All Chapters of The Lottery Mate: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

WARNING: This chapter contains suicidal thoughts and a suicide attempt!!!Lesley’s POVI wanted to stay in that room for the rest of eternity! But like all good things they must come to an end and I knew that sooner or later I had to come out. Carefully I opened the door and I realized that Cedrick’s office door was closed.Carefully, I snuck by, taking a deep sniff. He was still there. His scent was strong--- and utterly and completely intoxicating! It assaulted my senses, making me weak in the knee and sending shivers of pleasure down my spine.Stupid mate-bond!I speed-snuck by the door and back down the stairs. All I wanted to do, was to rush out the door and go home – for however long it was home. But of course, as I entered the last step, Emma waved me over, wanting to hear all the details. I mentally groaned and had to fight the tears that threatened to spill again. Everything inside me was hurting,

Cedrick’s POVMorning after pill.The text was still on my screen and had been there since this morning. “Plan B”. It had a rather nice ring to it. Hint: sarcasm!Morning after pill.Also known as Levonorgestrel. It was a pill for women in order to prevent pregnancy, in case protection had failed. It, basically, killed the fetus, by altering the lining of the uterus so it couldn’t become attached and develop into a human being.Morning after pill.Rage, anger, and fury burned inside me.This morning one of the pack nurses came up to me and said, "Sorry for your loss". I had no idea what she was talking about. Then she told me. Apparently, Lesley had been at the hospital on her first day here. I wanted to know more, but the nurse asked me to talk to Anja to hear the rest. And Anja told me. This was what my mate had asked for.Morning. After. Pill.Of course, Mitch had walked in right as I called her and misunderstood the entire situation. And my anger quickly got the better of me. I wa

Lesley's POV“Why?” Cedrick gritted between his teeth, folding his huge arms over his broad chest. His eyes avoided mine and were burning holes in the carpet on the floor.“I-I want to see if there are any audiobooks lying around,” I replied, cursing my nervous stutter. Why was I so freaking nervous?! Oh, yeah! The last time we spoke, he almost strangled me!--- And yet, I was over the moon seeing him here. He didn’t smell like another woman! In fact, he smelled like an old couch and breath mints. You know? The ones you keep in your desk for emergencies. He spent the night at the office! And for some stupid unexplainable reason, that made me happy!“Why?” he asked surprised, quickly ripping the rug out from under my happy moment and bringing me back down to reality…“So I can get my homework done,” I muttered, stealing a glance at his annoyingly perfect face from time to time.

Lesley's POVI mentally rolled my eyes at him.And here I was thinking he was constipated! My wolf grinned--- and I just loved her even more.“If it’s any consolation, you look younger,” I answered, gesturing to the missing beard. And I hoped he got the hint to let it grow back. He looked better with it!“I know,” he just answered pointedly, picking up the fork and knife. “Still doesn’t change the numbers though.”“Relax! What’s the worst that could happen?” I replied and rolled my eyes. Grabbing my burger with both hands and gobbled down another mouthful. From the corner of my eye, I caught Cedrick’s astonished face while I chewed. “I’m part wolf,” I shrugged, unapologetically, swallowing, and hurried to take another bite. “Sorry if I eat like one.”He laughed, but quickly and nervously looked around as if he&rsquo

Lesley's POVCedrick didn’t protest but fell in step with me. We ordered a large chip each and once we got our order, we continued to walk down the pier.“So,” Cedrick started out, a bit insecure. “Is this what qualifies as fun for you?”“This was the only fun I could have,” I confessed and mentally rolled my eyes when I met his surprised expression. “I was an Omega, remember?” I had to remind him. “I didn’t get paid, but by making the right kind of friends, I could get into clubs and stuff without paying.”“How do you make friends like that?”“I offered them my services,” I smirked--- without thinking how that sounded…“What?!” Cedrick exclaimed shocked and his wide eyes found mine. At first, I didn’t really get it--- until my wolf practically barked some sense back into me.“Oh, fuc