Semua Bab Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!: Bab 31 - Bab 40

Irvin didn't answer Gideon. He picked up the bottle and poured himself another drink."Irvin, honestly, I can't feel your love for her at all. If you truly love someone, you'd never bear to see them hurt. But all you've done is hurt Emilia," Gideon said. "Then again, if you don't love her, why are you so tormented now?"Gideon didn't understand him at all. Did he love me or not? If he did, then why did he hurt me all the time? If he didn't, what was he agonizing over now?The contradiction baffled him.Irvin remained silent. He didn't know what to say.Just then, his phone rang. It was Julianne calling.As soon as he answered, Julianne's soft voice came from the other end of the line. "Irvin, my chest hurts so much I can't sleep. Every time I fall asleep, the pain wakes me up. Do you think it's because I caught a chill after falling into the water last night? Could you come over for a bit?"In the past, Irvin would've dropped everything and rushed to Julianne's side without hesi

The one who truly loved me would think of the pain I've suffered first and foremost and feel sorry for me.Seeing Cordelia crying made my heart ache; I just wanted to hold her and cry with her. These past few days I had spent in the hospital had been unbearably painful and lonely.Every night, I couldn't sleep without painkillers or sleeping pills, and even then, I still had trouble falling asleep.I would see others who only suffered minor injuries surrounded by their families and fussed over by their loved ones. Meanwhile, I couldn't even move, and there was no one by my side at all.Nobody cared about me. In fact, they were all hoping that I would die. I was in so much pain, both physically and emotionally.I was so tired.All I wanted to do was have a nice, good cry.But I didn't cry with her. If I did, it would make her feel even worse. She would feel even guiltier.So, I waved over a few of the strippers.The past was the past now. We didn't need to relive the pain; all

Like a wild animal, Irvin lunged at me and grabbed my wrist. "What do you think you're doing, Emilia?"Seeing him, the smile on my face vanished instantly. I frowned and said impatiently, "Why are you shouting? We're in public. You're acting like a lunatic!"Irvin paused as if he couldn't understand how I was still acting so bold and guiltless when I'd refused to see him when he was hospitalized for gastric bleeding, opting instead to enjoy myself at the strip club.However, he soon realized that my words sounded eerily familiar. Then, it hit him—he had said the same thing to me after I had caught him shopping with Julianne and acting intimate with her. At the time, I had just recovered from taking a stabbing for him and was still suffering from physical and emotional torment from Julianne. I had lost my cool and yelled at them in public; in return, he had said those exact words to me coldly and callously.Irvin blanched.After a long silence, he finally said, "Emi, you can be a

Shaun was a good man. Knowing how much I wanted to see Mr. Holland, he soon found an excuse to invite him out."Are you sure you don't want to join us for a meal?" he asked. He wanted me to meet Mr. Holland openly, but I did not dare.I felt scared and guilty.He had probably worked really hard to forget about me; I didn't want him to remember how disappointed he was in me or feel regret over what I had turned out to be."Don't overthink it. Mr. Holland has brought you up many times over the past few years. He did sound regretful about you, but I can tell that he still misses you," Shaun told me. "When a teacher genuinely likes a student, they wouldn't stay mad for long. Trust me, I'm a teacher now, too."After returning from a research institute aboard, Shaun had begun taking on his own students.I knew that he had only the best intentions for me, but I still declined his kind offer. Apart from gear, I also didn't know how to face Mr. Holland.All I wanted was to catch a glimps

I looked at Julianne, whom Irvin was holding in his arms, disdainfully. I really couldn't stand people like them—always claiming innocence yet doing everything to prove otherwise.Irvin seemed to remember that he was holding Julianne. He quickly put her down, ignoring the dark expression on her face."Lianne sprained her ankle just now. I was just taking her to the hospital," he explained.In the past, whenever I questioned the closeness between him and Julianne, he would always get impatient, accusing me of being unreasonable and difficult, and of projecting my insecurity on him.He never bothered to explain himself.But now, when I no longer needed any explanation, he finally felt the need to do so."I don't care what you're doing with her, nor do I want to know," I said coldly. "I only mentioned it to remind you that you have no right to question me about anything!"I had lost enough to this scumbag. I didn't need to be accused of infidelity too.After speaking, I smiled apo