chapter 1

Esita’s POV

I went home with tears in my eyes. He was going to be so happy, I thought to myself.

After all these years of crying, suffering and heartbreak, the endless humiliation and scorn from my pack members, I had finally given Symon what he wanted more than anything in this world – a child.

As I approached the front door, I heard a loud grunt from inside, followed closely by a gentle moan. It was really little, but my heightened wolf senses made it as loud as a freight train.

What was going on in there? I opened the door and was immediately confused. Pieces of clothing laid scattered everywhere, I saw what I recognized to be Symon’s top on the sofa. I clenched the test results in my hand, confusion giving way to anger. What was he doing?

I stormed up the steps, yelling for him in my mind but losing the will to materialize my screaming; my thoughts were starting to race. I had seen a woman’s bra top at the bottom of the stairs. Why was he doing this to me right now, of all times? I took a deep breath in front of our room door, and opened it, ready for the worst.

And the worst was what I saw. Symon was practically knee deep inside another woman, on our matrimonial bed. I was in shock at the events unfolding in front of me. He let out a disappointed snarl, and she looked straight into my eyes and smiled.

“Sy- I can’t believe you would do this to me.”

“What do you mean you can’t believe?” His anger was palpable now. “We’ve been married for 7 years, Esi. Do you think I would go one more second without securing my bloodline?”

“I thought we loved each other, Sy” Tears were starting to roll down my cheek, they stung my lips and I bit them as if in reflex.

“I love my pack, Esi. I did my duties to you as a husband for 7 years. Now I have to do my duty as an alpha.”

“That’s such a shit excuse.” The anger was finding its way back into the tone of my voice.

“You didn’t have to cheat, and you are not going to justify it in any way to me. I was hurt too!” I turned my gaze to the woman he was with.

“And your only answer to what we both passed through was to go fornicate with this washed up pathetic excuse for a beta?”

She looked up at me, confused. “What the f*ck is your problem with me?”

“My problem is that you’re f*cking my husband on my f*cking matrimonial bed, you pathetic little whore.”

“That’s enough!” Symon shouted at us both. “Esita, Olivia is my guest. You will not insult her while she is in my house. And a matrimonial bed that does not produce children is not worth more than the mats on the street.”

Those words stung my insides like he drove them into my heart and stared me down while he did it.

“I can’t believe you would say something like that to me! Over this bitch? Pretty classy of you, Alpha Symon.”

The Olivia girl must have taken offense, because she part transformed and tried walking towards me, only to be blocked by Symon.

I saw an opportunity to get toxic, and I took it without thinking. “No wonder you left me for her. I’m not dominant enough for you, you little sissy wolf?”

He lost his head after that, and rightfully so. He deserved to be put through the same pain I was currently going through.

“Maybe I should let Olivia at your frail ass. You wouldn’t stand a chance against her, she’s dominant enough to maul you to pieces.”

“Go ahead, loser. Let your mistress beat your pregnant wife because she caught you cheating. Show me how much of a façade you’ve been putting on all these years.”

“Wait, what did you say?”

It was too late.

In a flash, Olivia was on me. Her claws pierced through my flesh, making me let out a yelp of agony.

Symon tried restraining her but it was to no avail. She pulled my hair and flung me onto the wall and then the floor. I landed on my stomach, then I passed out.

I woke up a while later to see Symon and a doctor staring down over me. Was I in the hospital? Oh no. The baby, did anything happen to the baby?

I tried reaching up in the direction of the doctor, but I couldn’t lift my hand. I was disoriented, and for some reason I couldn’t move my hand.

“Why.. why am I here? What happened?”

The doctor stared at me with obvious sadness in his eyes.

“You passed out, Lady Esita. You’ve been out for 4 hours.”

“And..what happened to that girl Symon?” I turned my head to his condescending figure.

“She’s gone. You don’t have to worry about it or her for now. I’m more concerned about the last thing you said before you fell unconscious. Something about you being pregnant. Is this true, doctor?”

“Well, according to my preliminary tests, it looks like she was.”

My heart dropped from my chest. “What do you mean was? That’s a mistake, right?”

“I’m afraid not, Luna Esita. Due to the brutal nature of the impact between your stomach and the floor, I’m sorry to say that the baby lost its life.”

My heart felt like it dropped from my chest. The one thing that I – that we wanted more than anything in this life was now gone. And it was all his fault. I looked at him and I have never been so angry in my entire life.

“So I walked into my husband cheating on me with someone else, watched her beat me unconscious, and woke up to hear that I lost my baby?

“It doesn’t sound well when you put it that way.”

“I don’t wanna hear it, Sy.”

I found the will to stand up from the bed and instantly made my way out. I could hear Symon calling me back, telling me to wait, but his voice was drowned underneath my overwhelming desire to be on my own, away from all of this.

I went downstairs and left his house. My car was outside, and I realized that I had left the engine running in my excitement to tell Symon the news of my pregnancy. I felt myself seething with anger, so I just hopped in and drove off as fast as I could.

I headed onto the freeway at full speed with music blasting out the windows. I was crying, but I didn’t care. Why is all this happening to me? I shouldn’t be going through this, I deserve more than all of this, more than him.

In my thoughts, I didn’t notice the sedan pulling into the freeway from a side road. The driver expected me to slow down or switch lanes, I did neither.

What I remember after that was crashing into the back of the car hard, hitting my head on the steering wheel, and blacking out while airborne.

I woke up after what felt like an eternity – in a proper hospital this time. I could barely feel anything other than a severe pain at several points in my body all at once.

A nurse was taking notes when I came to, and she seemed surprised that I was awake. Maybe I was meant to be out for longer?

“Uh, how long was I out for?”

“Three hours, ma’am.”

“Oh, no wonder you were surprised,” I chuckled to myself.

In that moment, someone burst through the ward doors.

“Is that murderer awake?”