XIENNE
I didn’t leave. I still chose to hear what they are talking about. I am very curious about what Clarisse had said. What does she want Rhiza to do?
Rhiza is still sobbing and when she calmed. She sighed softly. I heard her clear her throat. I did not bother to peek my eyes inside anymore. It is enough to hear them.
“Let’s break up,” said Rhiza.
My forehead creased the later on I smiled a little. Few more, I will already make up my plan with these two. They will in my hands... easily, without exerting too much effort.
“What? No! We’re not going to end this fucking relationship, Rhiza! Open your mind!” Rhiza exclaimed. I heard her chuckle with annoyance.
“I already made up my mind, Clarisse. This isn’t working anymore!” A little sob from Rhiza came again. “This is not about us anymore! It is only about yourself and your bullshit ego!”
I tried to look inside. Clarisse is now sitting on the floor with her palms in her face. I bet she’s cry
XIENNEWith a little talk with Nikolai, I suddenly became comfortable with him again. Thinking about the last time I saw him, he’s different now. His face is calm not like the last time that he looks kind of annoyed or irritated about something.“How’s Lexy?” I asked.He shrugged his shoulders. “We do not always see each other but I know she’s fine.”I nodded. “How about you? How are you, Nikolai?”It took a while before he answered, eventually sighing deeply. As usual, he looked up at the blue sky. The weather is cloudy now so the sun doesn't hurt the skin much, to add the fact that we are under the trees so we don't get hit by the sun rays.“As usual, Xienne. I’m just fine and trying to be okay with each passing day,” he uttered.I was silent for a moment and did not know what to say. I watched him in his entirety. Gradually his physique became more and more deteriorating, what the reason was I don’t know. I felt little pity for his condit
XIENNEMy dream never put me to sleep again. It is late at night but my eyes remain open. Drowsiness has never visited me. I was already in bed to force myself to go back to sleep but I really didn't work.I wonder if my friend Nikolai is the child of my dream. But I can no longer remember that scene. Did that really happen or was it just a dream?I don't want to think anymore but I just can't help it. A lot of things are running through my mind right now and it seems like very soon enough, my brain is going to explode.I was in a mess and didn't know what to do. It's like I just want to disappear suddenly and never be seen again.After one and a half hours adventuring in bed, eventually visited by drowsiness, I finally fell asleep. The next day, like yesterday, I woke up at noon again. Eventually, I just thought not to go to school. I just turned off the cellphone so that Ace wouldn’t annoy me and ask why I didn’t come to school.His scratching i
XIENNESeeing Kate’s body in the coffin gives me utter regret. I don’t regret it because she died early, I regret it because I wasn’t the cause of her death.I could see the sadness on the faces of my classmates. Kate's remains were interred in the church and will be buried in a nearby private cemetery here in the area. Her parents could not believe the death of their only child. They could hardly leave the child's remains and their cries were heard all over the place.Meanwhile, nothing is happening in the police investigation. It was found out that the car that crashed into Kate did not have a used license plate number. It was spotted using surveillance cameras near the scene of the accident.They are tracking using the other CCTV where the car went so they could clearly see who was driving it. Still nothing gets in the way.Slowly, my classmates died. Destiny seems to be helping me because of what happened to Kate. If I think about it and remember fr
XIENNEBecause of the severity of my condition, I chose to stay in the hospital temporarily until I recovered. If I go home to the apartment, there is a good chance or high possibility that Lexy and Nikolai will visit me every day. My classmates might also visit me which can’t happen, they might see what’s in my room. They can't figure out my plan. I thought of that for a long time, they should not ruin my plan.I missed class for almost two days and Ace told me yesterday that our classmates might visit me when they have time after class. They already know too that Clarisse is the mastermind of what happened to me. I heard they are ignoring both Rhiza and Clarisse. I don’t think they should ignore Rhiza too, I only hate Clarisse. I also think that Rhiza has nothing to do with what happened to me, she’s too nice to agree with what her girlfriend is planning.Nikolai did not visit me since the night I was admitted here to the hospital. I don't know what he is up t
XIENNEShee was surprised by what I have said. She stopped at her intention to jump from the rooftop. I took my eyes off herand walked towards the railings she also clings to now. I looked down at the chin and saw it was too high. Whoever jumps here will surely die, there is very little chance of surviving.“I don't understand you, you stopped me earlier from jumping and now you're making me jump? You are unbelievable, seriously,” she said.I chuckled. “You can now jump. I don't really care if you want to commit suicide. You are just one of my annoying classmates, you are also not important in my life. So why would I stop you? Don’t feel so important.”“I will really jump, Xienne. And I will forever haunt your conscience once I’m already dead,” she hissed. I just shrugged my shoulders because of her remarks. “Mark my words!”I laughed at her so hard that my stomach hurt at the laughter because of her. There was a look of annoyance on her face. I think s
XIENNEThat incident did not put me to sleep. I watched myself, afraid that when I opened my eyes, Beatrice and Samantha, who had been dead for almost a few months, were staring at me.I was just stunned in the bedroom while sitting, I was also shaking and I didn’t know what I was going to do to calm myself down. I had no friends to call, I was afraid they might call me crazy because I had the illusion that I was seeing Beatrice and Samantha.If I only knew this was going to happen to me, I would have just kept quiet and did not kill anyone. I wish I had just let them do to me what they wanted to do. I wish I hadn’t planned to retaliate, but I could do nothing. This is my destiny.I will still pursue my plans and nothing can stop me. This is my only option. I can't take back what I've done, I'll just continue.My cellphone rang. I picked it up trembling from the bed and looked at who was calling. Ace's name registers on the screen.I calmed myself
XIENNEI just saw myself crying while listening to Nikolai. What was happening in his life was too much pain for him. He really wanted to be free but he did not know how. He is still dependent on his parents and does not have enough money to start living alone. He could do nothing.As I could see the tears welling up in his eyes, it was as if my heart was being stabbed. There seems to be something light there and I don’t know what it is— something unusual. That feeling is new to me. I wanted to hug him but I couldn't move. I could clearly see the movement of his shoulder as he bent down, signaling that he was crying.I just let him cry until he got tired, it took him a few minutes before he finally stopped crying. He adjusted himself as if nothing had happened and smiled at me, he was smiling but his eyes were sad.“Thank you for listening. Your presence is enough to somehow cheer me up,” he spoke.“You're welcome. When you need someone to talk to, don'
XIENNEThe news about Rhiza spread like a wildfire the day after that said ‘incident’ happened. My classmates were shocked when they found out what happened. They mourned for her and they regretted not talking to her because they know that Rhiza has suicidal attempts since then.Clarisse was silent, our class was almost suspended because no professor showed to teach us. Maybe because they know that the student who committed suicide came from us.I just kept quiet while watching my classmates. What I did last night is still fresh in my mind. The guard immediately saw what had happened to her and reported it to the police. They immediately concluded suicide and no foul play occurred.They didn’t know that one of the students was responsible for why the pitiful Rhiza fell from the fifth floor. No one is talking to Clarisse now because most of them are blaming her for why Rhiza committed suicide. It was part of my plan, to make my classmates blame Clarisse. Funny