“Touch yourself princess” Jim says blankly and passes a seductive look over to me.It causes me to laugh because I can’t believe he is serious.“What do you mean by I should touch myself, babe? I can’t do that”.“Yes you can,” he says, looking at me and taking his eyes back to the road.“I…… I don’t know how to” I stammer.“I’ll guide you” Jim says, his hands going up my thighs and I sigh deeply…“Babe” I say, stopping his hands from going underneath my shorts“It’s fine if you don’t want to princess,” he says, rubbing my thighs.“I do babe….. Direct me” I say the last part with a low voice and I know he heard me.“Take your shorts off” he says, and I don’t question, I just do as he says.I take my shorts off, and I’m left with my panties.He looks at me, this time around, slowing the car down. He drives by the edge of the road.He uses his hands to take mine up my thighs, and he tugs on my pantiesHe pushes it to the side and gives it a little tap.“I love how you’re wet for my princ
And it’s in this movement that I fall in love again. With the same person, who somehow manages to love me.“Why are you smiling?” Jim asks.“Oh it’s nothing baby, but here comes my favorite partttttttt…” I say loudly and stick my tongue out, being unnecessarily goofy.“But I'm sad to say, I’m on my way. Won’t be back for many a days. My heart is down, my head is spinning around. I gotta leave a little girl in Kingston town”. I scream out loud like the music relates to my life experiences.“Princess!!!!” Jim yells and turns off my music.“What now babe?” I question, taking a chicken pie out of the plastic bag.“I prefer the no music, okay? You can just receive the fresh air and enjoy your snacks while I drive. Don’t you think that’s a good idea?” Jim asks and states.“Alright, fine… but that’s just because I’m exhausted from having to scream out the lyrics of the song” I sigh and eat my chicken pie.It’s too dry, so I go ahead to grab a milkshake from the cars mini fridge.“Baby, how
With him, Jim.I didn’t notice a big mirror by the other side of the bed, so I walk and stand in front of it.I didn’t notice when Jim comes to me, even though I was in front of a mirror.I jolt when he wraps his hands around my waist.“Fuck!” I whisper yell.“What you thinking about, getting so lost?” Jim asks me, placing a kiss on my neck.“It’s nothing, baby. I just didn’t expect it” I smile and place my hands around his that’s on my waist.“Are you happy?” He asks, his question taking me by surprise.He turns my chest to face his, and he asks the question again.“Are you happy, princess?” He looks into my eyes, like he is looking for some sort of answer.And I’m afraid that my eyes might give into his stares.The child in my womb, the constant fights, my father, Jim’s mother.All these thoughts come rushing back.Am I really happy, or am I just trying not to think about it? I question.“Yes….. yes, I am” I say.I’m unsure of my words, so I'm shifting my gaze from his face and look
“Let’s get married,” Jim says even though his eyes are closing and he's sleepy.“Babe, what do you even mean by that?” I ask him.“Let’s get married,” he repeats.“Umm…. How about you get some rest, and we’ll talk more about that, okay?”“Okay” Jim says, and I leave him alone in the room.I walk back into the Kitchen and I see that Kendra is trying to chop off some vegetables.“What are you trying to make, Kens?”“Just a vegetable salad and some pasta” she says“Oh been long I ate a vegetable salad”“Well, we were just working with what we had”“That’s true… praying for a soft life for us”“Amen….. So what’s up with Jim… everything okay?” Kendra asks.“Yeah, why?”“Cause he called you and all of that, so I was hoping there was no problem and stuff like that” Kendra concludes“Oh, there’s no problem. He just proposed” I say, the realization of what happened, dawning on me.“That’s crazy girlll… so when’s the wedding”“Well, I don’t think he’s being for real so cause he’s been in his fe
But, I’m scared of him, I’ve always been scared of him.Maybe I should let myself stop falling this hard, maybe I could rise up and then it wouldn’t be this late.I go ahead to lie in bed with him, I maneuver my way into his hands.I’m in between his hands and it’s calming.If he is like a drug, then I would always want to be high.He opens his eyes a little, and I can’t help but regret waking him up.“Princess, is that you?” He asks, still sounding very sleepy.“Yeah it’s me, I didn’t mean to wake you up baby” I say“It’s fine” he says, adjusting me to lay perfectly in between his arms.“Are you comfortable?” I ask.“Yeah I am princess, you?”“Yeah I’m good”His arm lays across my shoulder, and he uses his other arm to support my head. Like my pillow.I know it would get a little uncomfortable for him, but I don’t mind it anyway.It’s not long, and his breathing becomes calmer and his muscle relaxes, which tells me that he was asleep again.It doesn’t take long before I fall asleep t
“Bye guys” I say and walk back to the kitchen to meet Kendra.“So? What to do? I really love how they’re getting together, and I don’t want to interrupt it” Kendra says.If only she knew what got them talking like that.“Yeah, I love it… I think you should get to know Jim too”.“Don’t worry Ana, I have a lot of time to get to know Jim” she says and hands a pack of smarties chocolate over to me.“Let’s go to my room and look for some fun things that we could do together”“Would Joel be okay with me walking into your room?” I ask.“Yeah, of course. I don’t think he’ll mind. Plus, we’re trying to create fun activities”.“Alright then, if you say so”Kendra leads the way and I make sure to grab a piece of donut.“You know if you continue eating like that, you’re going to be obese?”“Well I do, I’ll start working out, I guess”“So you said last month”“Let’s just blame my appetite on the baby,” I say when we’re inside Kendra’s room.“I’m guessing you still haven’t told him”“Kendra, I will
But-It’s nothing.It’s always been this type of family I’ve prayed for, for myself and for Kendra.Men who would see our imperfections and dark scars and still love us the way we are.“Are you okay princess?” Jim asks me, distracting me from my thoughts.“Yeah I am, I am really,” I say, convincing him that I am indeed fine.“So, when are we going to the swimming pool?” Kendra asks, and I can tell that she is eager.“Just when the sun goes down and the day is a bit darker… In the next three hours probably” Jim says.“Three hours” sticks in my brain and I can imagine doing nothing but watching a lame ass Korean movie for three hours.“That’s quite a lot of time, what do you think we can do before then?”“Watch this punishment of a movie” Joel blurts out, and his British accent makes it even funnier.Kendra smacks Joel on his hands, making everything funnier.“Do you know that hurt?” Joel asks, still laughing.“You deserve it to be honest,” Kendra says.“Jim, I am guessing that you migh
“Trust me to lead you,” Jim tells me, taking me off guard.The gravity of his words.But I wished it was used to describe something else, other than a swimming pool.Something like the battle of life. Something else.“I will” I smile.I grab my towel from the towel holder and wrap it around my chest.Jim does the same and wraps it around his waist.There’s a soft knock on our door.Jim and I halt in our steps, like we’re thief’s and we’re robbing a house.Just one more step will get us shot.Jim and I look at ourselves and use our eyes to communicate.“We’re fucked” we both chorus.“Yes” I say out loud, responding to the person at the door.“Ana, we’ve been waiting for you both since. What are y’all doing?”“Umm…. We just decided to take a shower, but I’m coming out now… out of the room”.“Okay, where’s Jim?”“I’m here, Kendra, what’s up?” Jim says, and it’s obvious that he’s trying to play it cool.“Could I have the keys to the door? The one leading to the swimming pool”.“Yeah sure,