half the people here. Including my nine-year-old son, Asher, who seemed to think she was some kind of goddess sent from heaven to grace us with her presence. I looked at the party I had spent weeks planning. The decorations, the flowers, the cake I nearly lost my eyebrows baking in the middle of the night because the ca
ESSENCE My alarm dragged me out of a sleep I didn’t remember falling into. For a second, I forgot why my chest felt so heavy..... then I remembered. I sat up slowly, stretching my arms until my shoulders popped. Yawning, I glanced at the clock. Almost five in the morning, because apparently, heartbreak wakes up early. I was still surprised I’d made it home last night. After everything that had happened—the humiliation, the cold, and the fact that my family treated me like an afterthought—I’d driven home like a zombie on autopilot. And I lived to tell the tale. Sort of. It still hurt, thinking about last night. But sitting around feeling sorry for myself wasn’t going to get my family back. I was determined to fix it..... to fix me. I climbed out of bed, splashed water on my face to clear the fog, and headed straight for the kitchen. A while later, I had breakfast set up at the dining table. Toasted bread, eggs, sausage, fruit—served with the kind of love and hope only a w
ESSENCE “Did you forget your promise?” I asked, staring at Alex like he was a walking disappointment. “You said it would be just the two of us.” “I know,” he said, holding my arms like I was the unreasonable one. “But try to be flexible. Even your son wants to come.” Right. My son wants to come. The same son who told me to leave my own house. Without another word, I turned, walked back into my room, and slammed the door behind me. My bed barely creaked as I sank into it and stared at nothing. “I should’ve known,” I muttered. “It was too good to be true.” I bent down to unstrap the silver death traps pretending to be shoes. They dug into my fingers as I yanked at the buckles. Of course, Alex picked these shoes. They were his favorite. Mine too—if I’d lost all feeling in my feet. That’s when he came barging into the room. “What the hell is wrong with you?” he snapped. “You know the world doesn’t revolve around you, right?” I scoffed loudly. “You’re the liar full
ESSENCE I turned and ran back to my room. I didn’t stop until I was face-down on my bed, crying my heart out.At some point, I slid down to the floor. I sat there for hours, my back against the bed, my face streaked with tears. I wasn’t just crying over what I saw, I was mourning everything. All of it. I thought back to how it started. How I met Alex. He was in a wheelchair back then. An accident had left him paralyzed, but he still showed up to support kids at the orphanage. I was there, too. I had lived a few years of my life in that same orphanage. I understood those kids better than anyone.That was where we met.I had just started my company with my best friends, Hailey and Sky. Life was good. It was mine. Until we fell in love. Alex proposed, and I said yes. I was a size twenty-two even then, but he never complained, he loved me that way. And I believed him. After we got married, I found out he could walk again, if he had surgery. But it was expensive... very
ESSENCE Once again, I ended up in the arms of the stranger.He caught me before my face hit the ground, flipping my body effortlessly. In the blink of an eye, my back was resting against his other arm, like he’d done this a thousand times before.Our eyes met. Again. And there went my heart, racing like it was training for a marathon. I didn’t even realize I was biting my lower lip until it was too late.'You are truly disgusting, Essence.' I chided myself silently, forcing my teeth away from my lip. At thirty, I was too old to be getting infatuated with a hot stranger who would never think of me that way.Worse, I was a married woman. With a son. And yet, here I was acting like a schoolgirl who’d never seen a man before.I pulled myself away from him quickly and tried to put a good two feet of distance between us.“You need to be more careful,” he said.Then his gaze sharpened. “Why are your cheeks turning red? Are you having indigestion?”“It’s my natural skin tone,” I lied flatly.
ESSENCE My alarm dragged me out of a sleep I didn’t remember falling into. For a second, I forgot why my chest felt so heavy..... then I remembered. I sat up slowly, stretching my arms until my shoulders popped. Yawning, I glanced at the clock. Almost five in the morning, because apparently, heartbreak wakes up early. I was still surprised I’d made it home last night. After everything that had happened—the humiliation, the cold, and the fact that my family treated me like an afterthought—I’d driven home like a zombie on autopilot. And I lived to tell the tale. Sort of. It still hurt, thinking about last night. But sitting around feeling sorry for myself wasn’t going to get my family back. I was determined to fix it..... to fix me. I climbed out of bed, splashed water on my face to clear the fog, and headed straight for the kitchen. A while later, I had breakfast set up at the dining table. Toasted bread, eggs, sausage, fruit—served with the kind of love and hope only a w
ESSENCE I sat quietly in the corner, watching everyone eat, drink, and laugh like it was the happiest day of their lives. Well, it probably was. Everyone’s life but mine. They looked right through me, as if I didn’t exist. Which was ironic, considering I was supposed to be the co-star of the show. It was my tenth wedding anniversary, for goodness’ sake. Ten years married to Alex Watson, yet here I was, the invisible woman at my own celebration. But not Remi Vanguard. Oh no, Remi was impossible to miss. She was the star of the evening. She floated around like she owned the place… like she owned my husband. Alex couldn’t take his eyes off her, and neither could half the people here. Including my nine-year-old son, Asher, who seemed to think she was some kind of goddess sent from heaven to grace us with her presence. I looked at the party I had spent weeks planning. The decorations, the flowers, the cake I nearly lost my eyebrows baking in the middle of the night because the ca