Novels by Samarra Blair

AshleyParang bigla akong natauhan. Masarap sa pandinig ang mga salitang narinig ko, pero tama ba ang pagkakaintindi ko sa mga iyon? Totoo ba ang mga salitang iyon?“Dahil ba sa baby?” lakas-loob na tanong ko maski pa hindi naman ako nakakasigurado na makakakuha ako ng totoong sagot.“I want you, with or without the baby. And don’t mistake my words for anything else. When I say I want you, I want all of you—heart, body and soul.”Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin. Paraan niya ba ito para makuha ang loob ko at pagkatapos ay saka niya sasabihing amanos na kami? No, I wouldn’t let that happen. Sapat na iyong sakit na naramdaman ko at patuloy na nararamdaman. Ayoko nang madagdagan pa. Ayoko nang patuloy na magpakatanga.“Ashley…” Ipinihit ako ni Gem paharap, saka marahang kinabig palapit sa katawan niya. “Kahit minsan ba talaga, hindi ko naiparamdam sa `yo na mahalaga ka sa akin?”Impit na kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi. Nananakit na naman ang lalamunan ko sa pagpipigil na maluha. Na

Ashley Tinanghali ako ng gising mula sa halos magdamag na pag-iyak. Akala ko, kapag pinaalis ko si Gem ay tapos na ang lahat at hindi na ako masasaktan. Pero mas masakit pala ang isiping hindi ko na siya makikita pang muli. Hindi ko na maintindihan ang sarili. Itinaboy ko siya, pero ako naman ang nasaktan sa ginawa ko.Nagsusuklay ako ng buhok nang makaramdam ng pangangasim ng sikmura. Tumakbo ako papunta sa banyong malapit sa kusina. Nagkandaduwal ako sa toilet bowl habang nakasalampak sa sahig. Ganito na lang ako tuwing umaga; masusuka maski wala pang laman ang tiyan. Pulos laway lang naman ang inilalabas ko.Naramdaman ko na may humawi sa mahaba kong buhok at itinaas iyon, kasunod ang magaang paghagod sa likod ko hanggang sa tumigil ako sa pagduwal. May nagpunas ng tissue sa bibig ko at nagulat na lang ako nang makilala kung sino iyon.“Ano’ng ginagawa mo rito? Sino’ng nagpapasok sa `yo?”Hindi ako sinagot ni Gem. Sa halip, kinarga niya ako at dinala sa couch sa sala. Nagpunta uli

AshleyI made him mad again. Pero bakit ba siya nagagalit? Ano ang solusyon niya kung hindi annulment? Plano ba niyang manatili kaming kasal habang nagbabahay-bahayan sila ni Cindy? Was that the punishment he wanted to give me?No! I couldn’t take it anymore. Kaya kong i-tolerate ang mga sarcasm at insulto dahil alam ko namang galit siya sa akin. But cheating was another story. Hindi ko mapapayagan iyon. Especially now that we were going to be parents already. Ayokong makita ng anak ko ang harap-harapang panloloko niya sa akin. Ayokong kamuhian siya ng anak namin kapag nakita nito na hindi normal ang setup namin. Higit sa lahat, I didn’t want my child to get hurt knowing that his father didn’t love his mother. So we’d better part ways now, before our child was born.“Look, Gem. Alam kong galit ka sa akin. Malinaw na malinaw sa akin at naiparating mo sa akin nang maayos iyon. At natauhan na ako. Pagod na rin naman akong ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko sa taong hindi ako kayang mahalin.” I c

Gem It had been ten days and I felt like going crazy. Gabi-gabi na akong laman ng bar, katulad na lang ngayon. Alak na lang ang karamay ko. Hindi ko na alam kung saan hahanapin si Ashley. Maski ang parents niya na wala palang kaalam-alam na umalis si Ashley ay nagawa kong pagtanungan.Alam kong magagalit si Ashley kapag nalaman niyang pinag-alala ko pa ang parents niya. Pero mas mabuti na iyon para lumabas siya agad mula sa kung saang pinagtataguan niya.Sadly, hindi rin alam ng parents niya kung saan siya nagpunta. Gusto ko nang mawalan ng pag-asa. Saan puwedeng magpunta si Ashley? Dinadala niya ang anak ko at nakita ko naman kung gaano kahirap ang pagbubuntis niya. Dapat ay kasama niya ako at karamay sa mga mahihirap na sandaling iyon. Kung nalaman ko lang, hindi ko sana inuna ang trabaho at ang pride ko. Hindi sana ako naging makasarili.“Damn it!” Yamot na nagsalin ako ng whiskey sa baso at deretsong tinungga iyon.Mayamaya pa ay naramdaman kong may lumingkis ng yakap sa akin mul

Ashley “Indefinite leave? So, how long will it be? Two weeks? Three? A month?” Ngiti ang isinagot ko kay Art. “I don’t know either,” sabi ko habang inaayos ang mga gamit ko. In-endorse ko na rin sa kanya ang materials para sa next project namin. “Depende kung kailan ako papayagan ni Gem na bumalik sa work. You know, he is concerned with the baby. I am so sorry I have to leave the team like this—” “Ash…” concerned niyang sabi. “Don’t try to hide it. You can be real in front of me. You can cry on my shoulder. And I swear I’ll never judge you.” “Huh?” Inilayo ko ang tingin sa kanya. “What are you talking about?” “I know the real score between you and Gem. Hindi ka na umuuwi sa bahay n’yo.” Bigla akong napabaling kay Art. “I’m sorry, hindi ko sinasadyang sundan ka kahapon. I was just going to check on you, pero nakita kong umalis ka dala ang maraming gamit. Sa hotel ka tumuloy. And I’m guessing na nandoon pa rin ang mga gamit mo ngayon.” Napalingon ako sa paligid. Luckily, walang

AshleyThe next time I opened my eyes, sina Art at Ms. Lalaine ang nakita ko. Agad akong bumangon.“Nasaan tayo? Ang event? Sino ang nandoon?”“Don’t think about it. Maayos na natapos ang event. Everybody enjoyed the party. Nandito tayo sa infirmary ng hotel,” sabi ni Ms. Lalaine. “You shouldn’t push yourself too hard, lalo at ganyan na may dinadala ka na pala.” Magkahalo ang pag-aalala at saya sa boses niya.“Ano ba’ng nangyari pala?” tanong ko.“You fainted. Good thing Art was there to catch you. God! Ashley, be more careful. Ano’ng sasabihin ko kay Gem kung may nangyaring hindi maganda sa`yo? Hindi mo man lang sinabi sa akin ang kondisyon mo. I would have lessened your workload.”Na-confuse akong lalo sa sinabi ng boss ko. Napalingon ako kay Art na nakatitig lang din sa akin. Anong kondisyon ba ang sinasabi nila? May nakita ba ang doktor na tumingin sa akin na malalang sakit kaya madalas akong nahihilo?“Gem deserves a scolding, too. He was so secretive he didn’t tell me you were p

Vivienne It’s been a month and I am always there at Raylie’s villa, taking care of him while sharing with him the lessons that we had at school. He insisted on making me stay in the villa and I agreed just because he has to recover from his wounds and fractures. I told him I’ll be back in the apartment once he is fully recovered. Sometimes, I thought he was just faking the pain already just to keep me in the villa. His face was totally healed and he can walk already. Sometimes he was still limping and complained he was in pain but I usually caught him walking straightly. Just like now. He was walking on the pavement in his garden. It’s Saturday morning and we usually hang out in his garden during weekend mornings. I fished out my phone from my pocket and took a video of him walking. Then I silently walked towards him. “Boyfriend!” I yelled behind his back. Raylie seemed to be startled and stopped walking on the pavement. He started to

Raylie When I opened my eyes, I was in a hospital suite. Vivienne was there. And her eyes were red. I guess she was crying, again. “Oh, my God! You’re awake!” Vivienne quickly hugged me. I gathered her to my chest. “How long have I been asleep?” I whispered. “Almost twenty-four hours.” “And I guess you were crying for more than twenty-four hours. Look at your eyebags. Did you even take a nap?” “How could I sleep? You haven’t woken up since you collapsed in the building!” She hissed and let go of me. “And what kind of brain do you have? Why didn’t you call the police? You should not go there alone!” Vivienne started to nagged. “Right, you should not go there alone.” Logan entered the room together with Loki and Thore. “You’re such a fool! Wh

Raylie I asked Vivienne to live in the condo unit I took for her but she insisted on moving into the old apartment they used to live in. She said she paid for the rent for the whole Spring season. She felt better staying in the place where she paid with her hard earned money rather than in a comfortable condo unit that I provided for her. I don’t get it but I just agreed. After what just happened, after what we faced, I don’t want us to fight again. “It’s been a while since we went to the park together. I want to go there again.” Said Vivienne. It’s already dark. We enjoyed hanging out together with our friends. We went to the mall after school, played arcades and ate dinner together. It’s been a while since we laughed like that. And it feels so good. “Aren’t you tired?” Vivienne shook her head. “I wanted to go t

RaylieChloe went inside my room. Surprisingly, she had my phone. She threw it above my bed, beside me. I turned to her, stunned.“How did you get this?” I asked her.“I made a deal with Dad and Mom just to get that, your cards and for you to go back to school. So, you should do better at school starting tomorrow. Don’t skip school ever again, understand? You go to school and don’t do something foolish or you’ll be locked here again.”I sighed and plopped on the bed. “How can I do that? The only reason why I am coming to school wasn't there anymore.” I lazily closed my eyes.Thore and the twins told me that Vivienne and her family moved to a small town far from here. I tried to come to her but I couldn't. And even now that Chloe made a deal with our parents, I am certain Dad won’t let me come to wh

Vivienne St. Louis was a fishing village. How can Mom make pickles here? I sighed. It’s been three days since we moved here and Mom hasn't found a job. Me as well. How can a highschool student find a job in a small town like this? I sat on the wide seawall while watching the sundown. It’s always like this everyday since the first day. Mom would go to the shoreline to buy a bunch of new catched fish and she would sell it in retail at the town. While Vianna transferred to the nearby school. I felt sorry for Vianna. I know it’s hard for her too. And me, I don’t know what to do. I haven’t processed my papers from Brixton yet. All I just want is to escape from there. I sighed. I was thinking what are they doing right now? Were they happy? Is everyone celebrating the newly engaged couple? How about Raylie. Why didn’t he come that night? Thore said that it’s Raylie

Raylie “Let me out!” I shouted at the security guard. But they just pushed me back inside the main door. “You can’t go out, young master. That’s what the master told us.” Every exit was being guarded. I was about to come and meet Thore and Vivienne that night but my father’s men blocked me. My Dad even informed them to fight me if I insisted on going. As long as I am alive, it’s fine even if I am hurt. And that’s fucking bullshit! They arrange my engagement without my knowledge! I was surprised to hear the announcement. And I am sure Vivienne was confused as hell. I wanted to explain to her. I wanted to tell her that I will break the engagement even if it will cause me and my parents to disinherit me. I don’t care! My parents were already controlling Chloe’s life and I won’t let them do it to me too. I start

Shean felt she was going to die in suspense, she stood up and followed the way where she saw Randall and his parents took. She had not been so close to the back door, but she could already hear the familiar voices. And her brain seemed to explode when she heard them talking. “I will not accept her, Randall! How can I accept the sister of the person who caused us to lose your brother? Her sister killed your brother! And if I accept her, she will just remind me of the nightmare of your brother's death. Get her out of here, Randall! I can't accept that woman!” To Shean's shock, she reaches for something to hold on to. Her hands found the pot lying on the bleacher of plotted plants. She could not believe what she was hearing. It was as if her brain wanted to explode because it was too shocking, and her brain could not accommodate it all. What is Randall's mother saying? Shean could not understand, or rather say that she did not want to understand all of it. She could not a

SHEAN thought she wanted to go back home when she saw how luxurious the ancestral house Randall's car entered was. They were using his black convertible Ferrari.She also found out that the car he was driving was also his and not his cousin's. And it seems that the said car was like an outcast among the vehicles that he had. He has his own car collection. She did not know if she would be annoyed with Randall for hiding his true identity. But she didn't make it a big deal anymore because when she fell in love with Randall, it didn't matter to her who he really was."Hey, relax."Randall gently squeezed one of her hands as he guided her into the expansive lawn full of guests. And by the looks of them, the people present are obviously from the upper-class society people. She then felt that she was out of place. She was wearing an elegant black evening dress. Randall bought it for her. His

Shean's insanely growls as he began to taste her wet entrance. He enjoyed it as if he couldn’t get enough of her. Holding both of her thighs, he lifted her bottom from the bed so that he could carry out his full attack on her more. He was sucking her down there, teasing with his tongue, gentle making lines before he thrusts his tongue inside her.Shean growled and muttered endlessly. Her hips grind spontaneously at what he does.“Ran…” Shean couldn’t help herself from moaning. “Wait… just a moment. Mm — mm.”She doesn't know how to go along each time his tongue went in and out of her. He was as if fucking her brain out."I might come in no time…" Chasing her breath, she stopped him.But as if he was deaf, he still savagely does his thing.Randall keeps his pace as his tongue rigidly thrusts and withdrew inside her.

After the meal, Randall asked her to dance with him while the sunsets. The melodious music from the violin fills the air as the yacht where they are is moving slowly. And as she was gazing right through his very eyes, she had no doubts anymore. She could see how much he loves her. If she missed the opportunity to be loved and cherished by someone like Randall, she would probably regret it forever. Because being with him, having him near her was definitely heaven.Randall introduced himself to her in a quick way. He was the man behind ASC. The youngest son of the late governor of Camarines Sur. And because she did not care about politics, she did not know that. His mother is a doctor. And he promised to introduce her to his family on the upcoming 35th wedding anniversary of his parents. It makes her nervous because his parents are not just simple people.But then, she was pleased that this man wante

AFTER Shean introduces Randall to the family, the man invites him to the beach not far from their house. She even wondered why the car that Randall always brought was not there. Did he just take a cab?"Is your cousin home yet?" She couldn't help but ask."Huh?" He seemed confused."I mean, you didn't bring your cousin's car anymore. I assume your cousin had been taken away the car from you."Randall just smiled back at her and seemed to be in a hurry to pull her into the sea. They were in the sandy part when she noticed a yacht not far from the shore. It was just near the wooden bridge in a large U-shaped.“Whoah? Why is there trespassing here?” She commented when she saw the yacht.This part is a private place. It is a part of the property of her Tito Bernard. She did not remember that her step-father had a yacht, and they also did n

Forever love is not true. Human feelings are inconsistent. A person can be in love now but will change after some time.And Shean did not want to be a victim of temporary feelings. She does not want to fall in love because she knows it will be difficult when love is over. They will eventually separate. How will their child be? Will it be like her?She could not imagine the day would come when she and Randall would have to separate. What if, during those times, it became more difficult for her to let him go?Look at her now. They haven't even had a deeper relationship but leaving him hurts like hell; how much more if, they deepen it. The pain might be as painful as if it kills her just in case he falls out of love with her too.Or maybe, she might end up just like her mother, who only stays in the relationship because of commitment.‘Everything was ruined when I finally realized t

CHYNAGian went stunned. I let go of him and smiled so lovingly. I reached for his handsome face and gently caressed it.It was such an enchanting moment for us. I didn’t anticipate it will happen to me.“Rizzi, just stitch some lies to drive you away. Luckily, Flynn was willing to play along. He was not a doctor. He is a head nurse in the biggest hospital in the capital.”“But how did you know, Flynn?” Gian seems not convinced yet.“Here in EMG. That very day my nose bleeds non-stop. He was the one to catch me.”Gian winced. I wasn’t sure if he was grateful or dismayed.“That should be me!”He even made a ‘tsk’ sound. I laughed at his reaction.“Well, it was fine that he caught you while I am not present in the scene. But from now on, I promise to be with you forever. I'll be with you and accompany you wherever you wa

CHYNAI tried to pass over him, but he didn’t let me take another step.“Don’t you hear me? I love you, Chyna. And I know you still love me too. Don’t dare deny it because I know it! I can feel it! You won’t let me kiss you if you don’t have any feelings left for me, baby.”I harshly took my arm away from him. But Gian didn’t let go.“What the hell, Gian?! Do you hear yourself? We are both committed. And now, you’re telling me that you love me. You love me, and you love Camille as well. Three in a relationship is too crowded; you only need one, Gian. And one more thing…” I stopped and took a quick breath. My tears started to roll down my face. “Just because I still love you doesn’t mean I would let you play with my feelings. Don’t use it as a license to hurt me over and over again!”Gian let go of my arm, but he suddenly cupped my

CHYNA“You are too stubborn. Why did you keep coming inside without a guide?”I stopped stepping inside the EMG's entrance. I was startled to see Gian when I turned back. He was smiling while looking at me.And once again, my heart flew away from its ribcage to meet him. I wanted to run towards him, throw myself to him and hugged him tightly. But I can’t. I’ll just embarrass myself if I do that.I have enough.Enough to lay down my armour.It’s just what I need. Confirming that I don’t have anything that would make him want me anymore.But though I accepted my fate, my heart won’t stop loving him still.No way it would. Always and secretly, I will still love Gian. Maybe, until forever.“When is your boyfriend coming back? He should not leave you here. Lots of men here would love to be with you.&rdq

CHYNAI stayed inside Dasha's penthouse for almost two days. I still can’t get over what happened.Until Dasha has enough, she harshly opened the door of the room I am using.“Did you really want me to cancel my wedding?”I turned to Dasha, who seems to cry just after sitting on the bed.“Nah! What are you talking about?”“You’re caving here again!” She yelled out of desperation.I frowned. “What’s that got to do with your wedding? I mean, I was just a part of the entourage. I'm not the wedding organizer.”“Darn! How am I supposed to get married if one of the reasons why my sister was acting like this is my fiance?”“Huh?” I got confused.When I asked Dasha to report what happened, she did. But never gave me an update. She just said that everything was fine. Besides, I didn’t get hurt.It was tru

CHYNAGian walked me through the door, but he was suddenly stunned. The door wouldn’t open.“Are we locked?” I nervously asked.“I think so.”Gian tried hard to open the door, but it just wouldn’t open.“There’s another door here.”Gian pulled me in the other direction.“Huh? How did you know? Where are we?”“At the ground floor of the lighthouse. They purposely turned the lights off.”I just can’t tell what is going on. Who would dare do this to us?“Fuck! It’s locked too! I'll call Josh.”He tried to dial Josh, but his battery died.Fuck!“They planned this!”“Huh?”I just can’t see him. It’s dark, and his phone was drained. That’s the only light we have.“They were playing with us.”&ldq

GIANI AM on my way back to the cluster building when I noticed something. No, it’s someone.A fully clothed guy in black, wearing a mask and cap, was putting something into the ball car.Mask and cap? At night?It confused me. But my confusion turns into anger when I notice it’s an unconscious woman he puts inside the ball car.It’s Chyna!Even her mouth was sealed with packaging tape; I know it was her!Fuck!“Hey!”I hurriedly ran towards the ball car. But the man drives at full speed.I went out of my mind and couldn’t think of a way on how to save Chyna. I run fast as I could. The ball car was running toward Neptune Cove. I remembered that the campers were rescheduled for tomorrow. Today was the cleaning schedule.Is that why that man chooses to take Chyna? And who was that fucking asshole!?I swear I am going to kill that guy!&l