Anne Shirley Cuthbert

Zum hundertsten Mal hatte mein Alpha-Gefährte Ryker seinen Befehl gegen mich eingesetzt. Er drohte mir, unsere Bindung aufzulösen, falls ich mich nicht für meine Zwillingsschwester Ivy opferte. Ich weinte nicht. Ich protestierte nicht. Ich unterschrieb einfach die Papiere zur Auflösung unserer Gefährtenbindung. Ich überließ den Alpha, den ich zehn Jahre lang geliebt hatte, meiner Schwester. Wenige Tage später machte Ivy eine Szene beim Rudelallianz-Bankett und demütigte die Tochter des Silbermond-Alphas. Wieder einmal trat ich an ihre Stelle und ertrug den Schmerz eines entstellenden Silbermals. Später verlangten sie von mir, die Sicherheit des Wolfsgeist-Regenerationsrituals mit meinem eigenen Körper zu testen – für meine Schwester. Ich nahm lächelnd an. Meine Beta-Eltern blickten mich mit rotgeränderten Augen an und sagten, ich sei endlich die große Schwester, die ich hätte sein sollen. Selbst Ryker, der mir gegenüber immer so distanziert gewesen war, stand vor dem Keller. Zum ersten Mal seit einer Ewigkeit streichelte er sanft meine Wange und flüsterte: „Harper, hab keine Angst. Sobald die Prüfung vorbei ist, fahre ich mit dir zum Mondgöttinsee, um die Polarlichter zu sehen.“ Doch er wusste nicht, dass er mich nie wiedersehen würde – ganz gleich, wie die Prüfung ausging. Mein Wolfsgeist verblasste bereits. Nichts konnte mich mehr retten. Diesmal würde ich die Augen für immer schließen.

That year, during the Sicilian arms trafficking conflict, my lover of three years, Silvio, deliberately betrayed my transport routes at a critical moment in a deal with the rival "DiMarco" family, causing me to lose all my territory. He immediately defected to the DiMarco family's leader Marina, becoming her lover. As he left, he didn't even bother to disguise his betrayal, coldly tossing out, "What we had was just business, nothing personal." While I was burdened with my family's blood debts and pushed to the edge of a cliff, Lorenzo, who had secretly harbored feelings for me since childhood, found me and offered his family's entire fortune. "Isabella, don't be afraid. In my eyes, you'll always be Sicily's most formidable Queen of the Arms Trade," he said. He took the Colt pistol from my hand, and his voice was gentle yet resolute. Five years later, my power resurged. I was about to completely crush Marina's smuggling network and reclaim everything I had lost. My caporegimes, the captains of my organization, were ready and waiting for my command. But on the night before the operation, my weapons warehouse suddenly exploded, turning priceless arms into worthless scrap metal. I barely escaped through the thick smoke, my body covered in burns. In a secluded monastery, I overheard Lorenzo and Silvio whispering outside my door. "You really had the guts to blow up the arsenal. Weren't you afraid of blasting her to pieces too?" Silvio's voice carried a mocking tone. "If she died, just died. I've always loved Marina. If it weren't for that unlucky family marriage lottery five years ago, I wouldn't have had to endure this ugly bitch for all this time." Lorenzo's voice was ice-cold and unfamiliar. I closed my eyes, feeling like a dagger had pierced my chest. Explosion. Arranged marriage. Ugly bitch. So those five years of shared hardship were just his unwilling choice after losing a high-stakes gamble. "I married her to keep watch. If it weren't for me paving

The first time Rafael betrayed me, he threw the woman from his club at my feet. His eyes were bloodshot as he told me to take my pick. My love for him was a sickness, so I forgave the transgression. For the second betrayal, I had the dancer sent out of New York, warning her never to set foot on the East Coast again. On the night of our engagement party, sealing the union of our two families, Rafael pinned me against the walnut desk in the study. His eyes burned with rage as he demanded: "Where is Nina? She's carrying a Mancini heir." "It was a mistake. You can take your anger out on me. Nina is naive; she doesn't deserve this. I'm begging you, just let the child be born safely. I swear I'll never see her again." "You're afraid of childbirth. This gives you an heir without the risk." "Listen, Alessia. You are the future Donna of the Mancini family. When that child is born, it will know only you as its mother. I swear on my life." He forced me backward until shards from the vase I'd knocked over cut into my skin, staining my silk dress with blood. I looked at him and smiled, then gave him the address of a safe house in Brooklyn. He slammed the heavy oak door behind him. Shaking, I pulled out my encrypted phone. "You were right about him. Is your offer still on the table?"

Beim neunundneunzigsten Mal, dass mein Alpha-Gefährte unsere Gedankenverbindung kappte, war ich bereits in der Endphase des Wolfsgeistverfalls. Ich schleppte meinen gebrochenen Körper in die Rathalle. Die kalten Marmorstufen schabten an meinen Fußsohlen, und mit jedem Schritt durchzog ein stechender Schmerz meine Brust. „Ich bin hier, um einen Antrag auf Verlassen des Rudels zu stellen.“ Der Ratsbeamte musterte meine blasse, gebeugte Gestalt mit mitleidigem Blick und fragte leise: „Sind Sie sich ganz sicher? Sie würden damit den Schutz des Rudels verlieren.“ Seit meiner Kindheit war meine Wölfin unstet, sodass ich stets kränklich und schwach war. Seit mein Vater meine adoptierte Schwester Lydia nach Hause brachte, als ich zehn war, behandelten mich meine Eltern wie eine Schande für die Familie. Obwohl ich jahrelang seine markierte Gefährtin war, versprach Caleb mir niemals eine Luna-Zeremonie. Er nahm mich selten zu Rudelversammlungen mit, kaum jemals. Infolgedessen wusste kaum jemand im Rudel, wer ich war. „Das spielt keine Rolle“, sagte ich mit erstaunlich ruhiger Stimme, trotz aller Anstrengung. „In drei Tagen werde ich ohnehin sterben.“

Setelah kematian kakakku, aku menandatangani pernikahan kontrak lima tahun dengan suaminya, Alexander Valendra yang adalah seorang mafia. Aku menjadi ibu tiri bagi keponakanku yang berusia lima tahun, Adriel Valendra. Di hari ulang tahunku, aku memakai kalung berlian milik kakakku yang sudah meninggal tanpa tahu apa maknanya. Saat acara makan malam keluarga, Adriel berjalan mendekat sambil membawa segelas anggur merah dan menyiramkannya ke wajahku. Anggur merah itu menetes di pipiku, aromanya yang tajam menusuk mataku dan mengotori gaunku yang putih. Dia menatapku, sorot matanya sedingin dan sekejam ayahnya. "Jangan pikir kamu bisa menggantikan ibuku hanya karena kamu sudah jadi bagian dari Keluarga Valendra," katanya sambil menyeringai. "Kamulah penyebab kematiannya." "Aku berharap kamulah yang mati. Jadi aku bisa menghancurkan batu nisanmu, dan bukan merayakan ulang tahun konyol ini." "Aku bersumpah, begitu aku dewasa nanti, hal pertama yang kulakukan adalah menenggelamkan kamu ke Sungai Mandira!" Kenangan itu menusuk setajam anggur tadi, dan yang bisa kurasakan hanyalah putus asa. Aku menatap anak yang sudah kuasuh selama lima tahun seperti anakku sendiri, dan rasa perih menusuk di dadaku. Aku dulu berpikir aku bisa sepenuhnya menyerahkan diriku untuk Keluarga Valendra, dan memenangkan hatinya dengan kasih sayang. Namun sekarang, aku hanya lelah dengan semuanya. Keluarga ini tak punya cinta, dan anak itu memandangku seperti musuh yang harus dihancurkan. Aku berhenti menipu diri sendiri. Sudah waktunya untuk melepaskan semuanya. Namun setelah aku pergi, Alexander dan Adriel kembali padaku, merayap seperti pecundang yang ketakutan, dan memohon ampun padaku.

The Clan Healer told me that without the vial of Progenitor's Blood, the Blood Blight afflicting me meant I had only seventy-two hours to live. But my husband, Miles, the new Duke of our world, gave the only vial of the precious cure to my adopted sister, Vivienne, the woman I had turned three years ago. "She's in agony from the rejection, Isolde. It's a pain you can't possibly understand." His tone was self-righteous, devoid of any concern for the patch of skin on my collarbone already turning to stone. I nodded, watching as the life-saving, dark red liquid slid down another woman's throat. I accomplished a great deal in the time I had left. As I signed the documents, the lawyer's hand trembled. "Are you certain you want to transfer everything, Your Grace? The territorial rights of a thousand-year-old clan..." I didn't hesitate. "Yes. To Vivienne." My adopted daughter, Lily, the girl I had risked everything to save, who was now forever frozen at the age of eight, cowered in Vivienne's arms, pointing at me and screaming, "Aunt Vivienne is my real mommy! You're the witch who turned us into monsters!" I offered no defense. "Yes, that's right. Be a good girl and listen to your new mother now." The Progenitor's Ring, the symbol of the clan's supreme authority, now rested on Vivienne's hand. "Oh, sister, you're too kind," she sobbed, her sobs a practiced performance. "I'll be sure to protect the family in your stead." I nodded. "You'll run things better than I ever did." I even signed away my control over the Elder Council, a council sustained by my own blood. For the first time in a century, a shadow of complex emotion crossed Miles's face. He stared at me,"Isolde, stop fighting. It's better this way. You need to rest." Yes. On my deathbed, I had finally become the perfect, submissive Isolde they always wanted. An Isolde who was about to turn to dust. The seventy-two-hour countdown had begun. I wondered, when I finally turned to ash,

La noche antes de que mi prometido, Soren, y yo partiéramos hacia el Norte de Europa para comenzar nuestra nueva vida, los sonidos de una animada discusión se filtraron desde su club privado. —Dios mío, jefe, ¿estás loco? ¿Por qué esta alianza matrimonial repentina con la familia Rosetti para hacer una jugada por Italia? ¿No dijiste que dejarías esta vida con Abby y te dirigirías al norte? Soren se reclinó en un sofá de cuero, su voz fue de indiferencia y amortiguada por una nube de humo. —Los planes cambian. Además, recuerda, yo soy el que la hizo quien es. Una vez que vea el nuevo imperio que estoy construyendo, ese pequeño canario volverá volando a mi jaula. Esa mujer no puede vivir sin mí. Me quedé en las sombras del club, con una copa de vino en la mano, y un dolor fuerte floreciendo en mi pecho. El regalo de aniversario que había elegido con tanto cuidado para Soren todavía estaba en mi bolso, esperando a que se lo diera. Salí del club lleno de humo, tiré el regalo al cubo de basura más cercano y reservé un billete de ida al Norte de Europa. Pero lo que él no sabía era que, justo como él podía traicionar nuestro futuro por Mónica, yo podía abandonarlo por el mío. Todos esos años que pasamos bailando con la muerte nunca fueron sólo por ella.

J'étais autrefois la princesse chérie de la Meute de la Lune d'Argent, adorée de tous. À l'époque, je suis tombée amoureuse de Karl, l'un des sauvages de la meute. Mais lorsque je me suis ennuyée de notre petite histoire, je l'ai écarté sans hésiter. Des années plus tard, ma meute a été détruite et mes parents ont été tués. Karl, cependant, était devenu l'Alpha d'une nouvelle meute puissante. Il m'a revendiquée, me forçant à devenir sa Luna. Tout le monde disait que j'avais de la chance, mais ils ne connaissaient pas la vérité. Ils ne savaient pas qu'il ramenait chaque nuit différentes louves sur notre territoire. Et à cause de notre lien de compagnon, chaque moment d'intimité entre eux me brûlait l'âme comme un feu ardent. Je n'ai jamais pleuré, je n'ai jamais protesté, j'ai simplement tout enduré en silence. Mais mon silence ne faisait que rendre Karl plus instable. Cette fois-ci, il est allé encore plus loin. Il a mis sa Bêta, Cholé, enceinte. Mais je restais calme. Furieux, Karl m'a projetée contre un mur de pierre rugueux. « Estelle, tu m'aimes ou pas ? » Je pensais que ses accès de colère étaient une manifestation tordue de son amour, qu'il attendait que je craque. Mais ensuite, Cholé et moi commencions à accoucher en même temps. Je l'ai supplié de m'emmener d'abord à l'hôpital de la meute, et je voulais lui dire que je n'avais pas eu le choix lorsque je l'avais rejeté à l'époque. Il m'a serrée dans ses bras, pour me repousser quelques instants plus tard. « Tu vois ? Je savais que tu craquerais. » « Arrête de faire semblant. Tu te prends vraiment pour une princesse hautaine et puissante ? » Il a ignoré mes supplications, ignoré la vie de son propre petit en moi. Il a pris Cholé dans ses bras et est parti sans se retourner. Sa voix froide a résonné dans notre lien mental. « Ne t'inquiète pas, je ne t'abandonne pas. » « Tu mérites de ressentir une fraction de la douleur que j'ai ressentie quand tu m'as rejeté. Savoure-la. »

I've stood before a priest and sworn my vows to the same man seven times. And for the seventh time, I've signed divorce papers in front of the family lawyer. At our first wedding, the youngest Capo of the Throne family held my hand and promised, "From this day forward, my life is yours and yours alone." But whenever his childhood sweetheart stirred up trouble and needed his protection, Carter's vow to me would conveniently become a sanctuary for her. "Tessa's in trouble again, Maeve. For your own safety, we have to get a divorce for now." The first time I was forced to divorce, I threatened him with the honor of our families' alliance, even vowing to expose his betrayal at a family gathering. His men dragged me out of the manor. The third time I signed the papers, I humbled myself, sneaking into the family's private club just to catch a glimpse of him from afar. By the sixth time, I had learned to quietly pack my few belongings in this house of lies, without putting up a fight. My breakdowns and desperate, undignified attempts to save us were only ever met with Carter's reliable promise to remarry me, just before another round of the divorce game he played for Tessa's sake. Until this time. After hearing Tessa was returning to New York from Italy, I didn't wait for Carter to speak. I placed the signed divorce papers in his study myself. Just like always, he casually set a date for our remarriage. But he didn't know that day was the day I would disappear from his world forever.

On the day we were supposed to get engaged, my fiancé, Marco, married the Don's daughter. My father was framed and thrown in jail. I needed five million dollars to get him out. Then Marco found me. "Be my mistress," he offered, "and I'll save your father." I smiled and turned to the man lurking in the shadows, a man known for his power, brutality, and his stone-cold heart. They said the king of the underworld never let a woman spend the night. But with me, he buried his head in my hair, his fingers tracing the curve of my waist. The floor-to-ceiling windows, the mahogany desk, and the ornate carved bed all became our battlegrounds. And there was one thing I forgot to tell Marco. The man I was with was Dante Landini, the cold-blooded Don of the Landini family, who was Marco's soon-to-be father-in-law.