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13. Matilda

Author: Alle
last update Last Updated: 2022-12-07 05:24:10

I expected Cillian to be surprised, to hopefully kiss me back and wrap his arms around me. I knew my brown eyes would be shimmering with gold, full of desire and need for him.

I had taken my leap, this was the bravest thing I have ever done but I don’t feel his hands on me.

Shit, I’ve made such a huge mistake. I end my kiss, open my eyes and look at him. His hands are gripping the table so firmly his knuckles are white.

“I thought…I wanted to show you I want you too. What's the matter?”

Cillians' eyes blazed with bright blue, no sign of his iris changing but his face was a storm of emotion. Every muscle in his body was tense. “I don’t want to…to do things the wrong way.”

“What would be the wrong way?”

“I’m gripping this table because if I place my hands on you…I don’t know where I’ll stop.”

Caught in silence I looked at him steadily. Knowing he felt that strongly about me had my heart racing. The heat between my legs, yearning for him was undeniable. Nina prompted a devious little t
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