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My Feelings for him

Author: Author Alice
last update Last Updated: 2023-02-26 19:57:10

"I guess we're both doing a lot of that", When he looked confused, I explained. "Letting our insecurities and fears run our thoughts without speaking about them to the other person",

"Ah yeah.....", Drake leaned back in his chair and stared over at me.

"Lynn, I'm so fucking sorry........",

"How did you get into porn?", I blurted not wanting to hear him apologize again. I understand how sorry he was but apologies wouldn't fix what has happened. We needed to dig deeper than that.

He blew out a deep breath. "You want to start there huh!",

"What else would we start? With the fact that you were growing feelings for me as much as I was growing them for you and then you turn around and you stick your dick into the other women?.....", I sipped on my wine trying to shut up.

"I deserve that", He leaned forward and rested his elbows on the table. "You're angry and I don't blame you. I'm pretty sure I would be livid if roles were reversed right now",

"Of course you would be livid. You would have
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