Novels by Ritual H. Rae

"What is he doing here?" I almost yell at Rori when I see my father boarding the same plane as us. Who in their right mind would invite him?That is not even it, who the fuck is this woman wrapped around his arms.Rori, who quickly came beside me rubs a hand down the length of my arm. "You know our fathers are friends. Papa invited him and his whole family to the wedding.""What do you mean his whole family?"She scrunches her brows. "You don't know?"I want to fucking scratch my skin out every time someone asks me this question. I've been away for merely a few weeks and I missed everything. And also If I had known then why would I ask?Jesus, I need to calm down."Rori what is going on," I ask my voice coming out calmer now. The jet is already filled with a lot of our business associates, silly me thought this was an internal affair.Why do I feel like I'm missing something big?She huffs in a breath."Your father, Beryl. He announced his engagement last week."Oh my fucking god.He

This all is a corrupt dream, like him________"Wait, you are buying all this?" I asked her watching her buy everything at Cartier. I look around astonished to find her buying all these expensive things. Whoever this girl is, she is not my friend. My Rori never believed in materialistic things - she believed in things like soul and meaning in life. This usually used to be my section. She's playing the field like a pro though. "Not for me, apparently Jeramy has a lot of cousins and sisters. I want to get gifts for all of them." Family, his family. She's buying gifts for him. My heart aches every time she touches another piece, looking at it with awe. She's going all in for this marriage, whereas he is doing it all for revenge. I don't know how I will live knowing I betrayed my best friend. "How is this one?" She asks a silver band in her hand. "It's beautiful," my voice came out softer than I wanted to. "Don't cry," she puts the band down. "We'll buy the rings from

CHAPTER - 23 when is love ever enough? ________ "You are back from hiding." My father taunts me as soon as I step into his office. "I want to talk to you about my resignation email, " I gritted. I don't know why but being in a room with him now makes me angry. "There is nothing to talk about. You did the right thing walking away from all this," he says so calmly like he didn't just something so mean. I have worked for years in this company. My blood and sweat everything is this. "I'm not walking away from shit. I want my job back, I want my company back," I scream blaming my hands down his table. For the first time since I met him. I've seen him shocked, he didn't expect me to lash out like this. "Mind your language young lady." He holds my gaze for what feels like hours - but can do whatever he wants. I'm not walking out of his office until I get what I want. He gestures for me to take a seat. "Sit down." I took the seat keeping my anger in check. "Who was it?

Chapter - 22 Biased, bruised, and a bad parent. __________ As I sit on the spring bed staring out from the window of this hotel, I wonder what happened to me. I fell into his trap knowing he would stab me in the back the first chance he'd get. Just like he did. I- well, thinking. It is all I can do now, now when I'm so down that the cold floor beneath my feet feels soft. The scar on my stomach will always, in some way or another, tie me to him. It's a constant reminder, a tangible inscription etched onto my flesh. I chuckled darkly, the sound devoid of humor. How quickly shock morphed into a thrill, a twisted sense of pride witnessing his ruthless takeover. But that thrill, like the memory itself, is slowly fading, leaving behind only a bitter aftertaste and the ever-present mark of his presence. Fuck, I lost my virginity to that man. Not that it's a big deal, anyway. I should've done it long ago but I couldn't - because every other man in my life always made me feel like di

Chapter - 21 Favorite B letter word -Betrayal. __________ I read the message again and again. Jeramy: you can come back now, Rori has given her statement. I should be happy to hear this, fucking ecstatic even. I can finally go back to New York, and go back to work. I read while pushing the door open for him to enter. "Come in doctor." "I don't need a doc-" she protests but I cut her off quickly. "yes you do, just let him take a look," I say motioning the doctor to come to follow us. She stopped midstep watching Cora and her baby daddy. I'm still so angry at Cora for what she did to Beryl but she's pregnant. I can't do anything to her even if I wanted to. I stare at her while she's busy staring at them. She's it. She's the reason I'm not as happy as I should be when I hear the news. This little time here with her had been a fantasy. It's not real, I know. She will go back to her world and I will go back to mine, the only difference is. She will never forget my parting

Chapter - 20Ronan___________it's like someone has punched me in the fucking face. "pregnant?"Killian gets go of the trigger but still trained his gun straight. "You are lying.""I'm not. I'm pregnant, I'm not saying it's your baby. But I am. Please let me live," she begs. "Lower your gun," I whisper loud enough for him to hear. "Lower your fucking gun, Killian." I had to yell for him to listen to me. Igor's phone rings loudly cutting the tension from the air. He gives me a look before picking up the call and walking out. Elijah's gaze followed Igor before he turned back to Cora. He makes a show to kick Braxton, "Is this fucker the father?""No," Cora says without missing a beat."Doesn't matter, start explaining yourself, Cora. Or you know me. Baby or no baby I will make you pay." Killian says. I hope he is wrong. Because there is no chance in hell, am I ever letting him do it? "Ronan is the father," she says sobbing lightly. "The night you came back was also the night Rona

I've never thought I'll live to see this day," I admitted looking at myself in the mirror. Almost 6 months pregnant in a wedding dress, not bad. we have come a long way.Marissa puts a hand on my shoulder comforting me. "I'm so happy for you Boss. "I chuckled through my emotions. "I think we are officially past the formals. You are practically my sister-in-law now, call me Ayushi."The baby sleeping on Marissa's shoulder snorts, making us both laugh. "She is the cutest," I complimented.She nodes patting her back gently, "She sure is."I remember the day she was born, it was raining and I was precisely 4 months pregnant back then. "The weather is very harsh, how about you stay home and wait for her and the baby to come home," Nicolas said getting ready to leave for the hospital."Like hell I am, I'm going Nicolas and that is final."He rolled his eyes at me probably blaming my pregnancy hormones. "Think about the baby.""Oh, common nothing will happen to the baby. I'm always extra c

Chapter - 40 | it's my party and I cry if I want to________I looked around my office taking in the stillness of this place. This is new because this place has never felt this empty. I remember my heart was in my throat when the doctor was checking Ayushi. All I could think about was how much I wanted her to live, I wanted her alive, I wanted her with me. That I got, actually not only that but also the baby. our baby. I wonder when did she get pregnant. was it the night after the movie? or the night I made love to her? I think this will always be a mystery. A smile cropped on my face at the thought of the things I'd planned for her. I'm going to make her the happiest woman in the world. and that is a promise. I walked out of my office with a smile on my face, my life will never be empty it will always be full of her, our child, and all the more I'm going to give her. The eyes feel on her petite frame standing in front of the mirror in a black dress. I choose this dress for her

Chapter - 39| is this goodbye?_____"Why? Did they all leave? I ask him as soon as I woke up. "They will be back soon. I invited them all for dinner this weekend to announce the baby." I nodded my head dreading their reaction. Nicolas's mother hates me, she thinks I trapped him with me. "Where is Myra?""Downstairs with Dorian." I visibly cringed listening to his name. "What is he still doing here?" I half yelled expected for him to fight back but instead, he just sighed. "He is taking her with him."Over my dead body is that ever happening. "Myra," I yelled getting up from the bed. "Fuck, Ayushi. Slow down at least," he says but this time he doesn't stop me. I went straight to the guest room, where Myra was staying last just to find him in there. "Get away from her!"I pushed her back from him to me hardly. "Don't worry, Myra I will talk to Nicolas he will protect you. We will protect Nate.""Ayushi," Myra says draping her hands around me and hugging me. "What Happened?" This

Chapter - 38 | bad parenting is an underrated crime.________"Where are Myra and Nate?""They are safe.""Good, and what the thing you were saying that's incorrect sir. I'm not pregnant," I said awkwardly smiling around the crowd.He looks me dead in the eyes and goes. "You are pregnant."when I was a child I always used to wonder what I will be when I grow up, will I be strong like the women on the cover of magazines? will I be elegant like the 8th grade English teacher? will I ever love someone as much as I loved my grandma?all these questions and still somewhat fearful that will I be powerless like my mother? what if I end up like her?anyone can be a parent but not everyone deserves to be one, is a line worth billions.but do I deserve to be a parent? I already love this child more than anything in the whole world and yet I can't have it.I pinched my eyes close fearing that this is true. what have I done? what have I done? He doesn't want this baby, he will never accept it. and

CHAPTER - 37 | only love and death changes all things______two weeks later my body feels like a ticking bomb. there's a voice in my head that it's stupid to look for her. she never wanted to stay here in the first place. But that's only the rational part of me, and personally im anything but rational. Ace barged into my office, "Sir, we found something." "what?" I asked just then my phone ringed. "Dorian," I hissed as I saw his name flashing on my phone. I'll make it when all of this is over, I never see or hear from him again. "we have a clue, where they could be."I didn't waste any time picking up the phone, "bring your men, Costello we are going hunting." __ "wait, I have to tell you something," Dorian says as he comes out of our cars. The information Dorian gave was correct, they are in the city disguising among the people. a smile crept on my face, tonight you will sleep in my bed, sugar. "what? you dont want the best friend anymore?"I knew I kicked a nerve when he cle

Chapter - 36 | agony__________Dorian's pov for the past 5 years, there is a noose around my neck,So tight,Almost determined to break my neck. I've been living on the edge for the past almost half a decade. For a man born in blood, violence is necessary.I've lived and I've killed all because of her.I still get nightmares from the night I killed her, or at least I thought I killed her.I mourned her death, relieved her memory, and then I buried her name.She betrayed me, again.I threw the tumbler forward, shattering the tv screen. My veins feel like they are on fire and my skin feels like it's burning.Today when I saw Ayushi in Nicolas's house, I was shocked. She was supposed to be dead so does her friend.But seeing her alive standing in front of me wrapped in his arms, one thing is clear. Myra is alive.I killed her, she refused to die. It's almost amusing how many times these girls have played me.She didn't give me anything but I will find out where she is.And this time