Anne Shirley Cuthbert

Setelah kematian kakakku, aku menandatangani pernikahan kontrak lima tahun dengan suaminya, Alexander Valendra yang adalah seorang mafia. Aku menjadi ibu tiri bagi keponakanku yang berusia lima tahun, Adriel Valendra. Di hari ulang tahunku, aku memakai kalung berlian milik kakakku yang sudah meninggal tanpa tahu apa maknanya. Saat acara makan malam keluarga, Adriel berjalan mendekat sambil membawa segelas anggur merah dan menyiramkannya ke wajahku. Anggur merah itu menetes di pipiku, aromanya yang tajam menusuk mataku dan mengotori gaunku yang putih. Dia menatapku, sorot matanya sedingin dan sekejam ayahnya. "Jangan pikir kamu bisa menggantikan ibuku hanya karena kamu sudah jadi bagian dari Keluarga Valendra," katanya sambil menyeringai. "Kamulah penyebab kematiannya." "Aku berharap kamulah yang mati. Jadi aku bisa menghancurkan batu nisanmu, dan bukan merayakan ulang tahun konyol ini." "Aku bersumpah, begitu aku dewasa nanti, hal pertama yang kulakukan adalah menenggelamkan kamu ke Sungai Mandira!" Kenangan itu menusuk setajam anggur tadi, dan yang bisa kurasakan hanyalah putus asa. Aku menatap anak yang sudah kuasuh selama lima tahun seperti anakku sendiri, dan rasa perih menusuk di dadaku. Aku dulu berpikir aku bisa sepenuhnya menyerahkan diriku untuk Keluarga Valendra, dan memenangkan hatinya dengan kasih sayang. Namun sekarang, aku hanya lelah dengan semuanya. Keluarga ini tak punya cinta, dan anak itu memandangku seperti musuh yang harus dihancurkan. Aku berhenti menipu diri sendiri. Sudah waktunya untuk melepaskan semuanya. Namun setelah aku pergi, Alexander dan Adriel kembali padaku, merayap seperti pecundang yang ketakutan, dan memohon ampun padaku.

Pela centésima vez, meu companheiro Alfa, Ryker, usou sua autoridade contra mim, ameaçando rejeitar nosso vínculo se eu não me sacrificasse pela minha irmã gêmea, Ivy. Não chorei nem protestei. Apenas assinei os papéis que acabariam com nosso vínculo de companheiros. Me rendi, entreguei o Alfa que amei por dez anos à minha irmã. Alguns dias depois, Ivy causou uma cena no Banquete da Aliança da Alcateia, humilhando a filha do Alfa de Silvermoon. Mais uma vez, dei um passo à frente para tomar o lugar dela, suportando a dor de uma marca de prata desfigurante. Mais tarde, quando exigiram que eu testasse a segurança do Ritual de Regeneração do Espírito do Lobo com o meu próprio corpo para minha irmã, aceitei com um sorriso. Meus pais, Betas da alcateia, com os olhos vermelhos de tanto chorar, disseram que eu finalmente estava sendo a irmã mais velha que deveria ser. Até mesmo Ryker, que sempre foi tão distante comigo, ficou diante da adega. Ele acariciou suavemente minha bochecha pela primeira vez em muito tempo e disse em voz baixa: — Harper, não tenha medo. Assim que o teste terminar, vou te levar para ver as auroras no Lago da Deusa da Lua. Mas ele não sabia que, independentemente do resultado do teste, nunca mais me veria. Meu espírito de lobo já estava se apagando. Nada poderia me salvar. Desta vez, quando eu fechasse os olhos, seria para sempre.

Zum hundertsten Mal hatte mein Alpha-Gefährte Ryker seinen Befehl gegen mich eingesetzt. Er drohte mir, unsere Bindung aufzulösen, falls ich mich nicht für meine Zwillingsschwester Ivy opferte. Ich weinte nicht. Ich protestierte nicht. Ich unterschrieb einfach die Papiere zur Auflösung unserer Gefährtenbindung. Ich überließ den Alpha, den ich zehn Jahre lang geliebt hatte, meiner Schwester. Wenige Tage später machte Ivy eine Szene beim Rudelallianz-Bankett und demütigte die Tochter des Silbermond-Alphas. Wieder einmal trat ich an ihre Stelle und ertrug den Schmerz eines entstellenden Silbermals. Später verlangten sie von mir, die Sicherheit des Wolfsgeist-Regenerationsrituals mit meinem eigenen Körper zu testen – für meine Schwester. Ich nahm lächelnd an. Meine Beta-Eltern blickten mich mit rotgeränderten Augen an und sagten, ich sei endlich die große Schwester, die ich hätte sein sollen. Selbst Ryker, der mir gegenüber immer so distanziert gewesen war, stand vor dem Keller. Zum ersten Mal seit einer Ewigkeit streichelte er sanft meine Wange und flüsterte: „Harper, hab keine Angst. Sobald die Prüfung vorbei ist, fahre ich mit dir zum Mondgöttinsee, um die Polarlichter zu sehen.“ Doch er wusste nicht, dass er mich nie wiedersehen würde – ganz gleich, wie die Prüfung ausging. Mein Wolfsgeist verblasste bereits. Nichts konnte mich mehr retten. Diesmal würde ich die Augen für immer schließen.

On the night of our mating ceremony, my Alpha, Damian, and I were ambushed by a rival pack. When I opened my eyes again, I was back in the past, before we had marked each other. In my previous life, we were true mates, chosen by the moon goddess, and had been together for seven years. I sacrificed everything to help him become the most powerful Alpha, yet he refused to even give me a pup. Only later did I learn that Damian's heart had always belonged to another—Aria, a she-wolf from a powerful bloodline. Reborn, I decided to let him chase his ambition. I severed our mate bond with my own hands and chose a completely different path. Seven years later, he became the most powerful Alpha in the alliance. At the annual summit, he and his beloved Aria announced their mating. When he saw me standing alone, he sneered. "Selene, I know you're still in love with me. You've loved me across two lifetimes. I'm the most exceptional Alpha you'll ever know." "But you need to stop destroying yourself over me." I ignored him, pulling my son into my arms. Damian's eyes flared crimson, his wolf's control slipping. "You told me you would only ever bear my pups!"

I'm going to die. In the eyes of the underworld, I was a sinner. My death would be a final, cursed dishonor. But even with the Ricci family in ruins, I was still the noble Principessa. The Ricci pride in my blood would not allow my body to fall into the hands of a rival Family. Humiliation. Desecration. Photographs flaunted for all to see. I didn't much care if my body became a trophy to celebrate their victory. But if the world knew the last of the Ricci bloodline had become a plaything for our enemies, it would be a disgrace to the entire Family. After weighing my options, I dragged my broken body to the turf of my ex-boyfriend, the man I'd left seven years ago, now the Don of the Falcone family. "After I die, I need you to handle my body." He was silent for a long moment, then let out a cold laugh. "Of course. I'll sink you in the Hudson River with a tombstone tied to your feet, engraved with the name of your filthy family."

J'étais la compagne secrète de l'Alpha Kade pendant quatre ans. La nuit où il m'a marquée, dans l'ardeur de la passion, il a plongé son regard dans le mien pendant un long, très long moment. « Tu sais, Anya, » avait-il murmuré, la voix rauque, « ce que j'aime le plus chez toi, ce sont tes magnifiques yeux. » Pour protéger sa prétention au titre d'Alpha, j'avais accepté de rester à ses côtés, en me faisant passer pour une guerrière Bêta. Du moins, jusqu'au jour où je l'ai vu passer son bras autour de la taille de ma demi-sœur, rayonnant de fierté devant tout le monde. Ce n'est que lorsque les murmures ont commencé à enfler, lorsque chacun chuchotait que la belle louve que l'Alpha avait ramenée avait mes yeux, que la vérité m'a frappée de plein fouet. Ce n'était jamais moi qu'il aimait. J'ai affronté Kade, exigeant une explication. Son visage n'exprimait que le mépris. « Une explication ? » « Tu croyais que c'était quoi, tout ça ? Ce n'était qu'une marque temporaire, rien de plus. Je ne t'ai jamais vue autrement que comme une sœur. » Je n'ai pas pleuré. Je n'ai pas crié. Je me suis simplement connectée par lien mental à mon ami d'enfance. « J'accepte l'invitation pour devenir Cheffe Guerrière de la meute de la Crête d'Argent. » Plus tard, quand Kade a découvert que j'avais attiré l'attention de son plus grand rival, il est devenu complètement fou.

When I returned from a mission, I found my Alpha mate, Wyatt, had tattooed his Beta's sigil next to our sacred mating mark. I cut my mission short, stormed back to the pack, and publicly declared my intent to Reject him. The mating mark is sacred, a symbol of two souls eternally bound. Desecrating it is the gravest insult to the Moon Goddess. Wyatt tore the rejection papers to shreds, casting them to the ground. Fury blazed in his wolfish eyes. "Over a sigil? You're tearing us apart over a meaningless symbol. Are you insane?" "Do I look like I'm kidding?" I sneered. "Fine. Let the Moon Goddess be your judge." The color drained from his face. "Faye, if you dare go through with this, I'll strip Rory of his birthright. He'll never be Alpha." "How could I be cursed with a mother like you? You're ruining my future as Alpha! I hate you!"My son, Rory, snarled from the side, his eyes burning with hatred. I looked at this father and son, who was now both strangers to me, and my heart turned to ash. My fingers tightened on my herb pouch. "The moment your father desecrated our mark," I said, my voice eerily calm, "I was already done with you."

Eight months pregnant, a contraction tore through me like a blade. But my husband, the Mafia boss Darren, refused to take me to the hospital. His sister-in-law, Angelina, his late brother's widow, was also due. To ensure she gave birth before me, she produced so-called proof of my infidelity, insisting the child I carried was no true Falcone. Because the heir to the Falcone family had to be the firstborn grandson. Darren believed her. He locked me in an abandoned wine cellar. “Don't think for a second I don't know what you've been up to.” “Let me tell you, you're not giving birth to that bastard until I've verified its bloodline myself.” “Angelina’s boy is of pure blood. I have to make sure her boy is the family's firstborn grandson.” I tried desperately to explain. “My water is about to break! Please, take me to the hospital! He’s your son, I swear on my life!” “I’ll never fight for the position of heir! I just want my baby to be safe!” Darren simply kicked me and shot me a glance. “Who knows if you’ll change your mind later? Don’t worry. I’ll come for you after Angelina gives birth. When the baby is born, I’ll see for myself whose it is.” Later, as he gazed at the crying infant in Angelina's arms, he finally thought of me. But one of his men informed him, his voice trembling: “Boss, the Madam… and the child… they're both dead.”

I turned a nobody from the streets into a Mafia, and I defied my papa—a man who loved me more than anything—to do it. For five years, I cast aside the honor of being a Principessa, all for the dream of a life with him. I thought the man I loved was on the verge of becoming the next Don of the Moretti family. But then my papa collapsed during his prayers in the church, suffering a massive cardiac arrest in the one place he believed was most sacred, most safe. Robin was by my side day and night, whispering encouragement. "Isabella, you have to be strong. It's the only way your papa can rest in peace." I was planning our wedding, ready to marry the man I thought I could trust with my life, when I overheard him talking to his mistress, Ava. "We finally got rid of the old bastard." "Once I marry Isabella, half the Moretti empire will be ours.." The five years I had willingly dedicated to him had been nothing more than an incubator for his twisted ambition. I wiped my tears and became the Moretti family's princess once more. I swore I would make them pay in blood. So, on the night before my wedding, I picked up my phone and dialed my brother's number. "Brother," I said. "It's time to close the net."

La nuit de notre cérémonie d'accouplement, mon Alpha Damon, et moi sommes tombés dans une embuscade tendue par une meute rivale. Lorsque j'ai rouvert les yeux, je me suis retrouvée dans le passé, avant que nous nous soyons marqués l'un l'autre. Dans ma vie précédente, nous étions de vrais compagnons, choisis par la déesse de la lune, et nous étions ensemble depuis sept ans. J'avais tout sacrifié pour l'aider à devenir l'Alpha le plus puissant, mais il avait refusé de me donner un petit. Ce n'est que plus tard que j'ai appris que le cœur de Damon avait toujours appartenu à une autre, Ariane, une louve issue d'une lignée puissante. Cette fois, j'ai décidé de le laisser poursuivre son ambition. J'ai rompu notre lien de compagnon de mes propres mains et j'ai choisi une voie complètement différente. Sept ans plus tard, il est devenu l'Alpha le plus puissant de l'alliance. Lors du sommet annuel, lui et sa bien-aimée Ariane ont annoncé leur accouplement. Lorsqu'il m'a vue seule, il a ricané. « Soline, je sais que tu es toujours amoureuse de moi. Tu m'as aimé pendant deux vies. Je suis l'Alpha le plus exceptionnel que tu n'aies jamais connu. » « Mais tu dois arrêter de te détruire pour moi. » Je l'ai ignoré et j'ai pris mon fils dans mes bras. Les yeux de Damon s'embrasaient, le contrôle de son loup s'estompant. « Tu m'as dit que tu ne porterais que mes petits ! »